Jul 30, 2008
Jul 27, 2008
2. I've come to realize that when I talk:he doesn't listen
3. I've come to realize that I love:my hometown
4. I've come to realize that my friends:few and rare.
5. I've come to realize that I've lost:my carefree days
7. I've come to realize that marriage is:not something easy.
8. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking:that their life is better than mine.
9. I've come to realize that I'll always:get lost sometimes
10. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:hehehehehehe..I'm married ok..it's not right.
11. I've come to realize that the last time I truly cried was:really bad..
12. I've come to realize that, my cell phone:is not as important anymore
13. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:I dread waking up for work.
14. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:imagine things that I can never go back to.
15. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:my life
16. I've come to realize that I get on myspace:when there's something interesting to look for.
17. I've come to realize that today:is Sunday.Tomorrow kerja and yet I still haven't finished my report!
18. I've come to realize that tonight I will:probably stay up late to finish that stupid report
19. I've come to realize that, my school:were the simplest time of my life.
20. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will have to:go to work.
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
haven't seen myself on the mirror yet.
2. How much cash do you have on you?
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
4. Favorite planet?
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
7. What shirt are you wearing?
8. Do you "label" yourself as anything?
used to be crazy..now just confused and misunderstood
9. Name the shoe brand you are wearing.
10. Bright or Dark room?
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?
lucky in many ways.hope she realizes it.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
at wangsa maju eating chicken wings.
14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
"Ok..tunggu sat k"
15. Where is your mailbox?
downstairs where everyone's mailboxes are
16. What's a phrase that you say a lot?
17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
18. Last furry thing you touched?
momo the cat
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
20. When was the last time you had some fun?
when i was with the girls
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
22. Your worst enemy?
23. Current image on your desktop?
sunset somewhere i dunno..windows template
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
my skype name is l....
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
money for now
26. Do you like someone?
I guess so
27.what was the last song you listened to?
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
I don't know
29. If you could punch one person in your life right now, who would it be?
I don't know..can't think of any now..
30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
Jul 26, 2008
Jul 25, 2008
Today's question "Can Money Buy Love?"
CAANNNNNNNN!! Although I must say it can't buy mine entirely (take note 'entirely'). I have observed some people who are in relationships that are based on money. The MBS crew called it 'Ka-ching! Love'. Honestly..they're not very happy couple. I believe that money can't buy everything..short-lived happiness can la..but eternal bliss..aaahhh....tak boleh!
Actually, it all depends on the person itself jugakla. I mean, if right from the start, your passion/ambition is money..then yes..money can buy your love. But if you're the kind of person who wants the more holistic approach to life (namely moi!) then money alone just don't cut it. Yes, money makes it easier, but admit it..it's not everything.
I actually was asked this question before
"Kau nak kaya ke kau nak happy?"
"Of course happy...kaya tak penting"
He didn't believe me. He thought I was just saying it...that was the last time I went out with him..
If you've read my blog I'm a person lacking in passion. Although I'm programmed to survive (chewah!) but somehow my survival instinct is more towards finding true happiness. I knew I didn't want to end up filthy rich (notice how being REALLY rich is referred to as FILTHY?). My hubby says I'm lurus bendul...sometimes too honest and naive (in certain things ok..am not THAT naive). He says I'm someone yang jujur..(wah..I love you busyuk!) So I don't like it when I know of some fishy or dirty plan going on..I get uncomfortable and I stay away from the fishy/dirty person. I don't take advantage of people EXCEPT when I don't have a choice *survival mode*(I'm sorry again to those yg feel that I'm such person) But when that does happen, I only take what I need at a minimal cost..and I try my best to return/contribute back what I can.
Honestly, I'm scared of rich guys. I know I'd be lying if I say I don't like to be pampered with gifts and such..
But rich guys..haiyo....not my league.
You see..I'm the selekeh type of girl. I grew up with 2 brothers (have an older sister but she didn't want to play with me when I was a kid..thot I was annoying) so I HAD to be one of the boys. I've climbed trees, scraped my knees, 'benjol'ed my kepala, caught a snake and am not squirmy when it gets to reptiles and insects. Very tomboy la..
So dressing up and and wearing make-up and etc..not my thing. I wanted to be a policewoman or a firefighter when I was a kid. But yes..it's the inevitable. I went to an all girls school..I hang out with a group of the most GORGEOUS Engineering students in Uni (yes they are!) So bit by bit..the fashion conciousness crept in la sikit. But I'm still the most selekeh in the group. Til now..(but i am a bit brain damaged now so I do hv my Paris Hilton moments!:P)
So when you have a rich bf.......alamak...expectations sgt la tinggi. U see, my theory is, rich guys likes trophy girlfriends. Prim, proper and pretty (3P) which I'm none of those! I'm more of the 3S type..Selekeh, Sengal and Crazy (it should be 2S and 1C..couldn't think of another S word to describe me). I can never be a TROPHY! I don't want to be a trophy anyway..I'm too smart and loud to just 'be seen not heard'.. :P
But there are girls who are the 'trophy' type. It's ok...the rich boys market are ALL yours! I'm off the market anyway.
So there you have it...Money can buy love, but just not mine.
Jul 23, 2008
If you believe anything worth doing is worth overdoing, then the "Overkill" deck is right up your alley.
Will be rounding up the old MTG friends this weekend and I'm stoked!!!Guys..lookout for overkill! It's gonna burn worse than Ghitu Fire!
Get ready to meet my new innocuous army..
And plus some cataclysmic sorcery..
So okay..I am quoting all those bogus words (innocuous and cataclysmic?barely know what it means..but it sounds mean!:P) from the box..but I soooo want these cards! They're definitely polluted and corrupted!
Checkout the rest of the Shadowmoor visual spoilers!
Amacam geng? Dah takut??this soooo gonna be more offensive than my previous deck! Although still sakit hati my whole collection got burned together with the 'attached relationship'..this new deck just made up for it...
*just like the old days*
Jul 22, 2008
On a different note..
I changed my blog name today. Have been thinking of doing so for a while now. Today I will tell you the story of how I came about with spotlight *superstar*
I have this friend..his name is Scott Russell. My classmate from Uni. We were pretty tight back then (he extended an extra semester just for me..so he says..papehal pun i still think that's sweet of him *smiles*) He sits next to me when we have the same class, and most of the time we are in the same group for any assignments. He sometimes calls me "Boss"..he still does til today..
So we spent a lot of time together. And NO! we were never an item! But one day, a junior(maybe..he didn't really know the person was or do you Scott?) came up to him and asked
"Tak pegi lunch dgn your gf ke today?"
"Sapa?" looking confused
He WAS waiting to go for lunch with me that time but he didnt answer that person..he just buat donno..
So when he saw me that afternoon he told me the about the conversation..and he came to a conclusion..
"Do you noticed tak...whoever that hangs out with you will become well known in the campus.."
He wasn't pissed off that we were gossiped about, he kinda found it funny because a total stranger can come up to him and say such thing. He didn't know that he was being observed in campus.
Then Scott said
"Kau ni mcm spotlight bah! Whoever crosses paths with you becomes famous.."
I gave it a little thought and agreed...
Me and my girls (Beeps and Sophie laa) used to have this very bad habit during final exams. We study together a lot and by studying I mean laughing and gossiping.
So this one night..while we were seriously studying in Beeps & Sophie's room..I suddenly broke out and said..
"Aku nak jadi superstar la..walaupun takde bakat nak nyanyi atau berlakon..tapi aku nak jadi superstar..Kalau aku kawin dgn celebrity kau rasa aku boleh famous tak?"
Then we all start listing out the eligible celebrity bachelor in Malaysia...takde yang sesuai..
"Kalau aku la kan" said Beeps "Aku nak jadi penyanyi yang famous menyanyi atas pentas..alaa..macam video clip Mariah Carey Never Too Far Away tu!! Pastu ada orang baling bunga kat atas pentas..aduh! Bestnya!!!!!" dengan penuh syok sendiri...
We agreed that that was achieveable..Beeps can sing..
"Aku nak jadi perempuan cabaret..." said Sophie..
"Aku akan pakai dress merah dalam club sambil tengok live band"
"Pastu duduk macam ni" starts a sultry pose..
"Siap dgn rokok kat tangan" conjures up an imaginary cigarette..
And we all break into a laugh..Sophie is the biggest drama queen ever with the funniest imagination (which she's sometimes very serious about)..and I love her for that..
Ever since that day, I held on to the *superstar* dream. I would revisit it every final exams week. Sometimes I'd want to be Paris Hilton (being an engineering student can actually give you brain damage and make you want to become a bimbo sometimes!:P) but that's a different story..
But the truth is..
It must be my name....
You see..my full name is Nur Syahira and in arabic
Nur = Cahaya;Light --->Spotlight
Syahira = Kemasyhuran;Fame ---> *superstar*
So there you have it..
Welcome to spotlight*superstar*..the mind of the confused and misunderstood and sometimes just plain crazy....:)
Jul 21, 2008
Am having a very sleepy day at the office today. So have been browsing through everyone's pictures (facebook la..ape lagi). Looking at Beeps..all the way there in Sydney. Doing her Masters, frantically telling me "Shaaaaaaa...aku rasa nak balik mesia je after first day" coz apparently..it's a tough course. Although I know she only needed someone to hear her out..I know she can do it. No matter how hard it is..she will make it..
Because she has passion...
Sorry Beeps if I tell this story without your permission, but please know that I'm only telling it because I am so proud of you.
Beeps messed up her first year in Uni..Really messed up..thank god UM was not like UTM (Universiti Tendang Menendang) she barely survived second year too (mind you..I was in the same boat too!) But come third year..something happened to her...Passion..She started to ace all her papers to the extend that even the lecturers were surprised. From a student with a pointer below 1.0, Beeps graduate 3.07 (*correct me if salah k babe). She is currently employed by UMS and is sent to Sydney (full Scholarship) to continue her Masters so she can one day become UMS's lecturer. *her students won't have a chance to tipu her..she can say been there done that because SHE HAS been there, done that*
You see..I am a VERY smart girl (bukan niat nak membongkak)..I can study the night before a paper, not knowing a single shit I did the whole semester and pass the exam the next day. But there lies the problem...I passed...For a VERY smart girl..I should've EXCELLED...
Are we all born with passion or do you instill it? Let's assume that we're born with a little passion..
I was the best student in my town at the age of 12. Gave me my ticket to continue my studies in the best all-girls boarding school in Malaysia - Tunku Kurshiah College. My parents got divorced when I was 11, mom re-married immediately..I was broken hearted and a little bit confused. Home was not home coz I didn't even have one (was moving about so much). So school was all I had. Actually, I didn't study that much..I just had greaat teachers.
Went to boarding school..I think TKC saved me. God knows what I would've become if I were to go to a normal day-school with a household I had at that time. No one paid attention to me. I was a nobody. My parents were nobody, I was nothing special either..everyone there was just as smart or maybe smarter with parents who were somebody..or at least parents who paid attention to their kids. I was alone. Whether I like it or not there..I have to survive..I don't have anywhere else to go..
First year was awkward..2nd year was plain cruel but I have good friends and the person I want to thank the most for making my TKC experience priceless is Dektutt..my oh-so-blur deskmate who was confused when the other girls asked her "Macam mana kau boleh tahan dgn Sasha?" because she said "Nak tahan ape?" Aku sayang kau Dektutt..for just being you..
Politics in TKC was vicious...you can say it's a girls thing...
I made it big in 3rd year...I joined the right thing and played the right sports. Mom was surprised I could even play a sport....."Boleh ke kau ni? Lembik semacam je aku tgk" I was the school Basketball player and athelete..for one of the best team in Seremban at that time..I even made it as House-games Captain in Form 5. This coming from someone my mom thought was lembik.
Form 5..graduation dinner...mom came for the ceremony, then left because she did not want to be face-to-face with my dad..dad stayed for dinner..Rewind back a month prior to the dinner..
"Syahira, mak dan ayah kamu ni nak letak meja macam mana?" one of the teachers asked. She knew my parents were divorced..I said "Tak tahu..meja lain2 la kot"...
I was heartbroken that night..it was my graduation dinner...everyone else had their parents and siblings fussing over them..I was trying to digest the happenings of the night..hearing hate statements coming from my parents about the other.
I scored my SPM..got offered to go to the BEST local university in the Country..Universiti Malaya.
You see..no one back home ever bothered to find out what happened to me in school. All they knew was that I was in school..no need to worry. But they didn't worry to the extend that they didn't even care if I was ok or not, if I was doing well or not..I practically failed every single subject during school. God knows how I actually scored my SPM. I think that was peer pressure.
The same scenario in UM. Maybe even worse. They have the nerve to question why I took so long to graduate...did they even know what was happening to me when I was there? Thank goodness I had study loan. But that was only enough to pay for the tuition fees and accomodation. What about food? I was juggling my study and work schedule. I was with Starbucks for 4 years..sacrificing weekends and public holidays and term break..to work. My only means of income for my food and whatever else I needed for school. Had friends using their loan/scholarship money to get that new handphone or that new pair of jeans...I had to spend wisely so I don't end up starving.
I did finally graduated..the last one in my class to do so. So I was alone. I put my feet down to my parents saying I can only bring 2 persons into the hall when I graduate..and only Mama n Babah can be there. They haven't met each other in a while. They were divorced about 15 years ago and both have a new life..They refused to talk to each other that day let alone sit beside each other in the hall..It broke my heart..again..
I guess that's why I don't have any passion left. My heart is so broken that all that's left for me is just to survive. Quite often I get lost in myself not knowing what I want for myself. I only know how to please other people..and only survive. Being selfish sometimes...is only a part of me surviving..
So to those people who i've hurt when I was being selfish...I'm sorry..I had to...
To those of you who helped me survive..Thank you! You know who you are and only god could ever repay you...
Can I buy passion?
Jul 18, 2008
Semalam tgk Batman: The Dark Knight......BEST GILA BABI!!!
Will not review it sbb baru keluar kan. But it's definitely worth it..So sad that Heath Ledger is not able to savour his greatest work.
Tapi yang penting di sini..I WANT THE BATMOBILE!!! You will want it too when you see what it can do in the movie...*sigh*
*so lah worth RM60! first time tgk movie kat gold class...kasi can nak poyo di sini kejap k?*
The movie runs for about 2hrs and a half..the blanket and the reclining seat just made the experience a whole lot more enjoyable....best gila sampai tak tau la nak cakap ape!
All I can say is, Christian Bale is the best Batman ever..
"He is not a hero..he is the Dark Knight"
Jul 17, 2008
Ok..we try something different today. Let's talk about my normal routine on a working day
6am: alarm hubby goes off..am actually already awake tapi malas nak bangun.check hubby berselimut ke tidak (has a habit of kicking off his blanket..lepas tu mengigil sejuk..memang..dia suka cari pasal like that!:P) selalunya tak berselimut, so i'll share my blanket and hug him..he switches off his alarm and hugs me back
7am: MY alarm goes off..snooze..tido balik
7.08am: alarm goes off again..snooze
7.16am: alarm goes off..snooze..bangun..pasang air kat toilet..tido balik..
7.24am:alarm goes off..snooze..peluk hubby or he peluk me..tido balik
7.30am:air melimpah kat toilet..bangun..tutup air..tido balik
7.32am: alarm goes off..snooze
7.40am: alarm goes off..snooze
7.48am: alarm goes off..Finally tutup alarm...bergolek atas katil
8am: finally get out of bed and mandi and siap pegi keje..hubby goes to sit on his "thinking chair" like many men would do first thing in the morning..
8.25am: i ask "U nak I bawak keta mana satu ni? Bawak lori ke keta kecik?" i'd normally go for the kelisa....
8.41am: am at the cabel bridge traffic light..i just missed the green light (without fail tau!)
8.59am: punch card
dah penat dah cerita pasal getting up for work..but yes people..i do this 5 times a week without fail!!!the EXACT routine! I have been late for work before..traffic jam and have told myself over & over again..bangun je la awal sikit..I guess old habits die hard..hehe!
dah kahwin ni makin susah nak bangun pagi...you'll know what i mean when you get married.. *wink*
Jul 16, 2008
First of all..hubby and i was stuck in traffic for 2HOURS!! trying to get to Istana Hotel from Subang..friday evening traffic is pure torture!
3rd man - this guy deserves to win!hahah!70's..I present to you Datuk M. Daud Kilau!!!!!!!!the wig..the sequined shirt..the shades and the bontot!!!!!!hahahah!!! And he was not even from Perlis..the wife is but the fact that he actually went on stage and did the whole M. Daud Kilau stint...hahaha!!!gelak tak habis...sgt kelakar!
2.15pm: At petaling street..wondering where are the banners and the sound of the buskers..
Jul 4, 2008
But my weekend showdown started yesterday. So this is the Showdown to my pretty busy weekend
Hubby took me to see Hancock...My views on it? Nice twist and Damn! Will Smith is a good actor! To compare Hancock with the other superheroes action (esp marvel's to gather round The Avengers team) Hancock cannot win la. But Will Smith makes it up with his great acting! I actually prefer Wanted (secretly want to be Fox..who doesn't?) But hey..was a date with hubby. We had 1901 for dinner (Fariq: The coupon cannot use in MidValley laaaaa!!) and had loadsa fruits (hubby force me on a fruit diet since I cannot refrain myself from eating!) then movie..was nice to go out after all those hours cooped up in the office in front of the PC with endless reports to write (which I should be doing now instead of blogging!!)
I can't be writing about the rest of the weekend yet but here's the plan (so far la..)
Friday evening :
Malam Majlis Anak-anak Perlis (free food!!!poco-poco dance and some performances kot...will take loadsa pics)
Working in the morning but I'm going to the International Muay-Thai Superfights at Stadium Malawati, Shah Alam in the evening..expect loadsa blood and gore (am not really keen about this but hey! Something than being stuck watching tv at home right?) If anyone is still interested in going, there's still loadsa empty seats (publicity not very good lah). Check out the Axcess Tickets counters (they have one in OU and MidValley and also Rock Corner) and bring along your Astro bill. You can get 20% discount for VIP seats and 15% discount for 1st class seats. (Found out about the High School Musical on Ice show in August too!hehe!and going to con hubby to take me go see!!!!)
Hubby off to Ipoh for a fashion show with K.Leen..6.30am!!!Send hubby off then see la..I might harass Aja for breakfast early in the morning (mebbe some more hiking after) since we're planning to go see KL Buskers at Petaling Street in the afternoon...
Very busy weekend...but looking forward to it!! *smiles*
Will update this post with pixs..
Jul 3, 2008
[picture courtesy of http://www.cyclestopracing.com]
I have decided that I need to decide...find an interest and invest in it. Waiting around for things to just happen just don't happen for me no more..
Apparently it's not easy to get this beauty. Anyone can help me out?? I know it's actually much more easy to just get the brand new one, but let's face it..it's more expensive...I don't think my pockets are deep enough. Also, I don't like the new design..I never was the kind of person who likes brand new stuffs..vintage always has a soft spot for me..Plus I think (emphasize on "I THINK") it would be a good way for me to learn about the bike. Rebuild it if I must..(hell it might add up to buying a brand new one) but the experience, I'm guessing, would be priceless..Am not planning on being a hardcore rider..(Although it would be cool to try out the tracks-offroad of course..we'll plan on my courage soon)..But something that is my new passion.
All these while, my passion was to just survive....whatever it takes..but doing it with dignity. Now it's to live..live it with no regrets..so a scrambler it is..(while I'm still of the age!)
It's a new life..might as well start learning something new right?
So hit me if you can help me out..Bear in mind...I need to find one first...Any idea where to start?