It's Already Bad Fengshui

I bought this buluh cina plant last year coz I wanted something green on my desk at the office. The chinese believed that if the plant prospers, that means you will have good luck or good fengshui.

So it prospered....

For a year!!! Now the plant is starting to turn yellow and dying! And NO! It's not because I didn't water it!

This is another sign I tell ya! I think I know why my fengshui/luck is turning bad..
1. They moved my table to a different location when the office did some rearranging
2. It's just time..my luck has run out here...

So..how? Anyone want to take me in?

*finish the report laaa!! And I hope I get to state my case to my next potential 'place' before they decide on me..*

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The Tigress Has Arrived

She has taken over my life..mainly my sleep!

It has been a little over 2 weeks since i was blessed with my pride and joy..Che Keisha Damia..sorry i can't attach her picture here coz am blogging using my phone and i don't know how to attach pix using this..

She was born at 3.12kg at 4.10pm, 19th April 2010..as you know from my previous entry, how i went into labor. Well, the continuation from that incident i shall now share with you.

I spent the entire night with just minor contractions with not much pain the night before. The only thing causing the experience a tad bit uncomfortable was i was strapped to the CTG machine the whole time. therefore i couldn't get up to walk off the contractions.

I made 1cm progress when the doctor checked on me at 9am in the morning..4cm dilated..so he broke my waterbag and put me on the drip to help hasten my dilation..

And the pain began....

I didn't take any pain killers and it took almost forever for me to progress from 4cm to 5cm..at 2pm i was only 5cm dilated..but the pain was sooo intensive i submitted to 'the gas mask'. They offered to give me more painkillers or an epidural..but i don't know why i refused the offer..

At 3pm i made good progress..7cm dilated. Doctor said.."insya allah lepas asar boleh la bersalin" and went out for a while..but in less than 15mins i was already feelong like i wanted to pass motion and begged suami to call the nurse. By this time the pain was so intensed and the nurse checked i was already 8cm dilated and started all the prep work for labor.

Suami whispered to me while holding my hands.."i promise lepas ni kita rest a few years before we try for another baby k? I tak sanggup tgk you sakit macam ni.."

At the same moment the nurse kept checking on me and coached me to breathe in the gas everytime the contractions came coz if i fought the pain, it would delay the contractions. Within a few minutes i was 9cm dilated and the nurse told me to hold it in. "Don't push until the doctor get here!"

Thank god the doctor finally got in within a few minutes..heard later on that he rushed to the labor room coz i was in labor earlier than he anticipated! :p

Once he arrived, i had 3 nurses assisting the doc and suami by my side. By this time i was in excruciating pain, i can't tell who was saying what but only them telling me.."kalau rasa nak berak..TERANN!!"

And TERAN I did!!!

suami said it took me 8pushes and the baby was out..and everytime i pushed the nurses and the doctor said "sikit lagi!!sikit lagi!!" Yeah right!!!hahaha..

Che Keisha Damia is beautiful! (i will post up pictures of her once i can use the laptop..for now her pics are on FB..yes..suami took a pic of me and keisha moments after she was born and you can see my legs still strapped on to the bed! :p)

Immediately after Keisha was born i held her in my arms and she had her eyes wide open and just gave me one small cry before they took her outside for a while to cut her umbilical cord and cleaned her up.

But when they took her outside, she screamed SO loud..she's definitely my little girl! :p

Suami iqamat into her ears immediately after they cleaned her and then returned her to me. And all the while, the doctor was stitching me up!! Honestly..the contractions were WAYYYY more painful then the stitching up..and i was not on ANY FORM of anaesthetics! :p

So that's birth labor for you! Insya allah the next time i update i'll be able to post up her pics and update on the first 2 weeks of Che Keisha Damia's life....

On that note..motherhood is both depriving and rewarding all at the same time ppl!! The term 'Syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu' is something we should ALL remember...

Til later..i need to catch some sleep now before she wakes!

I Am In LABOR!

Seriously..I AM...

It is now 11.35pm on a sunday night. I am currently blogging using my much reliable phone on my labor bed. I am strapped to the CTG machine, to monitor my contractions and baby's heartbeat. The doctor just left a few minutes ago saying that I am now 3cm dilated. He's saying lets wait for things to take it normal course through the night. But if my contractions still doesn't get any stronger, he might induce me in the morning to make things go a bit faster..

Which means..insya allah by tomorrow i will be a mommy!

You must be wondering how in the world can i even THINK of updating my blog when I am in labor!! It is because, alhamdulillah, for now my contractions are not painful..YET! And i am bored..the nurse told me to try get some sleep coz who knows..the contractions might get more intense in a couple of hours that will prolly rob me of my comfort. But i can't sleep..hearing my baby's heartbeat on the CTG machine is making me too excited to sleep. So i blog...

Suami is in the waiting room..watching tv i guess coz it's not really comfortable for him to sit here in the labor room with me. He's too excited to stay put too so i sent him off to let off some steam..it might an eventful night for us tonight.

My contractions started this morning. I woke up having this really intense back ache together with a contraction. Then it was just the contractions throughout the morning without any pain. My FIL prolly has really strong instinct..he knows that i was having contractions every half an hour (give or take laa) and told suami to take me to the hospital there n then..but neither suami nor i wanted to go yet coz contractions was too far apart. Plus suami wanted to finish polishing the car..(boleh tak??)

So after suami was done polishing..we took a nap..at about 3pm i tried to monitor the contractions and it was about 25mins apart..give or take..monitored for about 2 hrs then felt a bit funny coz the baby was moving too much than normal. I remembered the doctor advising us if the baby moves too much or too little, get to the hospital..

By this time, suami was upstairs on the computer. I quickly showered and pestered suami to get ready. Tried to do things under the radar coz i didnt want my MIL to worry or panic. she doesn't take emergency situations too well..

So we got to the hospital at about 5.30pm. Thank god it was a sunday so there was not much if traffic..can you imagine if it was a working day??? Getting from gombak to bangsar would've been hell at that time of day! could tell that suami panicked a bit throughout the journey..honestly..i was on the verge of tears already coz the baby's movement wasn't 'normal' at home..

But just as we reached the hospital, baby gave me a kick and it's normal movements..i relaxed a bit.. Suami checked me in and the nurse strapped me on the CTG machine.. Alhamdulillah baby's heart was beating just fine.. And i was already 2cm dilated..

Guess FIL and my mom's instincts was really strong (my mom tried to call me at 3pm coz she 'tak sedap hati')..-moral of the story..trust your parents' instincts!!!!

So here i am a 5 hours since i checked inand has made 1cm progress..insya allah it will go quite fast (i hope!!) since this will be my second delivery.. i hope everything will go well for both baby and i..amin..

So that's it from the labor room! Insya allah next entry will be when the baby arrives!

Will keep you guys posted! Wish me and the baby well everyone!!!

Say A Little Prayer

I came across this doa from Nuurill's blog a while back and feel that its a complete wish to ask from Allah the Almighty.

Arwah would've been 1 year old a few days back..and here I am anxiously waiting for my little miracle to be delivered anytime now..(I am 38 weeks today) I just feel like sharing it with everyone and it's a little prayer I have for myself..

Bismillahirahmanirahim..
Ya Allah! Sekiranya memang inilah yang telah ditentukan padaku, maka dekatkanlah ia dengan hatiku. Permudahkanlah segalanya..
Tapi sekiranya tidak, jauhkanlah ia. Berikanlah petunjuk agar ku dapat mencari sesuatu yang lebih baik. Yang telah Engkau tentukan..
Amin..

I am anxiously waiting for my labor signs.. I think I might've experienced a few contractions since morning but it's too far apart to do anything. I am just monitoring the baby's movement for now and alhamdulillah so far everything is ok.

I have another check up with the good doctor this coming wednesday..maybe I'll see him sooner than that..I don't know. But I hope everything will go well from now onwards..

I already had a false alarm a few weeks back (was the same night I was supposed to meet up with the girls!!) but it was what it was..a false alarm..admitted for a night for observation tho due to my previous history..

*little baby..hope you'll give your mama MAJOR signs that you're coming ok? Your mama might be a bit paranoid on the little signs..*

And am honestly bored outta my head now....:P

New Member has Arrived!!!

No!! I haven't given birth yet..and i know I said that I'd prolly blog after I have given birth..but this is a news I just can't resist to share..

My cousin Jaja gave birth to a baby girl yesterday at 12.48pm (i think?).. So i just wanted to share the news with everyone! I haven't visited her yet coz i have a few stuffs to do at home before i ship myself to my in-laws tomorrow (home renovations will begin tomorrow..) But will definitely go and visit her tomorrow onwards..

We're about 2 weeks apart (her EDD is supposed to be on the 17th April) so MAYBE this means another 2 weeks for me??? I will be 37 weeks next week so it should be ok...Will find out this friday on what the doctor decides..

I am SOOO excited for my dear cuzzie and myself too....mintak doa semuanya lancar dan selamat for all of us new mommies and mommies-to-be (yes..that means you guys too Azie and Mariko!)

So okay..that's all for now. Will do my best to keep you all posted on my progress..

*Sorry aa cik rawkstar..entry berbau keibuan..x dapek den nak menolong! Aku takmo jadi follower no 109 kau...tunggu nombor cantek lagi...*

My Remedy

Asam kulit limau! The bitterness and sourness is just nice to curb my nauseousness. Normal asam masin might sting my stomach. This is just nice.

My cousin likes the new Starbucks grapefruit and cranberry Juice. Guess sour alone won't do the trick anymore.

I wonder if ayam golek kerinchi will do the trick or not...

*tak baik buat mak buyung mengidam tau!*

Old Skool

Di kala semua orang tergila-gilakan henset 3g dan pelbagai..aku telah mendapat sms berbunyi

"akak, u punya phone sula siap..ini malam boleh kasi angkat"

Yeay!phone nokia 8310 ku sudah siap! I loike! Tetapi sony ericsson w910i tetap buah hati utama ku. Tanpanya, tak mungkin aku boleh mobile blog..8310 tu utk line office je.

Rakan-rakan, sila layan sms aku yeah! Ini adalah semata-mata kerana saya hendak menerima sms pada phone oldskool ini! (dem..am i losing my marbles for obsessing this phone??hahah!)

Kenapa saya suka phone ni?

Ni sume gara-gara trauma yang telah melanda saya. Dulu saya pernah memiliki phone sebegini. Time tu Nokia 8310 baru je keluar. Kira grand laaa pakai phone ni time tu sbb ini adalah phone yang first skali lampu dia kaler putih. Saya siap tukar housing kaler kuning sbb itu kaler fevret saya.

wahhh....time naik lrt rasa cam grand je dengar radio pakai henset (time tu mp3 tak berleluasa lagi..pastu naik lrt je la..kate struggling student) Saya pergi ke KLCC. Niat nak lepak Kinokuniya bace Harry Potter sampai habis (seriously ppl..I did finish reading ALL Harry Potter Books at Kinokuniya..I never purchased any! Until my 26th birthday, suami bought the whole set for me..:))

Time tengah syok duduk atas lantai kat children's section membaca Harry Potter sambil bersandar kat rak buku, saya terdengar buku terjatuh dibelakang saya. Menoleh ke belakang..takde orang..time tu..henset kesayangan saya letak bawah peha. Masa toleh belakang saya angkat kaki sikit. Dan bila saya kembali ke posisi sedia kala..........

Nokia 8310 kuningku sudah hilang.....

Sejak hari itu, saya selalu rindu kepada phone ini (dan sentiasa cuak tentang harta benda saya apabila berada di KLCC) Sehinggalah saya terjumpa phone ini diantara harta karun suami yang berlambak kat rumah tu. Kini ia sudah kembali...siap di baiki dan ditukar bateri..cuma tak jumpe housing kuning je. Nnt saya nak cari.

*untung suami dapat isteri mcm saya..bini org lain mintak e71..saya bahagia dgn 8310 yang oto on ini*

Minggu Keselamatan & Kesihatan Pekerjaan 2009

I am at ESSET, Bangi, attending this safety week seminar organized by NIOSH. It's gonna be a löng day! There are 6 project paper that i will have to go through. But the topics are quite useful so we'll see what happens.

What inspired me to blog is actually this hall. It's cramped with almost 600 participants and right now, Datuk Dr. S. Subramaniam is 'reading' his speech. Dön't get me wrong..what he's saying is actually useful but it's just the feeling that this hall is giving me.. I suddenly feel as is I was back in school.

It feels as if i was in my school hall, attending one of our many functions. After this i'll be heading to the dining hall for lunch (i am getting a free lunch for this seminar!)

Kinda missing my school days now. Although i was homesick all through my 4 years there (i stopped feeling homesick in form 5 coz we kinda ruled the school..hehe) there was a lot of fond memories we had there.

English drama..sports day..basketball tournaments..and the weekly weekend outings in town..

Opst! It's time for the morning tea break!hehe! Continue later!

Promoting Nazleen Noor

Apart from being blessed for having such a loving suamì, I am also VERY lucky to have a fashion designer as a sister-in-law. Yes people, NAZLEEN NOOR is my beloved SIL and an amazing batik designer.

That is the dress she made for me to wear to the OPA Dinner tonight. Lovely isn't it? You can check-out more on her designs at http://www.nazleennoor.com I am soo lucky to have her as my SIL..apart from never having to worry about what to wear for functions (i'm almost like her ambassador already) i have a persönal fashion designer!

Now how many girls can say that?

Can't wait to get into that dress. She's gonna do my make-up too! How lucky am i?

Since raya is around the corner..go check out her stuffs. Honestly her designs are beautiful and its not as expensive as Rizalman or NoorArfa or the likes.

She has her stuffs at 2201 Fashiön Avenue at the gardens, midvalley and maybe at Isetan promo area soon. I'll keep u posted on her promos and location. But you can also call her for custom made pieces. She also does wedding..my beautiful wedding was the beautiful work of hers.

Make sure you check her website out..

*i don't get a commission for promoting her here..i just hönestly loves her stuffs*

Serenity

At one glance, this pic looks like its taken from somewhere in a countryside overseas. This is actually my very own kampung. I took this while waiting for my mom buying mee calong (a favorite local dish, something like mee sup but better) from my very own mobile phone.

Its my 2nd day today back in my kampung. I didn't do much but i'm feeling so relaxed and at peace. Went to bathe at the beach this evening to help heal my rashes and whatever is left from my childbirth wound. My rashes has miraculously healed entirely..almost immediately after bathing in the sea! I hope the seawater has döne some magic to my wounds as well. I've always heard that seawater has a lot of benefits and healing qualities..and it has been proven right to me today. Even the skin on my face feels soft and supple.

My mom said its just the sea calling me to come back since it has been a while from my last trip home. I am a proud granddaughter of a fisherman..

It feels so good to be home. Back in the days when i was in uni, i always seek refuge here whenever things seem to get out of hand in KL. I always felt as if my reset button has been pushed and i feel refreshed when i come back to KL. Ready to face back the challenges waiting for me head on.

I'm hoping this trip will bring the same strength for me as it always has after the recent events that i went through and having to start work again next week. So far, i am feeling relaxed and its nice to be among family again..to come back home. Home in KL with suami is also home..but nothing beats the place you grew up in.

Tomorrow will be another trip to the sea. Would prolly get my hair trimmed (i almost always get my hair cut in kuantan. Its hard to find a hairdresser you're comfortable with) Plus, my main buddy promised to come down from kemaman to see me. It's been AGES since we last hung out so its gonna be like the good old days..Eversince we both finished uni (we both graduated at almost the same time but from different unis) and started working, it has been almost impossible for us to hang out. Even more since i got married. Us sharing the same hometown didn't provide an advantage either..Just hope we could still pick up from where we left off.

I miss suami..but i think this is a trip i need to make alone. In a way,this is almost like me having to collect myself..finding my way back to myself. I have already decided on a few things i'd like to do..one of it, me furthering my studies. How i'm gonna go about to achieving this is something i'd have to give a little more thought.

For now,i'm just going to enjoy the rest of my trip. Then it's time to face the world again..

*one step back..two steps forward..*

Mobile bloggin..

gambar bersama suami masa dinner Jemaah Dato'-dato' Perlis..oo..suami belum Dato' lagi tapi rupe saya sudah mengalahkan seorang Datin pada malam itu!:P

I have just discovered that i can blog thru my phone :-D. Ok..so it might not be something new to most of you but its a new discovery for me and makin me love my phone more than ever now..:-)

I have never been one who's tech savvy or a gadget freak. I know the basic stuff to using a laptop and most of the applications or functions in my laptop or handphöne are left unused. When i do buy a new phone or laptop..the criteria would be superficial. It would either be in the color that i like or in a shape that i prefer. As long as it has the basic function that i need (make calls, sms and recently make video calls) am perfectly happy with my phone.

But recently i have finally made full use of my phone's function as a walkman (i finally got rihanna's hatin' on the club!yay!) And since suami's anniversary gift for me -unlimited celcom broadband on my phone, i have been checking my FB and blog wherever i am and learned to use my phone as a modem. And the latest..BLOGGING directly from the phone!hehe..

I love my phone now for providìng me the ultimate mobility..now i can literally blog anytime, ANYWHERE..

But most of all I LOVE SUAMI for always trying to provide the best for me and fulfìlling all my needs and wants..my mobility wouldnt be possible without this gift for me..

I'm actually missing him so much right now..am about to go to bed and this is normally when we have OUR time..but that's not possible tonight since i am in kuantan and he is in KL..

Good luck for your presentation tomorrow sayang..i know you'll do just fine..dun worry..i love u!

*absence makes the heart grow fonder..*

Back home

meet Nur Adrianna Aliesa, 2 years old..sudah pandai meniru gaya bapanya menonton TV..

I am back in kuantan for a few days.it has been ages since i was here in my grandparent's house.it feels good to be home.

That's a pic of my 2 year old niece, Aliesa, watching tv..sungguh bergaya sambil silang kaki.

I hope this trip bck home will do me good..i knw the food will be. I just hope suami will b ok without me for a few days..

Sayang, if your reading this..i miss u already!:-( wish u were here..love u!