God said "NO"

Something I took from my cousin's notes to share with all of you

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I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away
but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings;
Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from
worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things
that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life,
so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh,
finally you have the idea.

And from my stepmum+friends:-

God doesn't give you the people you want; He gives you the people you NEED... to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.

Bila Jiwa Kacau dan Dipukul Keliling..

I am going through one of my most trying moments in my life right now. I'm tired and feeling a little hopeless. It's like being kicked when I'm already down..but I know I will get through this..and when I do..I know I will become stronger than I was and hopefully become the better and bigger person..

I'm sad..I'm stressed..I feel like I'm stuck in here with nowhere else to go. But I know what I must do..at least I must try it. I will smile and brave it all..either on my own or with a hand to hold..But please give me time..to gather all my courage and strength because now..I'm tired of trying to be strong..I'm tired of making them understand that I'm hurt..I'm tired of trying to make them understand me..

Maybe they will never understand..maybe nothing will ever change..I can't change anyone. The change must come from me..

I will change. Please know that if one day you realize that I am different from the person you knew before..I am different because of you..You changed me..you make me become this 'new' person. Good or bad? I don't know and I don't want your judgement..I have done what I have to do.

But I know I don't want to become like you..I will never stoop as low as that. I still have my principles. and I have always..ALWAYS believed in karma. I don't wish for bad things for you..but rather..I wish for good things for myself.

Good things comes to those who wait. So I will wait..in my pain and sadness..I will wait.

Copied from Jerung who copied from http://arieantara.posterous.com/disaat

•Ingatlah pada pepatah,

"Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

•Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif

•Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun, begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas 

•Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..

Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi

Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki

Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan

Apalagi yang mau disombongkan 

•Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani

•Jangan terlalu perhitungan

•Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri

•Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita 

•Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih

•Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah

•Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa

•Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan

•Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan

•Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.

*God, please give me the ability to love, forgive and understand..amin..*

My little girl..the sleepy diva

Sleeping in a stranger's arm during Mya's aqiqah..Bak kata aunty Sophie.."Primadonna"

Pics courtesy of Aunty Sophie yang nak bagi Keisha hanger!hahah!

SATC 2 with the Gurls..

It was sooooo over the top! The clothes..the shoes..the places (NYC and Abu Dhabi doo!)..the guys (Lawrence of my Labia!!hahahahah!!) and even the butlers(Paula Abdul?! LOL)! Perfect movie for me and my TKC gurls..

Thanks to Sausan's status on FB for an open invitation to watch SATC 2 and my bold action to actually comment saying that I'm in..a few days later last night..SATC2 it was! (oh my..have I come to this?commenting on someone's FB status considered bold???sigh..) Together with Nenn, Syimi and Pie..we went to create mayhem at GSC One Utama! (so drama..expect nothing less from watching SATC ok..)

I promised myself I wouldn't get sucked into the SATC frenzy..but being with the girls..it felt like our film show nights back in high school which we used to have. We literally made the cinema hall like it was our school hall! The laughing, the "OH MY GOD!!"..so nice...

So ok..now back to the story..

It's your typical every girls' fantasy story..the clothes, the shoes, the glamor and most of all the girlfriends! But the storyline was pretty cool and kinda strike home for me. The dilemma that Charlotte was going through (minus the nanny) is exactly what I'm feeling right now and the solution she found with the girls made me felt ok to have some 'me time' and not feel guilty that someone else is handling my baby girl.

It's funny, it's sad..take out the glamor of the characters..it felt like it was telling the story of my life right now. If only I had the same clothes and shoes that Carrie has!

How many times have I repeated them?? Clothes and Shoes?????? All I can say..it's the PERFECT movie to watch with your girlfriends...the guys won't understand..Plus they had the Australian Rugby team taking a dip in the pool!!hohohoho..cameraman focus BAEKKK punya!hhahahaha!

I had fun..now I'm feeling a bit more like myself again....Thank you babes!!I know your next movie is the Twilight Saga: Eclipse..I'd have to pass on that one (refer previous entry)..but the next chick flick that strikes me..I'm in!

*If only suami would take me to Usher's concert tonight..sigh..he's no Mr. Big..but he's still my suami*

Jangan Marah aaa!

Although I must admit that both Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson are truly hot..I have to say that the Twilight Saga is a sorry excuse of a vampire movie..the hype is over-rated..much like the fans of Siti Nurhaliza or Manchester United. I mean..Dato' Siti Nurhaliza is indeed talented and Manchester United was probably a great football team (kot..not a footie fan..) but the fans are sooo obsessed with them causing  some to feel annoyed and somewhat disgusted (very strong choice of word here..) and sometimes unnecessary hate towards them.

Pic taken from Yahoo!Buzz Log

Sorry aa..Jangan marah...

I mean, I am quite a fan of vampire movies and there has been some truly great movies about vampires like the classic Interview with the Vampire, The Underworld saga, heck even Blade is good. But Twilight??? Alahai..I didn't see what the fuss was all about in the first Twilight saga movie so I just gave up wanting to watch the second one. The third one? Entahla...kalau TERtengok..aku tengok je la.

But one thing I strongly feel..Kristen Stewart is just plain annoying both on AND off the silver screen. Apa dia ingat dia hebat sangat ke? What's with the defensive mode attitude? Bajet cam gothic habis la?? Sorry to say babe..but compared to you, I think Kelly Osbourne is wayy cooler..:P

*angan2 fantasy tak masuk akal..lagi bagus si Robert Pattinson jadik bf aku dr si Kristen tu!hahahahah!*