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Little Miss Tardy

2011-11-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

Sorry..been ages since I've updated my blog. Due to my lack of access to the internet (excuses) since I'm no longer employed (excuses) and have just survived the first trimester of my pregnancy (24 weeks preggers now - but this is still an excuse) and at the same time settling down with my new role as a SAHM (excuses) to a feisty 1yo toddler (excuses) and a full-time student (excuses), I truly apologize (very sincerely now...)

So what's new?

A lot and nothing much all at the same time (is that even possible?)

Well for one thing, my little family is all living under one roof! VERY thankful of that. I am back in KL and employed by my dear suami (I get paid by him every month..isn't that nice?).

I have also started the first semester of my Masters program in UM. Very nice to be back in my alma mater, but it's not quite the same without the old gang. The new gang is fun in their own way tho..(yes..I have a new gang now! :P) Classes are on Sundays only..which sometimes can be such a drag..and I zonked out every Monday... 9 consecutive hours of class can totally drain you out (or maybe the age has finally caught on). And it's not quite the same being a student when you're a wife and a mom at the same time either.

I came back to KL during the month of Ramadhan. Finished off the last week of my notice in KL because my morning sickness was totally crazy. I couldn't eat or drink for a whole week in Perlis. Mom said it's probably psychological because I was alone there (sent Mama and little CKD back to Kuantan). And I think I kinda have to agree. I mean, not entirely psychological, but some truth in it. I'm not the lucky ones who breezes through the first trimester of pregnancy without any nausea or 'dates' with the toilet bowl. Came back and still couldn't really eat much. Not much of an appetite either. I think I lost weight during the first trimester..but ho-hum...that's definitely not the case now! LOL! I have nicely been gaining half a kilo a week (and a little extra recently). At 24weeks, I am 65kg..(and little bun is 681g..a normal weight for it's age)

Hari raya was celebrated in Kuantan. I have pictures. So I think I will dedicate a proper post for it..soon..(i hope :P)

I am not working. It feels kinda weird. And I get bored sometimes too..but I do enjoy the extra sleeping time I get to clock nowadays. I don't go out much except to the mall that just recently opened literally in front of our condo. I don't get constant internet access since we don't have internet at home (we used to, but now we don't. We don't subscribe to Astro either..surprised?) But I go down to the coffee houses here at the mall (like what I'm doing now) when I need the internet..which has been a very disciplined dose of checking emails and doing assignments. I hardly ever access my facebook either now. So that is why I seldom update my ramblings here. I used to have the luxury of doing so previously during my working hours (kantoiiii!! :P)

So okay..I think that covers most of what's going on. Suami is already sleepy so we have to leave soon. We're off to a family vacay on Monday! Can't wait! So I'll try and see if I can sneak in an update from our blissful spot - IF little CKD permits me to do so. She's been rather a handful lately and occasionally drives me nuts. But I love her to bits anyway. She's started to babble a lot more now in her own language but knows to call us by our titles (Ayah, Tok Wan, Tok and Mama-sort off). And again, will exclusively update about her soon!

Okay..Okay..gotsta go! Til later (soon..I promise, with pictures)

Daily reminder

2011-10-16T13:26:00.000+08:00

From Daily Quran & Islam:

"Your Lord has commanded that you should worship none but Him, and that you show kindness to your parents. If either or both of them attain old age with you, say no word of contempt to them and do not rebuke them, but always speak gently to them. And treat them with humility and tenderness and say "My Lord! bestow on them Your Mercy even as they cherished me in childhood."

Quran 17:23-24-DUH..

Bismillahirahmannirrahim

May Allah grant me the patience and strength to do so.

Amin.

*promise to update blog soon!*

Love Means..

2011-07-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

Being able to act silly with each other and have fun doing it!

- inspired by Marry Me, Mary.

Marry me, JGS! LOL!

2011-07-12T10:12:00.000+08:00

If during my last pregnancy, I was crazy about Rain, this time round I'm crazy about Jang Geun Suk all because of the drama Marry Me, Mary (or Mary Stayed Out All Night). If you are an avid KBS fan, you'd know this drama. No review about the drama tho coz it aired a few months ago.

I don't like still photos of him. They don't seem to do justice. So I'll share this video of him from the drama instead.

Hihi! I don't know what's with me and Korean boys during my pregnancy. But if Keisha looks Korean because of my obsession with Rain, my new baby is more than welcome to pull off a Jang Geun Suk! (He's sooo cute and baby faced that it won't matter if my baby is a girl or a boy)

Plus, not only is he cute, he sings tooooooooo!!!hahaha!

That's his voice. aaaahhhh..so dreamy....

Ok..I'm off to obsess over JGS.

*funny how I'm not feeling my morning sickness much right now..pbbhhttt!*

Korean Girl?

2011-07-08T11:47:00.000+08:00

A couple of weeks ago I went to town to get some fabric for our raya outfits. Kangar has limited choice, but I love the quaint old shops that they have here.

It was quite a long walk from the parking lot to the shop that we were heading for so I made CKD wear a hat to protect her from the really hot mid-morning sun.

You see, we're used to having strangers coming up to CKD and complimenting on how fair and cute she is (and it makes me uncomfortable when people do that, especially when they try to pick her up too). Most of the time, the little girl would give her fake smiles. But sometimes (to my horror!) she would let them pick her up. Sigh..little kids are so oblivious of any dangers..

But this time, with the hat, people kept on saying and asking "Eee..comelnya. Macam anak korea. Bapak dia orang Korea ke?" ("Eee..so cute. Like a korean girl. Is her father korean?")

I'm like..HELLO! her sepet eyes are from ME! Fine, her fair skin may be because of her father, but she looks really asian because of ME! hmph! hahahahahah!

Oh well..her ayah is more than happy to know people thought he was korean. But I think this is probably because of my obsession towards Rain when I was pregnant with Keisha..hehe!

My mom's malay and people say my dad's korean. NOT!

ok..ok..I am VERY thankful that my babygirl is cute. But I really hope she won't warm up to strangers too much. Please don't give mama any heart attacks babygirl!

Now I suddenly miss her a lot. Been 4 nights since she hasn't slept with me because I'm still recovering from my flu. And I haven't much energy to play with her when I get back from work everyday. Tonight mama will gomol you til you cry!ngehehehe!

It's Contagious!

2011-07-07T11:10:00.000+08:00

Sorry I have been quiet. Suami came over for the weekend so I took Monday off so I could have a long weekend with suami. Was really nice having him around and I didn't realize how much I missed him til he got here.

But he left with a gift for both little CKD and me..the FLU!

Yep..we're still recovering from it but getting better.

On a different note, we have news to share..

EDD March 7, 2012

Hehe..yep..we're expecting a new addition to the family soon *huge grin*

And yes, I do think it's contagious. Being pregnant I mean..LOL! Because almost everyone in my current office is expecting a baby, my friends either just had one or is expecting soon and most of the bloggers I follow are also expecting. LOL!

I guess hearing them talk about expecting a new person probably put my hormones on overdrive and made me superbly fertile!haha!

So yeah people..I'm 6 weeks preggers and so far the crazy hormones hasn't kicked in yet. I hope they don't this time round. I've got school to go to...or at least let this flu be gone first..It would be REALLY terrible to go through morning sickness and having the flu at the same time...

Well..here's hoping for a happy pregnancy and a healthy baby..Amin!

So Mak Buyung is back!!

*and maybe I might have a rockstar buyung with me this time?ngehehehe*

Do the impossible

2011-06-28T11:34:00.000+08:00

I love what Kimora Lee Simmons-Honsou tweeted today

Just thought I'd share with you guys!

Let's do the IMPOSSIBLE!

The Little Blankie Thief

2011-06-27T14:54:00.000+08:00

I have a safety blanket..well at least I used to.

Haha..laugh at me if you like but I don't carry my blankie around like Linus from the Peanuts comics.

Linus - Source

But I've had a blankie since I was in boarding school. It was like a security for me when I sleep at night. It was this old flannel baby blanket that belonged to an older cousin of mine. Yes, the original blankie was older than me. And when I went to Uni, it was almost falling to bits. I remember one of my not-so-favorite roomie made a statement about blankie "Oh! Ingatkan kain buruk!".

So when I graduated, I found another blankie to replace my original one. Original blankie just couldn't be saved anymore. It was this old Ikea single duvet cover with white and yellow stripes. It had the same feel like my old flannel blankie so I was okay with the replacement.

I sleep with the blankie coz I just love the feel of the soft fabric on my face as I doze off to dreamland. It's always there on my bed.

You see, my little baby girl would usually toss and turn all over the bed before she goes of to sleep, whether for a nap or the usual bedtime. One day, my mom decided to give my blankie to CKD just for the fun of it..and you guessed it...

She's the little thief!

The little thief and her loot!

My mom said, with her eyes closed, she pulled the blankie, gave it a little pat and hugged it to sleep! Just like that..no tossing..no turning!

Sigh...now I'm stuck with one of my normal flannel blankets to use. It's no blankie but I guess I'll just have to if it means my daughter will sleep better. Oh the sacrifices we make as parents!

She sleeps with the blankie all the time now. It seems to comfort her, just how it used to comfort me..It's fun to see how she develops her personality as she grows up and to see as much of me and suami's personality in it too.

Snazzy little fashionista in the making?

Oh well Keisha Damia...whatever makes you happy.

Nazar & d'Extensions

2011-06-24T15:48:00.002+08:00

So buih is part of the band Nazar & d'Extensions and the band has been nominated to perform at Urbanscapes happening on 16th July. Coolness..

The not-so-cool part..they need to get people to vote them in.

So here I am, asking for a favor to all of you to please vote for them here! Now! There's no limit to voting and GOOD NEWS, Top 10 voters gets free tickets to see the show!

We've only got 5 days left to put them on the lineup! Go ahead! Vote NOW!

vote for them at http://everyoneconnects.net/urbanscapes/?page_id=1535

*psst..even if you're not in Malaysia, would be great if you could vote too!every single vote counts!*

And just for a taste of what they can offer, this is their original song, Kali Pertama. Enjoy!

When I Grow Up

2011-06-24T09:56:00.001+08:00

Today is my darling suami's birthday. Sucks that I can't be there to celebrate it with him because he has to work this weekend and has forbidden us to come back coz he couldn't bear the idea that we are near him but he can't spend time with us hihi!

Well..usually I'd post pictures of him on his birthday. But this year, I had a different inspiration for it while I was on the way to work this morning.

Heheh! Of all songs why in the world would I choose this song, you may ask?

Well, the line "Be careful what you wish for coz you just might get it" was actually what hit me the most.

You see..he is what I've always wished for (yes my friends, I may have complained about him a bit here and there sometime..but I complaint about EVERYTHING!LOL!) From his appearance (I have a thing for botak guys with cute butts..) smack down to the way he walks. He's a scrooge but he's also a spend thrift, he's funny maybe because he is smartmouthed :P and he may look tough, but really..he's my little puppy dog.

He's my dream come true and has made many of my other dreams come true too...*cue PCD "Be careful what you wish for coz you just might get it!"*

So here's to you sayang..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

May Allah bless you with all that makes you happy as He has blessed me with you..

I love you and can't wait to see you next week.. We'll celebrate it just you, me and baby Keisha okay?

Master in the Making!

2011-06-21T12:32:00.002+08:00

Forgot to say.. I got in! hehehe!

In what you may ask? Will be back to my alma mater to pursue my post-grad course in September!

Master of Engineering - Safety, Health and Environment, University of Malaya here I come! woot! woot!

And back in town for good?? That's the plan peeps!!!

See you soon my KLites!

Weekend Lunch with Friends

2011-06-21T12:13:00.000+08:00

Was in KL earlier this month for a family dinner (will spill on this later), and surprise! surprise! I finally had the time and energy to actually go out and hang with some friends! Well, actually I was supposed to meet Sophie to pick up a technical manual I've asked her to help purchase from SIRIM and we decided to make it into a gathering and invited Azie and family to join us too.

So we decided to meet at our go to place, The Empire @ Subang. I invited buih too but since he's sucha young stud *sarcasm*, he wasn't up yet when I texted and called him and only later replied that young studs don't wake up early on Sundays..pbbhhhtttt!!!

And just our luck, friends of suami, Ezran and Nadia, was at Empire too when we were on our way there. I haven't seen them in ages and heard that they we're finally expecting a bub in August so we sort of forced them to wait til we got there so I could see Nadia's lovely little baby bump!

Sophie and Azie was running late and suami was sooo hungry, so we had lunch at Madam Kwan's with Ezran and Nadia first. Nadia was sooooooo cute waddling with her 7month belly around and said she had even started waddling during her first trimester coz she felt it was more comfortable!haha! How cute is that?!? Hope that everything will go smoothly for you babes!!! We were later joined by Syed Umar who just returned from a surfing trip in Bali. haha..seems like our impromptu lunch turned into quite a gathering!

Managed to squeeze in some gossip about our obgyn (Nadia goes to the same obgyn as I did when I was expecting CKD) and share some preggers & baby stories while the boys did their thing. And all through, my little baby girl was doing real good eating her pasta. Finally got her to eat some solid food. She's been soo fussy with her food lately and resorted to her eating bananas and papayas only.

Sophie and hubs finally joined us when we were just finishing our lunch and said Azie was running late waiting for baby Mya to wake up from her nap. After we were done with our lunch only did Azie and family made it to Empire so we decided to move to a different venue. By then, Ezran and Nadia had to go as they had a wedding to attend and Umar had some stuffs to do.

Sapet (Azie's hubs) decided to go to Pasta Zanmai and finally the little ladies got to meet.

Meet & greet session between CKD and MM

Both are a week apart when they were born (Mya being the older one) and they were soooooo cute. We had so much fun seeing how they both reacted towards each other.

Lunch time..trying to keep the little ladies occupied while we gossiped and chatted

CKD was a little blur coz she's not really used to being around other people. But Mya was being sucha social butterfly and led the way for CKD! LOL! By the way Azie, if you're reading this, Keisha has picked up Mya's "skill"!hahahaha!

After lunch and much gossiping, we had to leave because I needed to pick up some stuffs from our old condo for work. It was soo much fun to meet up with our friends and was really great to be able to see the little ladies growing up. I'll post up the video of the girls later (and please excuse the conversations the adults were having *unless i can somehow post the video muted..hmm*)

Resharing pictures of CKD and MM from previous functions. How they have grown!

MM & CKD at buih's birthday last November. Babies were about 7months

First time baby MM and CKD met during CKD's aqiqah hence the bald head for CKD. They were almost 2 months I think.

Hope they'll grow up being good friends with each other and become gossip buddies like their mommies and fave aunt!!haahah!

Pey, you missed a cute session with your two girls dude! Next time wake up la..:P

First Family Vacay

2011-06-01T15:51:00.000+08:00

Well sort of.

Suami and the in-laws came to Perlis the weekend before Wesak Day holiday. The in-laws had to attend the Perlis King's birthday celebration and suami was here for his much missed time with the family.

My mom took the opportunity to go off to Jitra and visit her friend and also to give my MIL some more time to be with Keisha.

But since it was a long weekend for all of us (I took leave from Friday til Wednesday the next week since we got 2 days public holidays because Wesak Day clashed with the King's birthday), I asked suami to take us to Penang since there's not much to do anyway in Kangar.

I've never been to Penang and suami was so surprised. Sometimes my husband surprises me too...how can I've been to Penang if he has never taken me? :P

Well, our original plan was to actually just go to look for some DVD boxsets in Batu Ferringhi. But I gave it little thought and asked suami to make it into an overnight trip since we were bringing Keisha along. It would've been very stressful for Keisha (and mostly me too!) to take a day-trip to Penang even if it only takes about an hour and a half to get there from Kangar.

We stopped by the Arau train station to have breakfast because some locals told me that the nasi dagang at the train station in Arau was the best in town. It wasn't as great as the one that my mom would make, but it wasn't entirely disappointing either. The gulai ikan tongkol was nice, just that the rice was a tad bit hard. I wouldn't say it's the best I've had, but possibly the best in town for Perlis la.

We arrived in Penang around 1pm and check-in was at 3pm so we stop by 1st Avenue Shopping Mall. I have a confession. It was sooooooo nice to be in a MALL!!! LOL! I guess there is still a lot of city girl left in me. They had almost anything you need there (except for a baby store). And I must say that I personally feel the items in the boutiques and shops in Penang are much nicer than those in KL. Hehe. Didn't purchase anything there but just went walking around aimlessly til it was time to go and check into our hotel.

We checked into Naza Talyya Hotel in Tanjung Tokong and was glad that suami managed to get a room for us. He only did the booking online the night before and managed to get a room for RM115/night plus breakfast (without breakfast was RM80). The original price was RM250++ so I guess it was quite a deal.

Keisha was soooo excited inspecting all corners of the room and especially the telephone. We had to unhook the phone just incase she kept calling the reception. :P

our room in Naza Talyya Hotel. Little girl so excited exploring the room.

So after freshening up and Keisha made a poo poo, we headed out to town. Geared with our trusty Papago and suami's endless bbm with a friend who's from Penang for places to go, we headed for Bangkok Lane for fried noodles, mamak style.

Mee Goreng Mamak @ Bangkok Lane, Penang

Ice please..yum!

Old Semi-d houses on Bangkok Lane

Afterwards, we did some sight seeing and headed for Batu Ferringhi. I love how they have beautiful beach villas along the road. But I must say, Penang has a different feeling from any other Malaysian towns that I have been to. It kinda gave me a feeling like I was not in Malaysia, but a lot like I was in Singapore. Maybe because both are islands? I don't know.

PAPAGO! Must have when traveling to foreign towns!

Her makeshift bed in the car

We didn't stop by the beaches or any tourist spot coz it looked so crowded and parking was quite a challenge. The fact that we were driving the Hilux didn't help either. Plus coming from Kuantan, I'm quite a snob when it comes to beaches. Coz I think my hometown has the best in-town beaches, heh! So we did what any other city folk would do and headed to the Gurney Plaza, another shopping mall since I told suami I needed to get some baby bottles for a colleague who was expecting a baby soon. Plus we needed to get some food for Keisha too coz I forgot to bring her cereal and she hadn't had anything solid yet.

And that was where we burnt a terrible!terrible! hole in our pockets! But I was satisfied with the purchase. I bought the baby bottles for my colleague and a pair of swimsuit for Keisha. And suami bought a new camera for us since our old one broke just before we went for our Bali trip last year. But it think it was a good deal coz

1. We needed a new camera (my BB is overloaded with badly focused pictures of CKD)

2. I'm definitely fully utilizing it now(refer previous post)

3. did I mention we needed a new camera? LOL!

Fuji Finepix S2900HD @RM700

It's no DSLR, and I'm no pro at photography either. But I don't like those point and shoot compact camera and I don't think I'm good enough to get a DSLR. So this camera was right up my alley and similar to the old Olympus we has before (don't even remember the model coz it was THAT old, 8MP old enough?) Not reviewing this camera on this post. Don't even think I'll review it coz I don't think I'm eligible to review cameras. But do expect LOADS of pictures on future posts!

Anyway..back to the vacation. We headed back to the hotel after the shopping spree. Rested for a bit, got Keisha fed and washed and then headed back to Batu Ferringhi for dinner and for some DVD boxset shopping. I know we should've had dinner at Gurney Drive as recommended by many. But again, parking was terrible in Penang, ESPECIALLY Gurney Drive, and its such a hassle coz we had Keisha with us. We try to avoid overly crowded and congested places when we're with her. Well actually, maybe not so much because of Keisha, both suami and I aren't really big fans of congested places.

So we did a VERY touristy thing and had dinner at one of those many restaurants at Batu Feringghi. Within walking distance to the roadside stalls selling all sorts of arts, trinkets and treasures. The restaurant had a cozy feeling to it. But the food was nothing great and overly priced that I'm not even bothered to review about it here. One tip tho, don't eat at Batu Ferringhi. It doesn't do justice to Penang's reputation as a food haven as raved by my friends. Promise next trip to Penang, I'll make it a food fest! Provided we have the right company with us coz if it was up to just suami and I, we're pretty bad at experimenting new foodies.

Ayah and his little island girl

I loveeeeee the paintings sold at the stalls at Batu Ferringhi. But since I'm practically house-less, and my stuffs are still in boxes both in Perlis and KL, I didn't want to get any. But maybe before I move back to KL (did I just spill that out?opst! :P) I'll make another trip with suami for more DVDs and paintings.

Keisha totally KO towards the end of suami's DVD rampage purchase (he bought about 126pcs!!) stayed out til the next morning.

Enough excitement for me today please

Stressed out with mama who wouldn't stop taking her pictures with the new camera!

In the morning we woke up and just had breakfast at the hotel. Washed up and headed back to Kangar. Yeah..we're sucky tourists!hahahah! It's just that we didn't feel like we wanted to explore Penang so much. But we really promise we'll do better on our next trip here.

Penang bridge. Bye bye Penang! I'll be back!

So the next day was the King of Perlis's birthday, and FIL being a member of the Jemaah Dato' Dato' Perlis was invited to the glorious event. I just wanted to share the official uniform FIL had to wear for the ceremony.

FIL looking grand in the official uniform for the King's ceremony

and stinky little girl interframes!

It was a wonderful long weekend for us. Especially nice because this was the longest suami stayed since we moved here. But it was truly heartbreaking to see Keisha when suami left for KL. She looked so confused when we said good bye and was acting as if she was expecting her ayah to come open the door anytime soon the whole day. She doesn't seem to understand the sadness that she feels, but I do and I hate it.

My in-laws left the next day, so yet again, another heartbreaking moment for the little girl.

Owh baby girl..fingers crossed things will happen as planned for mama and we will be back together with ayah, mak tok and wan soon ok sayang?

And as to NOT to jinx the plan, I will only reveal it once everything is confirmed.

A Rockin' Good Time!

2011-05-30T15:39:00.002+08:00

Motherhood is Not Easy, But it Has its Rewards

2011-05-12T11:04:00.000+08:00

So I was going through my regular blog reading and Sarah from welcome to the gOOd life wrote something that hit home, about how frustrating it is to be a mom, especially being a SAHM with 2 (very cute by the way) little girls.

Most of the blogs that I follow (my crafty inspiration list) are of SAHM who has mad sewing and crafty skills and each has 2-5 kids. Honestly..I can't imagine having 5 kids. I'd probably go mad or probably die along the process of raising the kids! yes, no doubt CKD is cute and all..but there are times when I wish I could have my old single life back. What I miss the most is sleep! Undisturbed 8 hours of sleep! (a little longer would be nice too! my record is 20hours..:P)

Does that make me a bad mom?

I guess I don't want to dwell so much on the matter. It's just really good to know that I'm not the only one who feels like we need a break every now and then.

But on a contradicting note..with my TKC friends (who texts non-stop on our BBM group chat) are either just had a baby or is expecting one really soon..I kinda miss being pregnant!hahah! But Nenn said (the only doctor in the group chat - who I think should start charging us for all the medical consultations that she is giving through the chats!hahah!) being pregnant for 2 years in a row (which what happened to me) is not good and can cause the mother to be anaemic and even with vitamins, would be very hard to increase our Hb count.

Yeay! Now I have a new excuse to blame my lazy-bum self! LOL! I can imagine seeing my mom rolling her eyes at me when I tell her this! :P

Well people..Motherhood IS HARD! And as much as we say we enjoy being a mom and how rewarding it is to see our children grow up, etc etc etc..there are moments when it's soooo hard and could really push our stress level off the roof! There are moments when we wish we could just up and leave!

But hey..reality is reality. You can't just leave everything behind and go. What keeps me going now is my mama actually. If I feel being a mom (for only a few hours of the day since I'm at work from 8am-5pm) is hard, then what I should do (and is doing) is put myself in my mama's shoes coz she is with Keisha ALONE, the WHOLE DAY..and my mom is 62years old.

I know how difficult Keisha can get, and I get frustrated with her a lot when I spend the whole day with her - and that's only on weekends. Mama is with her from Monday-Sunday..gives me a BIGGER sense of appreciation to my mama.

So I try my best to take over handling Keisha when I get back from work. I let my mama hog the TV and watch her KBS World shows at night (and causes me to have a new found addiction for Korean Dramas). And Keisha sleeps with me everynight, so yeah, I get the graveyard feeding shift. Coz as much as I need my break, my mama needs some too.

And although every morning I wake up wishing I could sleep a little longer. I drag my feet every morning getting ready for work..secretly grumbling and complaining in my head (hey..gimme a break!), I'll kiss my sleeping baby and my lovely mama before leaving for work, also secretly wishing I didn't have to go to work and spend the day with them instead.

My baby girl is not the most perfectly behaving little girl. She's naughty and difficult most of the time, now more than ever. But "Praise Him for the sunny days" she's adorable and lovable and cheeky and a joy. Must share that her favorite song right now is Colbie Caillat's 'I do' which she will sing "Atem, atem, atem" while clapping and moving from side-to-side everytime she hears the song or whenever she feels like breaking into a song herself. I don't even mind the sleepless nights sometimes especially when I get to catch her smile in her sleep, and see how peaceful she looks sleeping.

So I guess I just need to see things in different perspective, to highlight the good and accept (and manage) the hard. There will be times when I will get frustrated and feel like giving up..but that will just mean that I'm human.

That's my reality.

It's not all sunshine, blue skies and green grass. I get the occasional rain, stormy clouds and muddy fields that sometimes feels as if they last longer than most. But there will ALWAYS be a rainbow at the end of the storm!

So choose to be happy people! BUT REMEMBER that it's still okay to cry sometimes! (and the occasional complaints *wink*)

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

It was mother's day yesterday and Keisha decided to give me a very special gift..

She walked on her own for the very first time!

I couldn't ask for a more special gift than that..*fuzzy feeling* CKD has been pestering us to hold her hands as she tries to walk these past few weeks. And at the same time, I have always tried to encourage her to walk unsupported. But she always only gives me a huge cheeky grin and deliberately fall on me.

But yesterday, I tried to get her to walk on her own and SHE DID!! She followed me all over the living room laughing and grinning..walking by herself! I was ecstatic! Happy to see it with my own eyes her first steps...

She's so big now..trying to remember how tiny she used to be...sigh..

I love you Keisha! and thank you for coming into my life..thank you for all the happiness you've given me..

Silly moment with mama!

Smile baby!

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommies and mommies-to-be out there! Your child is the best gift you could ever have as a mother!

Praise Him for the Sunny Days!

2011-05-06T12:16:00.000+08:00

I've seen a rainbow yesterday but too many storms have come and gone
Leaving a trace of not one God giving ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of gray?
I pray, all ten fade away, seldom praise him for the sunny days
- Waterfalls, TLC

I seem to be channeling negativity and pessimism a lot lately. And like the lyrics to the Waterfalls song, "Seldom praise him for the sunny days" I have been ungrateful.

I guess that has always been how I deal with things. By complaining and making excuses for myself. My wake up call came when I found out my Scheduled Waste Manager Certification has expired and I didn't get my 'Competent Person' title because I failed to submit my report. The thing that smacked me in the face was finding out that the certification course now costs RM3000 plus when it was about RM1500 when I took it 3 years ago.

I feel as if I have failed myself.

I reflected on what I have been given (material and spiritual) and I noticed that yes..I have deliberately sabotaged myself by being ungrateful, lazy and a spoiled brat.

You might think that it was just a course I failed, why make it such a big deal? The course would've been a major added value to my resume and my value as an Env. Eng. Something like a certified Safety Offficer but even more because I would've been one of the pioneers to have such certification. And I blew it. All me and nothing or no one else but MY OWN FAULT!

So I'm set to turn into a new leaf. And I have a new mantra..

"Stop wishing and start doing!"

I've applied to do my Masters and fingers crossed I'll get accepted to my chosen course and varsity and I am set at doing my very best. First class honors here I come (I'll try!)

And for my current situation, I'm gonna change my ways. I swear, I'm trying my best.

Turning 30 this year, bout time I act like one and grow up already.

My Baby is ONE!

2011-04-20T15:47:00.002+08:00

future pianist?

My baby turned one yesterday. How time has flown and how she has grown. From a meek little girl who does nothing but sleep throughout most of the day, she won't stay put anymore, not even for a bit. Even throws tantrum when it's nap time coz she still hasn't had enough of playtime.

naaaww..i just love to play!

Getting clever everyday with new tricks and antics.

yoga anyone?

But she is the perfect little charmer..capturing people's heart with that cheeky smile of hers.

first trip (second actually, this was taken during the flight back home) on an aeroplane

felt like you were just born yesterday (keisha @ 1day old)

Happy birthday dear little Keisha..Soon you will no longer be little but in my heart, you will always be my little girl, my love and my life..

in front of her birthday cake - rainbow+smarties cake made with love by her Aunty Julie (who claims that Keisha is her baby sometimes..hehe!)

Pictures were taken when we were back in KL for a week last week (except for the one when she was a day old of course). She had so much fun playing with the cuzzies (and I guess the cuzzies had equally as much fun - and possibly her mak tok and wan too..hik!) I loved being back in KL, which meant I had suami around. A week flew by in a blink of an eye.

Back in Perlis now and back to the nice laid-back life, but can get lonely without suami around :( Well, at least I have the cheeky little girl with me. She hasn't started walking yet, but forcing everyone to hold her as she tries to walk as if she's an expert. Sigh..but cheeky, clever little girl...you can never get enough of CKD...

The simple life in Perlis

2011-04-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

I took this picture while waiting at the traffic light on the way to work yesterday. The motorcyclist had just help close the door of the car that wasn't shut properly. And later proceeded to have a chat while waiting for the light to turn green.

Blissful eh? To be able to trust people around you. No worries about driving the car with the window down..

When I was in KL, I was paranoid as hell driving in town. All the stories I heard about being robbed while waiting at the lights or while waiting in the car or even while being stuck in traffic! The Modus Operandi would be the motorcyclist will smash your car window and grab your handbag that's sitting on the passenger!

And latest I heard, there's some crazy dude on a motorcycle going around splashing acid to people, targeting random ladies in cars!

You could suffocate from all the paranoia from living in KL.

But I'm not saying that EVERYONE here in Perlis are virtuous. Take my recent incident where my handbag got stolen. And there was also an incident where my groceries was ALMOST stolen while I was still shopping.

What happened was, I had paid for the diapers I bought for my daughter and later proceeded to the groceries area downstairs of the store. I put the paid diapers in the shopping cart and left it at the side of the aisle coz the cart couldn't fit through the aisle I wanted to go to. When I came back with my groceries, my cart was GONE!!!

I quickly searched the store, thank god the store wasn't that big and found my cart! Some idiot chinese lady took my cart! And I know it was deliberate coz she had already put some items she into the cart itself! When I approached her, she just sheepishly smiled and quickly left the cart! Not even an apology!! I was just relieved to get my cart back that I didn't manage to give her a piece of my mind!

Sigh..I don't even know if her kid could fit into CKD's diapers! Coz she was with her son, about 7 or 8years old. I dunno if she has a younger child but demmit woman! Why in the hell did u TRY (coz I got the cart back!) to steal my cart?!?

Interesting life and experience I've had here. Mostly it's fine here apart from being away from suami. I actually like it here, liking the fact that its a small town with quaint old shops. I still haven't fully explored this town..mainly contributed from my old big city paranoia of going out on my own (yes! I'm scared to go out alone in KL) also from the fact that CKD is going through her 'terrible two' phase early (she knows how to throw tantrums now) so she's almost impossible to handle right now.

But I could live here, and I could NOT live here too..I don't know..I still can't decide.

But what I know is, I'm going back to KL on Monday! Will be there for a week so its gonna be a week worth of food fest for me. Have already made a list of places I wanna go to suami. Hehe..can't wait!

Plus, CKD turns 1 in a 10days time! Time flies eh? Will be having a small dinner just with the family but she will have a special first birthday cake made with love by her aunty Julie! I think her aunty Julie is more excited to make the cake than CKD can even comprehend! Hehe!

So friends! I will be in KL from the 12th til the 19th! Make time to meet up!!!! See you guys soon!

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More (mis)Adventures

2011-04-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

It's flooding here in my new place. No..not my house, but the town. It's starting to get more and more challenging for me to be here now, and I am secretly questioning myself for coming here in the first place.. But before I get to showing you guys some pictures (yes!i have pictures this time!:P) of the flood condition here, lemme just recap on a few more ~~mis~~adventures I've had here since I last updated my blog.

We found out a couple of weeks back that the owner of the house we were supposed to rent pulled out on us. I'm not too sure on why he bailed, but a few days after he informed us of the cancellation and returned our deposit, we found out he had a new tenant willing to pay an extra RM20 for the house rent. Oh well..but 'silver lining' coming right up for this 'cloud'!

Then just last Friday, my handbag got stolen..from INSIDE the house! No, our house was not broken into. Apparently the thief found an open window (our mistake..:( ) and actually managed to pull my handbag out using some galah! ALL my important documents are gone! Including my passport and my bank books! And to make things worse, my mom's wallet was in my handbag too! But the thief was in for a surprise coz there was only about RM50 combined (mom and I) in the handbag. But I CURSE you thief!! I've been setback almost RM300 just to replace all my ID, License etc. I still haven't gotten my passport replaced so that's gonna burn a bigger hole in my pocket soon too.

And come Monday, it started to rain heavily in the evening and didn't stop the next day. Only on Wednesday did it stop raining for a bit in the evening but it already started to flood. Apparently the water from the nearby dam was released, where all 6 doors at the dam was open to relieve the dam and caused most areas in Kangar and Arau to get flooded in.

Being the Occupational Safety and Health Unit for the uni here, our office became the Control Centre for the situation. And driving a Toyota Hilux, my colleagues took full advantage of my car and we went around checking the flood situation. The worst hit is the town centre itself.

the view at the back of my office. the paddy field looks like a lake

road going into the town centre. Jalan Hospital is totally inaccessible by cars.

the town folks are actually enjoying the flood by doing some FISHING! that's the Perlis River. They are even fishing at the paddyfields. such a simple life.

road leading to the EPF Building

Pretty bad eh? And this is the area that I can still go. The main roundabout is closed to cars so I can see people going around in bicycles and a LOT of cars are damaged by this flood. As of this morning, more than 4000 people has been evacuated from their homes. Thank god my house is not affected.

Hence, the silver lining..the house that I was supposed to rent, you guessed it...VERY badly affected by the flood. I guess it's a sign that I should be strong and god has his way of telling me of where to go and what to do..Just need to see the silver lining for my stolen handbag...sigh..

But the beauty of Kangar is, even though the roads are flooded, I was only 2 minutes late for work..and didn't even try to leave earlier (yes..I'm tardy like that!) But in KL...hahah! Even when there is no flood, and I leave home an hour earlier..I can still be late 45minutes to work!!

So that's it for now. It's 12.30pm so I'm going home for lunch. Work resumes at 2.45pm. hehe..hey..I work for the government now and it's a friday..Later peeps!

*only downside, i don't look forward for the weekends much. suami's not around and there's not much to do. I like it better when its a working day! damn! I'm turning into such a nerd!!*

Hiks

2011-03-14T11:47:00.000+08:00

This came with my staff ID card. I've never felt more important!hahaha!
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My (Mis)adventures!

2011-03-07T14:26:00.000+08:00

Phew! Sorry for being such a slacker. It's the beginning of my week 4 (already?!?!) here in my new hometown and yes..it has been a series of ~~mis~~ADVENTURES!! So okay, let's just recap..

Week 1:
Reported in for duty only to find out my office was not where I thought it would be! Thank god this town is small and suami was still around (although I've become more expert about the roads here than he is now! :P) Got to my new office and again! only to find out that they were not expecting me! But all was solved quickly as they made space for me in this cozy office. I didn't have to worry about the awkward first day lunchtime at work, coz just my luck, the office was having their monthly birthday celebration. So lunch with everybody at the office..nice eh?

Found out the basic function of my Unit. I'm with the Occupational Safety & Health Unit. So nope, am not gonna be teaching any kiddos for the mean time. Although the unit's main function is to manage the campus' OSH MS certification (technical lingo, too lazy to explain. maybe later) but our SIDE function are as the Receiving Committee (AJK Sambutan) for ALL of UniMAP's events! And with the amount of events this uni has, it might as well be our main function!hehe! But I am greatful for it tho. It has helped speed up my knowledge on the locations of our very scattered departments and schools. *note: UniMAP doesn't operate in one area, it operates from all parts of this state!:D

Suami left for KL after I came back from work on my first day. So sweet of him to send and pick me up for my first day, but it didn't make the separation any easier. He had to go back to KL to settle some stuff with our condo before we put it up for rent.

So for the first week that I was here, I have had to attend THREE events and become the Liason Officer to a VIP..and receive my first visitor. Thanks Amad! Nice to see a familiar face!

Week 2:
I had to attend a 4-day training as a Lead Auditor conducted by NIOSH. Nice! So still not much work done by me, but we did manage to go around and audit one of the departments. Finally, some REAL work!

Week 2 was not without any events either! I think we had 2 major events happening at the campus, some Inter-ASEAN uni Tennis Tournament and Malaysian University Robot(ic) Competition which each had their Formal dinner and respective ceremonies. Which also meant - 2 event x 2 programs = 4 events my unit had to go to. There goes my weekend!

At least by mid-week, suami was back in town. So I was chauffeured to and fro from work. :) And I had my second visitor, my hommies Anies & Sapik who was back for the weekend.

But the MAJOR ~~mis~~adventure for this week was finding out about the condition of the house we were supposed rent. My heart sank when I saw the inside part of the house for the first time. Let me just quote my mom on it.."It looked like a torture chamber! Even the prison looks better!"

So began our frantic journey in looking for a new house to rent. IT WAS SO FREAKING HARD! and I was stressed outta my head. But I have to thank all those of you who responded to my frantic BBM & FB statuses and my frantic tweets. I am touched with all the help you guys offered!

Let's just say, it's easier to look for a needle in a haystack than finding a house to rent in Perlis.

Week 3:
Another week of 4-days training for me but this time was on Basic first-aid. Not even the end of my first month, already I have completed my 7days training quota for the year! :)

The Uni's event calendar was looking pretty clear for the week except for the New Student Council ceremony on Saturday. so not so bad.

And the best news was, after frantically looking for a house to rent (sometime even considering to buy), my dearest suami finally found us a place. It needs some repairs but definitely a space I could work with! *happy* Insya allah we'll be moving into our new place in April.

And yesterday, I took my mom and CKD to Alor Star. I wanted to cook spaghetti and wanted to go to Tesco to look for some of the ingredients. Secretly, I just wanted to be in familiar grounds..:P We had a good day-trip driving along the 'Terusan Wan Mat Saman' - the famous water canal built years ago to supply water for the vast paddy fields along the entire journey (will definitely write about this in the future and with pictures!) I even felt a bit adventurous taking the back way back to Kangar, passing by rawkstar's parents' house..:)

But the downside of my week was that suami has gone back to KL since he will be starting his new job today and is indefinite on when he will be back here..*bawls*

However..I am definite as when I will be back in KL..hiks! Have already applied for my annual leave for it (over kan!baru keje tak sampai sebulan dah apply AL!!hahah!)..See you guys soon!

I am here now

2011-02-11T22:59:00.001+08:00

I'm here..in Perlis. And I am going through withdrawal symptoms as anies puts it.

I've never been gracious in accepting changes and I have a pretty embarrassing track record.

First time I had to leave home was when I was 13. Off to boarding school..my coping mechanism was to imagine that it was all just a dream! I didn't stop begging my mom to let me come home til I was 16! 4 years! Only when I was in my final year did I started to enjoy my school..I'm thankful my mom didn't give in..

The next major move I had to do was when I went to uni for the first time. To think 5years in boarding school would prepare me for it..oh boy! I didn't eat for a week...til my dad came and visit for a bit before he went back to my hometown. I started to feel a bit human when I made friends with some of the girls at my dorm. And I'd look forward for my lunch time coz that was when I would be able to see some of my friends from high school who went to the same uni. But most of the time, I'd keep to myself and cry on the phone to my then boyfriend (who was in another uni in JB) every night. Mind you, there were no handphones then (well, not like they have it now) so it was the good'ol public phones. I spent a fortune calling him (who was soo hard to get in touch-so I ended up talking to the next best person, his bestfriend- also in the same uni as he was, which might not have been the best decision) and don't get me started on the queuing to use the phone..ahhh..the good'ol days..

And this is major too...I've left ALL that is familiar to me to come to a place that I know deep down will give me all the opportunities for my career to grow without losing my quality of life.

But you can't have it all...

Suami just got a new job in KL with a major bank company. So far the prospect seems good for him. But he promised, give him at most a year to get everything sorted out and try to get a transfer here in Perlis.

My pillar of strength is not around..so what do I do?? Lose all control of my tears dam....

Like I said..I don't accept changes graciously..I'll become an introvert, lose my appetite and make my suami worry by crying every chance I get. I suck!

I know things will be fine..I know that this is the right choice..I just don't want to be a sport yet. Let me sulk..let me be a brat but I promise I'll try.

Give me at least a week and we'll see how I progress ok?

And thanks guys! For the moral support! You know who you are!

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Train of thoughts..

2011-01-16T15:50:00.000+08:00

I always seem to find myself dwelling in my past memories which I will cringe and my next thought is.."What the hell was I thinking?" I always thought what if things were different? Would I've been a different person? If yes, would I be better or worse than I am now?

In a way, I hope my daughter would never have to go through what I had to. But there were parts of my experience that had help build my character and made me a wiser and stronger person that I am today. That came because I wasn't blessed with money or the luxuries in life. But I wasn't denied the basic needs either.

Where I am today, and what I can become in the future, insya-allah I would be able to afford to give and provide my child with all those 'material' stuffs. But should I? To what extend should I limit my providing her? I would love to have her 'earn' what she wants from me..but what is the limit? When will it be too much?

I see kids these days and I am sometimes appalled at what they have. A handphone at the age of 6?? Don't even start on those PSPs and iPads or even laptops! Hell..I had my first phone when I was in Uni..laptop? About 2-3years ago! Maybe its the day and age where technology is a necessity rather than a luxury, but seriously..a handphone at 6 years old can't seem right can it?

I think when I was 6, I would've been happy if my parents were to get me a bicycle or a set of cooking toys or maybe a barbie doll! But then again, those days, handphones were those huge things that looked like briefcases carried by contractors who went to the sites!

So how do we gauge ourselves as the modern day parents? Moving to Perlis would probably mean a different exposure to my child. I hope she'll play outside more rather than plonk herself in front of the telly..I hope she'll read like I used to - my mom would buy me 1 enid blyton book a week when I was a kid, sadly I've lost my entire enid blyton collection due to the amount of moving we did when we were younger. I hope she'll be kind to people and people to her..I hope for the best for her, nothing less.

But what is the best? I didn't get the best neither did I get the worst but I had happiness. Maybe hoping for happiness would be better that hoping for the best? What do you think?

Whatever it is, I hope my child will live a better life than I did and become a better person than I am..I think that's much better eh?
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I'm Moving

2011-01-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

As I vaguely mentioned in my previous post about the offer that came and I am declining. Well..I gave it a little more thought and saw that there was some option to raise the offer a bit so I submitted my request. They got back to me and the new offer was acceptable..therefor..I am moving to PARIS..eh..Perlis! :P

I have tendered my 30days notice on Monday and my last day (based on my own calculation) will be on the 10th Feb. But I am still waiting for the HR to get back to me if I have any annual leaves to clear. If I do, my last day here will be earlier.

Will be reporting for duty at my new place on the 14th Feb. So soon..

I am excited and nervous both at the same time. Am leaving a place that I know so well (but have honestly grown tired of) and moving to some place so foreign to me. But the prospects are good for both my career and family (and the fact that my mom is coming with me kinda helped me make the decision) so..I know I will get through this like I have always done so.

When I spilled the news to some friends that I used to party with, I think I nearly gave them a heart attack!hehe! They haven't seen me since I got married and I guess I have changed my lifestyle a lot! They were already surprised that I have stopped all sorts of partying, found out I have graduated from school (and became an engineer - they knew I got married so that was ok) and now moving to Perlis to join the academia world..that was a lot to process in one meet after soo many years!hahaha! Sorry guys! Will try to catch up before I leave! Lesser heart attacking news! Promise!!

I will miss my friends here which I don't see as often as I would've liked to. I will miss the convenience and the thought of having them so near. But I have a feeling I might be seeing more of them once I've moved. :)

Guys! My doors are always open for you to come and visit ok? Now you have a reason to come up north since I'm there and I know many of you have never been there!

What I will not miss here in KL is the traffic jam and the amount of time it takes me to get to ANYWHERE! AND the amount of money that I can save!! In Perlis, I can go out do my stuff and be back in half-hour! More time for me and family! Oh and I get to further my studies for free (not including the bond with the Uni of course!)..Get ready to call me Prof. Dr. Nur Syahira peeps!!hahaha! (maybe not so soon...gimme a few years ok?)

But I will still be in touch. What with technologies are today..as Peah said on Twitter

Hahahahah! Yes people..you can always get me on all those means of communication tools apart from the obvious Blog and Facebook (and BBM too..:) ) and other instant messengers!

So..here's to the only constant in life..CHANGE! Wish me luck peeps!

Review: Arrested Development @ HRC, KL

2011-01-13T14:48:00.000+08:00

Fine..so maybe I'm a HRC whore/junkie. So whatever band that performs there will get my review. But hey..this was one show I was GLAD I went. I mean, even suami (who was kinda clueless on who Arrested Develeopment was - WHAT?!?! haha!I tried my best singing my rendition of 'Everyday People' to him and he was still clueless *blur*) who has a thing against clubs, congested with people (it was PACKED!!) AND cigarette smoke combined, stayed THROUGH THE ENTIRE GIG! Not even a toilet break! He never left his spot!

And we had a good spot too thanks to our new found friends - Ben and Luke from Melbourne, who said "Hello" to us first because both suami and I was wearing the Wallabies Jerseys (matching..we're corny and sappy like that :P). We got there at 9pm and HRC was already charging the door charge (RM55/person). Our plan was to have dinner too but they refused to give us a table saying that it was already reserved (am not very happy about this arrangement actually..They shouldn't refuse dinner patrons before 10pm! HRC KL, please take note..you guys had empty tables for the whole entire time. We wouldn't have minded if you guys told us in advance that we would have to move by 10pm to make way for the reservations!) The bar was packed from the Happy Hour crowd who decided to stay on for the show. So yeah, we were really grateful for Ben & Luke letting us scoot in their spot. The fact that they had the best spot in the entire place was a big bonus too!:) But we still didn't have any dinner coz it was too uncomfortable so instead, we got to know our new friends better.

The rest of the gang came later, when the show was just about to begin. And I think it's safe to say that it was the best 'Celebration' (as Arrested Development like to call their shows as) EVER! The music was AWESOME! The energy was AWESOME!(Eshe was really working that bod!!) even have to give kudos to the crowd coz mostly were ol'skool party people..(no rempits to be seen!!!thank god for that!)

I was too busy enjoying the show, so I didn't take photos. I think I would be missing out if I was too busy trying to take pictures. So it was 100% dancing and singing and screaming for me! *note achy bod and sore throat today* But I think Peah took some and will ~~steal~~ ask him for some and post em here.

So to those of you who missed it...you missed an A-MAH-ZING party..

To those of you who went "badaba babai badaba babai badaba babai HEY!" is still ringing in my ears!!!

One love.

*note: Arrested Development will be performing at Hard Rock Cafe, Jakarta on the 14th Jan and Hard Rock Cafe, Bali on the 16th Jan*

Wardrobe Clearance!

2011-01-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

So follow up from my previous post (which I actually drafted before the new years but only posted it this week!:P) I cleared out my closet!! And it was perfect timing coz my german 'adek', Sandra, was in town. The perfect person for me to hand down my collection.

Arrgh..forgot to take piccas of the clothes I purged but I managed to clear out TWO HUGE SHOPPING bags worth and based on Sandra's testimony.."This is like shopping to me, now I have summer clothes to wear in Sydney!" I do have pictures of me wearing those clothes before..but ermm..I think better not! Nanti sensasi sgt tetibe masuk ohbulan!:P

Honestly, Malaysia doesn't have good places to send off old clothes. Been reading a lot of crafty blogs and most of them are from US, but they have access to places like Goodwill or Salvation (army) - i think there are Salvation Army outlets but I don't know if it's limited to Christians only - where they can send and get these pre-loved items. For me, most of the time, my cleaning lady gets dibs coz I just put it in the Refuse Chamber (yes, that's what they call the garbage room!Sounds grand!) at my place.

But these specific items, I was a bit heavy-hearted to just let the cleaning ladies take dibs. Plus what are they going to do with my old clubbing stuffs??hahaha!

So Sandra came over on Wednesday coz the crazy girl's flight leaves for Sydney the next morning! So she took out the stuffs and I told her to choose what she likes first and separate them. Instead of going through them together with her bf's sisters and not being able to get first dibs. So she did and we had loadsa fun seeing her struggling into my itty bitty mini skirts (and micro too..god!I was soo daring), skinny jeans (sizes 0/24inch waist), bareback tops..hahah! you get the idea! And there were even tops and we used to wear together (she borrowed mine) back in 2005 or 2006! Sadly we BOTH lost the pics we took when we wore them..:( and they were really cute stuffs too..

Sandra: Babe!Take pictures of you wearing your 'new' clothes..esp the pink dress so I can put proof of purchase here!!:)

I even gave Sandra 2 jewelery pouches worth of dangly earrings and I think about 4 pair of shoes (including my fave boots which I know I will never wear)..I left out a few more shoes coz the shoe rack got blocked by stuffs in the store room. Oh well..it's ok! Will just wait til she come back next time..

Hey Sandra..if you're reading this..I hope you'll have as much fun with those clothes as I did before! I'm glad they've found a new home with you..I sleep better at night thinking you will be wearing them instead of some cleaning lady ..*drama*

Okay..let's go shopping!

Wardrobe Essentials

2011-01-05T14:13:00.020+08:00

So part of my turning 30 list is 'Be more Presentable' which also means a wardrobe makeover. I was browsing around the web and found some useful tips for Wardrobe Essentials. I can envision the listed items to work with my style. Mind you, the items are just basics.

So first thing to do this weekend is to purge my wardrobe! I have stuffs I haven't worn in years (not only because of the post-baby weight gain..) Some are even from my high school years. No..no..time to let it all go. So who wants to come over and take them off my hands? I have a lot of accessories I wanna let go too. And I have A LOT (especially earrings..remember those 3 for RM10 earrings? I have loadss of them and I never wear them anymore. Plus I'm scared CKD will pull them off my ears when I do wear them.) I also have clothes that I've NEVER worn. Any takers? And oh..some of my bags has gotta go too..

I have a feeling I might be left with almost nothing once I'm done purging my wardrobe. Come the New Years..IT'S SHOPPING TIME! I've got the items listed and I am all excited.

Wanna see my list? These are my 'Need' List (it's from the Wardrobe Essential page actually) and I tweaked it a bit to suit my needs (and weather..:P)

Tops & Sweaters
- White button-down dress shirt
- Basic tees - v-neck, scoop neck, round neck (secure with camisoles, tank tops or t-shirts - short and long sleeved)
- ~~Dressy blouse/shirt~~ (might just get one more, but this will be pushed to my 'Want' list)
- ~~Cardigan sweater~~ (bought a plain black cardi from Tangs, Empire, on 50% sale for RM50)
- Wool v-neck/scoop neck sweater (maybe a thin knit sweater. Wool might be too hot for our climate)

Outer wear
- Denim jacket (need a new one)
- Boyfriend blazer (dark and light neutral)

Bottoms
- All season dress pants - ~~dark~~ (MNG factory outlet at RM36) & light neutral
- ~~Dark colored jeans (one more pair~~ (indulged myself with a new pair of Levi's!Most expensive purchase so far!)
- Black and neutral pencil skirt (or maybe A-line, but i like pencil skirts better) - sewing project?
- Black day-to-night skirt (circle or tulip skirt) - sewing project?
- Denim skirt (50-50 on 'Need' or 'Want' list actually)
- ~~Leggings~~ (padang besar @RM18 each. I got 3 - brown, black & grey)

Dresses
- Little black dress (maybe it won't be so little laa..:P)
- Basic tee-dresses (makeshift as tunics)
- Sun-dress
- Casual dress that can be make-shift as a work dress (paired with cardigan/boyfriend blazer)

Jewelery and Accessories
- Diamond stud earrings (doesn't have to be the real deal, but the real thing would be nice)
- Diamond pendant necklace
- ~~Pearl stud earrings~~ (inherited MIL's collection)
- ~~Pearl necklace~~ (inherited MIL's collection)
- Hoop earrings
- ~~Gold/silver bracelet~~ (gold MNG factory outlet @RM15)
- Metal dress watch
- ~~Wide belt~~ (MNG Factory outlet @RM20)
- ~~Skinny belt~~ - (got TWO for RM10/each at Tangs, Empire. Bought them in tan and light maroon-ish)

Bags (this is more of giving away my current bag collection rather than buying new)
- Casual everyday handbag (hobo leather bag)
- ~~Tote handbag~~ (dark neutral - classic styles) - wonder if my new Charles&Keith count as this..strike-off la.
- Cross body bag (maybe my Coach sling counts as this?or could this be a reason to buy a new one *evil grin*)
- ~~Evening purse~~ (black m)phosis clutch)

Shoe Essentials
- ~~Ballerina flats~~ (i NEED one in red)
- ~~Black~~ (Hush puppies mary-jane pumps) and nude pumps

So there you have it. I think I will update on where and how I got them when I get them. :)

Any tips on where I can get them for cheap but good quality? Lemme know!

My 'Want' List? Let's just deal with the 'Need' list first..So who wants to go shopping with me?

Signed Up! Time to Train!

2011-01-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

I've signed up and paid for it. Now I have no choice but to train for it....and turn up for the event of course!haha!

'Be more Active' enough?

Sorry Harimau Malaya..

2010-12-27T14:17:00.001+08:00

too hot!hahahahahahahahah!

Sekian...

*psst..he's 22 so it's legal to ogle..LOL!*

They're Back!

2010-12-27T12:28:00.000+08:00

It's confirmed!they'll be back on air 3rd January on the Mix.fm Breakfast Show!! Heard the ad on Mix the other day! yeayyy!! (secretly wonders what will happen if Serena C were to join them and be a 3team Breakfast Show like before when it was Serena, Pietro and Ika)

On a different note..the offer came. But sadly am declining as it is not up to my expectations plus. It's not that I'm being greedy, but I do have commitments and it just won't cover it. I am however, truly upset about it :(

So I am still in town folks!

My Morning Radio is Killed!

2010-12-15T15:12:00.000+08:00

I'm more of a radio person. The only CD I would listen to over and over again would be Project Pop. But even then, the mood has to be right.

So it would be typical of me to listen to the radio while I drive to work in the morning. I used to listen to the Mix.fm Breakfast Show back when it was Serena C and Pietro doing the slot. They had great chemistry and had great topics to talk about every morning. Plus they didn't have those prank call slots (ugghh..i hate those slots). Plus, Mix.fm plays old and new music. Perfect for me. Then I don't know why, their topics started to get a bit annoying and next thing I know, they were off the air. I don't know why coz I stopped listening to them.

Serena C and Pietro (source:chinfern.blogspot.com)

But I was ok. My friends introduced me to Red.fm. Initially it was because they played a LOT of my favorite songs from back in the days. Similar to Mix.fm, but a tad bit more variety. Then I started listening to their breakfast show. At first, I didn't really like Dilly's voice. But she kinda grew on me and I really enjoyed listening to her and JD. I loved the 'Thousand Ringgit Minute" slot which no one seems to win. Couldn't call in coz I'd be driving during the slot but I loved trying the trivia out by myself. And now..even they are taken off the air!

JD & Dilly (source: The Star)

I hate the other morning shows that are available now. I ESPECIALLY hate Hitz.fm morning crew (oh how I wish for the days when Lil'Kev and Flyguy were on air! Those guys were PHENOMENAL!). However, I secretly enjoy Richard Reid's gossip slot and that's about it! I think Ean is plain rude (he seems to cut off his callers mid-conversation) and don't get me started on the prank calls. Same goes to ALL the stations who has those prank calls slots. Hello!! It's lame!

So now I skip stations every few minutes. Sometimes Fly.fm is not so bad, until they get to the Alarm Call slot. I wish they could be a bit more original with their slots (psst..the musical clip Phatfabes and Ben did together with Hunny Madu was great..start there!).

And the new team for Mix.fm hmm..eh! Sorry..but listening Kimberly and Reefa, it could cause a driving hazard for me. You guys don't have the chemistry like Serena and Pietro did.

And PLEASEEEEEEE dont' get me started on Rudy (taking over JD & Dilly's slot)!! The dude mumbles and talks like there's something in his mouth! Its probably all those sock people tell him to shove up his mouth! He's boring and sound soooo self-absorbed! It was better when Jeremy and Pietro took over for a bit. They should've just continued with those guys! Rudy's Recruit??????? It's more like you're the one who needs to be recruited!

But I heard news that JD and Dilly will be 'MIX'ing back starting January 3rd! Yeay!!!!!! I look forward to my morning fix..thank god!

So I guess for now, the cds will just have to do or keep on station hopping..January please come quick!

Too Bad

2010-12-09T10:27:00.000+08:00

Now you know what it feels like
When you do what you do to me
But sadly, you still don't realize
The mistakes you have made
And for that,
I pity you..
For when you never realize your mistake
How will you ever know how to improve yourself
So you will be stuck
As the sorry little person that you are

I am already disillusioned by you
Always thinking that they are out to get you
Again I pity you..
For the insecurities that you feel
The front you are putting
Is only making it worse

Too bad..
Feel what I feel
I grow from it..but will you?
Or will it just add more to your insecurities?
Too bad..

The Vanity Bag

2010-12-03T09:57:00.001+08:00

Ta daa!!

I have been meaning to put this up for a while now but I just don't seem to have the inspiration to write about it. Oh well.

Anyway, I burnt a hole in suami's pockets a few weeks ago while I was shopping for new work clothes during the I-setan sale. Hehe! We were in KLCC and estee-lauder was having a promotion at the concourse area. At first, we were just helping tariq out to get the make-up set for his wedding hantaran. But then, I wanted one for myself too!

The offer couldn't come in a more appropriate time (ceh! Kononn!!). I mean, the complete set was going at RM220(purchase with purchase) when the normal RP was over RM1000 (input from tariq coz he surveyed it a few weeks back). The set came with:

eyeshadow pallette
blusher pallette
4 sticks of lipstick
dual lipgloss
3 crayon eyeliners
a set of brushes
make-up remover
Make-up bag, pouch and mirror

All we had to do was buy a mascara (RM90) and the set was ours at the promo price. I call that a steal!

This is a steal don't you think so?

So FINALLY! I have a proper make-up set! The great thing about this set was it even came with a look book and simple tutorials on how to put on make-up..very much needed for a make-up noob like me! All these while, when I do my own make-up it will only involve a compact powder, eyeliner,mascara and lipgloss (with lipstick if rajin! :P)

Look Book

My mom was happy, can't say the same with suami!haha! I have been putting in extra effort in dressing myself up. I TRY to put on some make-up when I go out. Suami is complaining.."You pakai cantik2..sekarang I pun kene pakai cantik" and frowns! Hahaha! Well, good that he feels that way!

So, that's another Be More Presentable added to my list!

Make-up, check! Next is wardrobe!

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Blondie..

2010-11-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I found my first strand of grey hair!

Freaking out yet? Not really..I was more amused than freaked out about it. But suami and my mom just snickered at me saying "Alah..it's only ONE strand"..

So I couldn't complain..not that I am complaining right now either. *sigh*

I guess I'm on my way to being a natural blonde soon..*melodramatic*

Silver hair ain't so bad eh?kinda funky if you ask me (pic fr http://beaut.ie/blog)

November

2010-11-25T16:35:00.001+08:00

Fakta sampah bulan ini:

Malaysians produce 30,000tonnes of WASTE PER DAY!!!!! - alam flora sdn bhd

Malaysians..pleaselah reduce, reuse, recycle!

Sekian!

*MEMANG fakta sampah!*

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3 years and 1 baby later..

2010-11-24T10:09:00.001+08:00

Happy Anniversary Sayang!!!

3 wonderful years and 1 baby (who was VERY temperamental yesterday!) later and I am still so in love with you..*bat eyelashes*

more to come?!? oh yes definitely, wonderful years AND babies!!hahaha!

I love you always!!

*emo update*
i look forward to growing old with you,
to laugh and to cry with you,
to annoy you and be annoyed by you,
and wake up every morning and sleep every night by your side..
for the rest of my life..
i love you sayang, i really do!

My New (old) Yellow Dress

2010-11-03T16:00:00.000+08:00

So I have been collecting inspirations these past few weeks and I stumbled upon this blog New Dress a Day about this girl who's been making a new dress a day, EVERYDAY from clothes bought from thrift stores and only on a $1/day budget for 365days. She has about a month left before her project year ends.

Since following her crafts and creations, I have started to excessively bloghopped to blogs that are dedicated to sewing, refashioning clothes, crafting etc. And have regretted giving away suami's and my old clothes..there were some nice shirts that would've made GREAT crafting/refashioning materials.

Oh well..no point in crying over spilt milk.

But I did manage to salvage something..My dress here..

I was 5 months preggers when I took this

This dress was soooo comfy to wear when I was preggers. But post-baby, it just looked plain frumpy. After seeing 'magic' done by Marisa of New Dress a Day, I was inspired and knew that I didn't need a miracle (or a sewing machine..please note..I don't have a sewing machine, YET!)

So I took off the last tier of the dress, gave it a new hem and rocked it in Bali!

Better eh? I still need to 'trim' those double-chin and chubby arms tho!

I have plans for the extra fabric I took off for CKD..

oh suami! Please! Please! PLEASEEEEE get me a sewing machine for our anniversary..PLEASE *bat eyelashes*

I have a few more stuffs in my closet that I haven't worn for the longest time, but has sooo much potential thanks to all those blogs I've visited and inspiring me soo much! Just you wait til I get my sewing machine!

You must be wondering since when did I ever learn how to sew..hahaha! Honestly, the only sewing lesson I ever received was from Home Economics (Kemahiran Hidup - Ekonomi Rumah Tangga weyy!) that I took wayyyy back when I was 13 or 15! But I'm VERY confident I can do this..plus my mom is ever willing (and i think she's secretly just as excited) to teach me the ropes..yeah!

And that is my 'Be more presentable' and soon 'Be more knowledgeable' Turning 30 added to my list!

Welcome to my Paradise! Day 2 til Day 4

2010-10-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

So okay..Day 2 in Bali.

After a good night sleep (ooohhh!!!after 6 months!!but my body clock kept waking me up at 4am and 6am - CKD's feeding time!) and yummy breakfast at the hotel (sorry..no piccas of breakfast buffet..too hungry to bother!) we got our fave (our only actually) supir - Pak Eddie to take us around Bali at 9am.

Macet!

Our first stop for the day was at Sukawati Market. If you ever go to Bali, Sukawati Market is the place to go because all the things you see them selling at the shops near the beaches, you can find all of them here at the fraction of the price (after rigorous bargaining of course!). Much of the damages to my wallet were made here. I bought 2 pairs of slippers, 7pcs of dresses for CKD, 3 jumpsuits and a dress for moi, 4tops for my mom & MIL, 2 sets of mengkuang bags (6 bags!), 3pairs of kids shorts made from indonesian batik, 2 pair of shorts for suami and 1 for me and suami bought a wooden hand-carved chess set and a ciggie box (for Hasno) all around Rp800,000 (approx RM280)...heh! Bargain much??? Umar bought 2 HUGE paintings for about Rp300,000..and Tariq did some damages too (but he actually managed to get lower prices than we did!!!)

Sukawati Market - you can also buy other art crafts & paintings here.

We came in early because they were just opening their stalls at the market. It's VERY congested in the market so I was feeling a bit claustrophobic for a while, and all those incense they were burning (a constant smell in Bali..they burn it everywhere!) caused suami's sinuses to act up. So we took a short break and had some Bakso & teh botol by the roadside! YUMMY!!!

brunch! Bakso & teh botol

food stall beside Sukawati Market. Halal food.

After the damages done at Sukawati Market, Pak Eddie took us to this place to have lunch. Sorry I can't provide you further details as where and WHAT this restaurant name is coz there was no signage whatsoever. Suami merely mentioned to pak Eddie that he wanted to eat Bebek Goreng (fried duck) and he took us to this beautiful place with delicious food!! At first I thought it was someone's house due to the lack of signage, but it was a really nice open air restaurant somewhere in Sanur area.

small pondoks as the seating area

the ever famous indonesian jus alpukat - Avocado & Chocolate juice. Tastes like soursop to me. Pak Eddie said it's good to help reduce high blood-pressure.

my lunch - bbq fish, with vege, soup, sambal & rice - Rp 17,000!!!and it was REALLY yumms!!

suami doing his Ong Bak pose at the entrance to the restaurant.

After that we stopped by Pasar Oleh-oleh Bali in Denpasar to get some more crafts. The place is like a big warehouse selling crafts, aromatherapy oil-soap-salt sets, and more. Tariq found a nice Rose aromatherapy set that he bought for his wedding hantaran here. I found some nice mengkuang coin purses I bought for my officemates and suami got his fridge magnets. The stuffs sold here are at a fixed price so no bargaining done, but it's not so expensive either. However, the choices are quite limited. I personally feel the Geneva Wholesaler warehouse in Denpasar (kot..) has better choices although the price are quite the same.

It was also here that I won an RM10 bet with Umar..heheh!! There was this HUGE metal dick (yes..that part of the male anatomy) outside of the store and Umar said "If you take a picture hugging the dick..I'll pay you RM10" hahahah! I'm not posting the pic here (it's on my fb tho..) coz posting it up my blog was not part of the deal!hahaha!

Next stop was at Discovery Mall at Kuta which is your typical shopping mall. We went there coz I wanted to look for some Project Pop CD. CDs are soooo cheap in Indonesia, especially if it's their local artistes! Sadly I didn't find any, but instead I got Glenn Fredly's album (forgot the name) and Tevin Campbell's (yeah!ol'skool!!) album for Rp25,000 each!

outside Discovery mall. They were already posing towards me until a little boy wanted to inter-frame but changed his mind on the last minute. Hence the guys laughing and looking right towards the little boy. I think the picture turned out better than i intended it to be.

<3 this pic of suami & i

After that we headed back to the hotel. It was about 5.30pm but it gets darker earlier in Bali so we thought it was almost 7pm or something.

We got back, rested for a bit and then thought of having dinner at the same Nasi Padang shop we discovered the day before. But it started to rain so we just had dinner at the hotel. We were planning to go to Hard Rock Hotel that night to check out a friend of mine performing at Centrestage, HRHBali.

Widya and her new band - Sterling Band was rocking Centrestage that night. Glad the guys enjoyed the band and was nice catching up with Widya too. She was one of the original T-Rex Band members, but decided not to tour anymore. So I didn't see her the last time T-Rex was in town.

Rock-on!

Widya rocking the stage with the band

Even Widya commented that I'm bigger now..sigh..takpe! I have a plan underway!!

The boys shooting some pool..

Cool poster by the toilet..:P


Sheila on 7

We did do more cam-whoring after the show but it's in Tariq's camera coz I ran out of battery for my camera.

Day 3 we all decided to just stay-in and enjoy the beach and the hotel for a bit. The boys went surfing..AT NOON..with NO SUNBLOCK! So padan muka suami who suffered massive sun burn afterwards!heh! I was nicely sleeping in the room and when the boys got back, they took it to the swimming pool pulak. So I sat by the pool and did some catching up on my reading (Lipstick Jungle by Candace Bushnell that has been collecting dust in my room for almost a year now!)

from far it looks like from a james bond movie

but the love handles..cannot tahan!!hhahahahaha!

Evening came and we were supposed to go to watch Kecak dance at Sanur. But dear Pak Eddie got stuck in traffic for 2 hours because of the ceremony in and around Kuta. So when he finally got to the hotel we said lets go for dinner. He took us to this local food court at Tiara Dewata Shopping Center in Denpasar. Food was so nyums I forgot to take pictures..heh! After dinner, suami wanted to get a motorcycle helmet for himself by the many helmet shops along the road. He found one full-faced helmet that has dual visor for Rp540,000 which is considered WAYYY cheaper than here in KL. But the helmet hunting experience was fun coz I got my ultimate fave pic throughout the entire trip..

Priceless!

On the way back, we got stuck in traffic again in Legian street. But we didn't mind so much. There was a lot of interesting stuffs to see along the streets of Legian.

music was blaring so loudly from this club..vi ai pi..VIP yo!

The Legian Monument for the previous Bali bombing..ironic that it's right next to the vi ai pi club. you won't see me clubbing there fo'sure..


this dude was actually spinning on the back of a pick-up truck by the road in front of HRC Bali! damn cool!

Suami and I decided to call it a night after that. But the boys went out to Centrestage again afterwards but was disappointed by the band performing coz it was not Sterling. Sterling was performing at HRC that night.

Last day in Bali..Morning was spent packing all the stuffs bought. Had breakfast and chilled out for a while before checking out of the hotel at 12noon. Our flight was at 9.25pm so we had loadsa time to kill before heading to the airport. I still had a few stuffs I wanted to get for Matahari Mall at Kuta Square so the gang decided to rent out motorbikes to do our final exploring of Kuta before leaving.

Pening layan mat rempit 3 orang ni!hahahaha!

Mushroom heads exploring the streets of Kuta & Legian on motorbikes!

As much as I had fun in Bali, I was more than glad to leave..Who wouldn't when you have this bundle of joy waiting for your back home!

was missing her all thru the trip!

I had loadsa fun in Bali and having suami and the boys made it even more fun..it was a much needed break for me, but I'm happy to be back. Wouldn't mind another similar trip, but maybe not anytime soon..perhaps next year..

Welcome to my Paradise! Day 1

2010-10-27T12:50:00.001+08:00

*cue lagu Steven and the Coconutz - Welcome to my Paradise*

Yeah!Just came back from Bali on Monday from a 4D3N trip. Best! This was my second time in Bali and I told suami that I want to do and go to places which I didn't get to the first time we went there. And explore we did!

Our flight was at 9:30am on Friday morning and we almost missed it! haha! what a great way to start the trip eh? Ni adalah gara-gara tak cek boarding time and semua dah lepak mode! haish! So anyway..we were the last few people to board the plane..habis tercungap cungap berlari dari departure area!hahah! owh..LCCT has changed..makin besar dan agak confusing at first..oh well..

preparing for take-off

hehehe!did i ever mention that suami HATES flying?

oh!just a word of advice, if ever you're flying Air Asia, please don't take seats on row 11 or the hot seats..you can't recline your seats...think sitting up straight on a 3hour flight....

blue skies!!

Welcome to Bali! Yeay!!

Our UNdesignated tour guide..Umar!hahaha!


Umar's 'other half' Tariq!:P

We arrived at around 1pm. There was a bit of traffic all around Denpasar and Kuta because of some full moon ceremony that apparently happens only once every 10 years. I asked a local and she explained that it was a 'Cleansing Ceremony' that takes place throughout the week up till the full moon. I tried asking cleansing of what..but didn't understand what she was explaining..But..the ceremony caused 'macet' (traffic jam) all over Kuta.

We checked-in to our hotel in Wina Holiday Villa, Kuta and found out that we got upgraded to the suite! YEAHH! Thank you Husni!! Guess all those recommendations we made to friends going to Bali actually paid off..:)
*psst..psst..anyone going to Bali, give us a holler so we could hook you up on a good deal for your room rates!


Totally 'Suite'!

Just FYI, ALL Holiday Villa hotels (there's 2 in Bali - Kuta & Sanur) and 2 other (i don't remember..but one is in Nusa Dua) are the ONLY hotels that serves halal food..

So after we have chucked our luggage into our rooms, suami was already hungry-borderline-cranky..but since we haven't explored the town yet, we decided to just have McD as our first meal in Bali (so adventurous..NOT!!)

After that we walked all the way to Kuta Square and back to Kuta Beach. Did some damages at the shops there but I think my sunhat was worth it (Rp60,000 for 2!)

I didn't go in..but the pinky-ness is soo cute!

my Rp60,000 sunhat modeled by suami and me!

Spot the real monkey plis...

Layan je lah..

Kuta Beach..cranes are from this soon-to-be BIGGEST hotel in Kuta

the boys..

Didn't try his bakso..funny!!

Then we took the wrong junction into our hotel and ended up exploring the streets of Legian..One wrong turn we didn't regret..hehe! Discovered some interesting shops and items..including a mat salleh running butt naked on the streets!!hahah! What an interesting first day in Bali kan?

It's legal there..they even make deliveries to your hotel. I don't do organic nor any sort of 'happy' substances so..sorry, no review :P

Suami purchased a few. I think the guy selling the stickers had more fun reading them to us than we did!haha! Or he was prolly on some mushroom juice..

Wall of stickers..

A wall of graffiti we came across. Apparently there are quite a few of these "Love, Hate, Love" graffiti around Bali.

Like art burst from his belly

Diamond idea!

Our first night there was spent chillaxing at the hotel. We had nasi padang at a shop we discovered on our wrong turn and it was yummy!!

So okay..that's it for day 1. Overdose on pictures already. I'll update on the rest of my trip next!

Welcoming the 30's

2010-10-20T15:42:00.002+08:00

Today has such nice digits - 20-10-2010 so I thought of unveiling this plan that has been cooking up in my head for quite some time now. In fact a sneak peak into the plan has already made an entrance in my previous post.

I'm turning 30 next year..

It's a big milestone for most and I guess me too. I remember when I was entering my 20's I couldn't wait to turn 21 coz it was the legal age to go into clubs (not that my first time to clubs was at that age! :P) So it was not really inspiring to turn 20. But 30..although I may not have enough wisdom, but I think I may have enough maturity.

So here's my "Turning 30" list.

1. Be more active
2. Be more charitable
3. Be more presentable
4. Be more productive
5. Be more knowledgeable

Notice that my list is not specific THINGS to do? Coz I think, it is more important for me to GROW rather than just doing stuffs. Plus I didn't put specific number of things to do coz maybe this would be my -things to achieve in my 30's..I have a mission here..and my mission is to become wiser with style! LOL!

Anyway, here's why I came out with my list..

1. Be more active
I have been such a couch potato these past few years! Nothing! No sort of physical activities! I mean, I used to be such an active person..sports, outings, *clubbing* :P! And I walked everywhere when I was in uni! (Ok..maybe that was bcoz I didn't have any car..) And I was sooooo skinny! (Borderline hot!*perasan*) Now I'm just lazy and fat. And I hate it! So, my first attempt is let's be more active! Already I have a few plans up my sleeve (kan bikjah kan?) I will most definitely blog about my be active activities!

2. Be more charitable
This is very subjective..charity doesn't mean donating money to a shelter or what nots..it could mean anything! But it doesn't mean I won't get involved in charity events. So for this part, charity events I join will definitely be blogged..but charity of the heart, maybe I'll try and share in a more discreet manner. Don't want to come off as being insincere about my charitable gesture now do I? Also, a plan is on its way with this one!

3. Be more presentable
Owhhh! My mom has been nagging me left and right about my appearance and dressing. She feels that I am just letting myself go. I feel so too..I mean, I'm fatter than I used to be, I can't fit into my pre-baby clothes no more (need a new one anyway!I have clothes from when I was in high school!*cue wardrobe makeover!!*) And I hate!hate!hate! to doll myself up! I mean I do dress appropriately for functions or events, but I need a makeover..I'm no longer a twentysomething student-single person..I'm turning 30, a wife, a mother and a professional (ke?!?). I need to look the part..a stylish one at that too! So my experience in my wardrobe options and personal grooming experience I shall share here!

4. Be more productive
NO..not baby making productive! LOL! Tho the idea is not chuck out entirely either!haha! But productive in the sense of achieve more in life..owh! You'll understand what I mean with being more productive when I tag my be productive activities (clue: sewing machine!)

5. Be more knowledgeable
You can have knowledge but you won't necessary have wisdom..but knowledge is still essential to gaining wisdom. There are sooo many things that I have always wanted to learn, do and go..all which knowledge can be achieved. So yeah..put that on the list!

I will try to do as much as I can for these 5 items and we see how I fare on my next birthday (or should we give me a year + 1month - say 20-11-2011?) when I will round up all that I have done & achieved within that period of time? Sounds fair?

I would like to do one of those 365 things within 365days thingy..but I have to be logical here..like I said, I'm a person with 3jobs (Wife,mom,work!) Plus this isn't a race. Its more of a journey with a cause..I don't want to be a drifter anymore. I want to have a purpose in life where I don't lose myself in it, but instead, I find myself and hopefully make me a better person at it too!

So..bring on the 30's!! Hope I'll find more joy and happiness in it too!

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Volunteer at the ZOO!

2010-10-18T10:47:00.000+08:00

Gosh! It's been ages since I went to the zoo. I think the last time I went to Zoo Negara was in 1998. I had a gathering with my TKC friends after our SPM.

So last Saturday, my company organized a volunteer program at Zoo Negara as part of our Environmental Program. You can find out more about the program here --> Zoo Negara Volunteer Program It was definitely tiring..but FUN nonetheless. Since this time I actually got nice photos to share, I'll narrate through the piccas la ok?

Group Assigning

So we started our day bright and early! Assembled at the company at 6.45am and made our way to the Zoo by 7.15am. We had to reach the Zoo by 8.15am. Late comers will be denied to volunteer. Once we were there, we were briefed and asked to get into groups of 10 (there was 73 of us!). Then the supervisors from the various areas of the Zoo picked which group was going where..It kinda felt like a meat market actually!hahaha! They were going like "Haa! Aku nak group ni! Yang ni ramai orang laki" "Takyah berebut! Ramai orang kita boleh pilih harini!" Seriously!

So we went out separate ways..

Going to the Bird Kingdom - all smiles before the work!!

Feeding them swans

Breakfast break - the nasi lemak at the canteen sedap..

Small snake..Thank god I wasn't assigned to the reptiles and amphibians..

Camel in the background..cool eh?

That is my Chairman giving instruction to people to clear out the roof!haha! haiya...out of the office also still giving orders..LOL!

Now you see me sweep & smiling...

But this 'friend' of ours is lurking in the cage..she cried after the pic was taken..apparently the puma was making some pretty scary loud noises..too much for her too handle! :)

This is my group - Mammal Kingdom. We're cleaning out the drain of the Hyena's Habitat. There was 2 Hyenas and them huge!!!

Hahaha!This one my MD, and other dept bosses (and a couple of staffs) kantoi curi tulang watching the show!:P

"You betta clean 'em well! *Roar*"

Happily cleaning the lion's den..literally!!

I like this shot..no narration here..

Haruslah enterframe kan?hahah! Clearing out the Porcupine's Habitat. They are soooooo cute!too bad no piccas when we were feeding em.

Binturong's Habitat..scaryy!!!you can't see them, but those are electric wires installed.

The Reptile Kingdom group


And this is ALL 73 of us after a hard day's work! FUN!

We couldn't take any photo's while we were doing our work but we could assigned one person to become our official photographer. I personally think our photographer had THE MOST tiring job! He officially made more than 3 rounds in the Zoo looking for us all!!heh! and he took nice pictures! So kudos to him! There are plenty more piccas but I'll load em up on FB la.

The day ended at 4.30pm but for most of the group, they were already enjoying the Zoo by after lunch..:P But that's our first 8hrs of volunteer work at the Zoo!

My take on Volunteering at the Zoo?? You should DEFINITELY try it out at least once! Go take your company there or round up a group of friends (group volunteer program needs min 10pax up to a max of 100pax, must be above 16yrs of age) or go as an individual. 40hrs of volunteer work there gets you a certificate or some sort of recognition. But to me..I don't need the certificate..this was my first volunteer work that I've done but it definitely won't be my last! *item for my "Things to do Before 30"*

I've already extended the idea to my TKC friends for this volunteer job..I think I want to ask the rest of my friends to join in the fun too.

So what are you waiting for...go book your date for the volunteer program already!!

October

2010-10-15T10:47:00.003+08:00

Fakta sampah bulan ini:
Usher Raymond is HOTT! HOT! HOTTT!

Semalam tgk video clip lama 'Confessions part II' dan *drool*

*Nak ke Bali dah ni..sabar..sabar..mwahahahahahaha!*

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My Baby has the flu! :(

2010-10-14T15:15:00.005+08:00

You are still a baby, and already I mourn the day you grow too big to cuddle on my lap as your tiny hands relax, your eyes droop and you drift into safe, contented slumber while I sigh at you, delirious with love.

- Jaime Morrison Curtis

Advice #186 - Prudent Advice for My Baby Daughter

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Seminar and keeping busy and REALLY growing up!

2010-10-13T14:07:00.001+08:00

More like Look Like Busy actually! Have I told you guys how much I'm loving my BB yet?? No? Yes? Well..I'm absolutely in love with it!!! Not obsessed yet..but borderline there! Heh!

I'm at a seminar now and we all know how boring and awkward it can get sometimes at seminars. Presentations could get boring and break times awkward (having to make small talks with strangers..not my thing!) So..all the more reason I'm loving my BB!

And today I made a discovery (that I knew existed a long time now but never knew how to use it!)..haha!I can post pics to my twitter via BB!!heheh!

Bosanlah cite BB aku..mesti korang rasa menyampah (anies..no need to rub it in..)

So yeah..as attached, am at a seminar today back in my old alma mater. Terasa sgt nostalgia..I first step foot here in UM 11years ago!! (Wow even for me..didn't think it was THAT long ago!) Spent a good 8years here! (Haha..lama kan nak grad!!) And had loadsa memories. I even bumped into my lecturer who was also my thesis supervisor (which she gave an A fo it!) Who would've thought we would be 'almost' equals..lil 'ol me who took soooooooo long to graduate!haha!

I'm all out for seminar and courses now for a few reasons..
1. I like the break from boring routine from work
2. I like to collect certificates from seminars and courses (good for my cv!)
3. It gives me that feeling I get everytime I go for my classes back in the days. Makes me feel like I'm still a student.

Which leads to the next stage of my life..maybe its time for me to further my studies..through courses and seminar are not enough. Useful but not sufficient..who knows..after this you'll be referring me as Dr. Syahira or Prof. Syahira!hohoho!

Ask me this last year, never in my life would I think I'd agree to it. But my perspective and needs in life has changed. I have changed..without even realizing it..

Wow kan? Terasa mcm grown up..its about time! I'm turning 30 next year! (Which also leads to this resolution I have cooked up! Watch this space!)

So okay..seminar is starting again and my batt is running low (oh no!!)

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Me, my friends and technology!

2010-10-08T16:21:00.001+08:00

So okay, I have become the typical blackberry user. Sms, Email, IMs, twitter, fb, blog..the whole shebang!

A few days ago I put up on my fb status:
"Sometimes when you are too connected with the cyberworld, you get DISCONNECTED with the real world!"

A typical syndrom I've been facing off late. But I think my case is a bit more chronic..I have my bb which notifies me of my bbms, sms, emails, twitter mentions, fb notifications etc etc..at the same time on my pc I have my gtalk (for friends who hasn't gotten sucked into the bb frenzy-don't use the othe IMs coz tah..overload kot!) and sometime I check my fb & twitter too..

Crazy eh? I know..

The crazier thing is, I have some friends who are on my bbm, gtalk, fb and twitter and YES! We are having conversations on ALL those networks AT THE SAME TIME! :P

Funny thing is, altho these conversations are happening simultaneously, we are actually talking about different topics! Haha! Sometimes I lose track of what we were even talking about!

Talk about multi tasking! Multiple conversation with similar people! No wonder I get a bit 'off' at the real world sometimes (pening mengadap screen phone dgn pc!)

So..excuse for being a bit forgetful at times..can't help it..my brain processor dah overload by technology!

Owh! Learnt some new words (and things) these past few days in between the bashing and lashing we were giving to a poor friend of ours who is in the midst of planning to build a 'mosque' (direct translation in malay is required for understanding the whole joke!)

1. Mamihlapinatapai - Yaghan language for a description of "a look shared by 2 people with each wishing that the other will initiate something that they both desire but which neither wants to start"

2. Schadenfreude - German for pleasure derived from the misfortunes of others

3. L'esprit de l'escalier - French for thinking of a clever comeback when it is too late

Thanks peah..for enriching our vocabulary amidst all the frenzy! :)

Its saturday tomorrow and I am working. But somehow I'm feeling high spirited..maybe coz I have a mission! Wish me luck and happy weekend peeps!

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Mind Your Language!

2010-09-23T10:23:00.000+08:00

So okay..harini aku cranky. Maka semua bende adalah annoying!

Benda pertama yang meng'annoy' aku harini adalah status FB hamba allah ni la. Aku tak nak disclose apa dia cakap. Tapi aku tak paham...setahu aku status kat FB takde word limit..ko tulis laa berjela mana pun, tak kene potong..tapi PERLUKAH?

ak = aku
umh = rumah
msuk = masuk
arap = harap
pggl = panggil

Okla..aku kasi can. Mungkin dia penat nak type full word, so everything has to be in short forms..tapi noooooooooooo..boleh pulak words like

jerk = je
ittew = itu
xder per = xde pe

WHAT THE FUCK????

Tah la..aku pun pakai jugak short form ni, tapi masih dalam tahap waras lagi la..

Aku cranky...dan orang2 yang menaip mcm ni buat aku lagi cranky..korang tak rasa pening ke kepala nak figure out what they are trying to say? I've seen a blog that is written as such..terus aku click pangkah kat bahagian atas window tu...

I would understand if you have limited word count like in Twitter..but please...bertempat la penggunaan shortform tu..

Ok..dah..

Kadang-kadang..ke selalu?

2010-09-21T22:41:00.001+08:00

Kadang-kadang rasa kita je yang kisah
Dia buat tak tau..
Kadang-kadang rasa kita je ambil berat
Dia buat hal sendiri..
Kadang-kadang kita rasa penat sangat
Dia macam tak peduli..

Kita selfless..dia selfish..
Money can never compensate what I need..
I want time for myself..
I need space away from anything else

I need compassion..
I need understanding..
I need my sanity..

Or maybe all I need is just sleep?
Undisturbed deep sleep..

Mungkin kita patut jadi seperti dia..
Mungkin bila begitu boleh rasa gembira..

Tapi..boleh ke jadi macam dia?
Kenapa dia tak boleh jadi macam kita?

Susah kan jadi saya?
Masih cemburu dengan hidup saya?
Atau kamu gembira saya derita?

Suka hati lah..
Perasaan sendiri pun tidak dilayan..
Perasaan kamu saya tak peduli..
Pendapat kamu simpan sendiri..
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Good Idea...

2010-09-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

*Taken from 'The Craziest Thing I Did to Save Money' by Ana Gonzalez Ribeiro*

Smoke Less, Travel More

"Many years ago, my husband and I decided to stop smoking. He named the date we would start and sure enough, before we went to bed that night, we tossed our packs of cigarettes. I told him that I was going to put away each day the amount of money we would have spent on the cigarettes. So I made a ritual of every night putting away in a desk drawer $3. Back then, smoking was much cheaper.
"At the end of one year, I had saved almost $1,100. That money paid for a trip to London! I suggested this cessation method to a friend and he was successful in both saving money and eliminating his smoking habit."

****

I have quit a long time ago...but if I was still smoking..I'd take up this idea! It could be a motivation for quitting..kan? Wonder how much saving I would make...mari kira..

DULU..on an average, a pack of 20s would last me 2 days (yeah..that's on a healthy day! :P) so..ok..

365/2 = 182.5 (rounded to 183)
183 x RM9.20 (bapak mahal rokok skarang!!thank god I quit!!) =

RM 1683.60!!!!!

banyak!!!definitely enough for a holiday!!!!! So..what are you waiting for???? Kick the habit and plan your holiday!!!!!!

September 2

2010-09-20T10:35:00.000+08:00

Fakta sampah ke-2 bulan ni:

Bila kawin je bole pakai kasut kodi tapi tak kodi..time lain..cubalah..saya cop awak kodi!

Note:
Fakta sampah banyak berkisar tentang perkahwinan sbb aku dok layan sembang org nak kawin..

*selamat menempuh alam perkahwinan!!*
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September & Hari Raya!

2010-09-14T11:12:00.001+08:00

*sian CKD penat beraya!!haha!*

Fakta sampah bulan ini:

Sambung fakta sampah August "orang tak kawin lagi memang gelojoh"

September says: "orang BARU kawin LAGI gelojoh!!"

Muahahahaha! Ko jangan cakap banyak wahai bakal pengantin baru! Nanti ko join kelab buyung ko taww la!!haha! Kata kene catch up!! Hohohoho!

By the way..SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my friends and readers..tengah plan nak buat open house ni tapi pening! Sebab rumah ai tak muat nak buat satu sesi!! Mati makkkk!!aiyo! Tunggu je la saya hantar invite (kalo jadi nak buat!) Ok ???

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Recipe: Beef Briyani Rice

2010-09-02T15:42:00.002+08:00

So i had a long weekend before Merdeka since the company went for a company trip to China for 5 days. I decided not to follow thinking it was puasa month (it's been 2 years since i could properly fast) plus..5 days is a tad bit too long to leave CKD and suami.

What with the long weekend and all, suami and I decided to entertain some friends to berbuka puasa at our place. As usual, when we entertain..normally we have pot luck la..tak larat aaaa nak cook and clean and at the same time jaga CKD..I can die!

On Saturday I had my cousins over. Our theme was Mexican, Italian foodies. I made Shepard's Pie but that will be in another entry. On Sunday, I had my pals from uni and I told them I was making Beef Briyani. So we coordinated our foodies - I made the rice and chicken curry, Anies brought the Ayam Golek Kerinchi, Azie made Kerabu Apple and Sophie made her delicious Oreo Trifle..memang naik 2 kilo!!!!

So okay..this is how to make my rendition of Beef Briyani. It's healthy coz I don't use any oil nor do it tumis2 anything.

The ingredients:

Beef Ribs cut in small pieces
HUGE Onions cut into wedges
Tomatoes cut into 4
Water
Salt
Beras Basmathi

*optional for aroma
Kulit Kayu Manis
Biji Pelaga
Bunga Lawang

So this is VERY easy..you'd think that making briyani is tough..think again. If you have a slow pot or slow cooker..even easier! It's a bit time consuming so best if you prepare the broth a night before you want to entertain. All you do is put all the onions, tomatoes and beef ribs into the slow pot. Add some water but not too full coz the juices from the ingredients will later add into the broth. How much water u ask?? Depends on how much rice you plan to cook. Go on a 1:1.5 ratio for beras basmathi (1 cup rice to 1 1/2 cup of water) because we will use the broth to cook the rice.

Next, put the slow pot on auto and leave it overnight. And this is what you will find in the morning..But if you don't have a slow pot, don't fret. You can still cook it on the stove at a very low heat and let the broth simmer but not boil until all the bones of the ribs come off the meat. You might need to continuously add water. Not too much tho, else you'll dilute the broth and it loses all those juiciness..

Add some salt to taste..By this time, the bones from the ribs would have fallen off from the meat. Filter the broth from all those delicious meat and onion (your tomatoes will be gone by now!) And remove all the bones. Separate the meat from the onion and tomatoes.

Now to cook the rice..So we use the 1:1.5 ratio ok..

First you rinse the rice of course..Pour the filtered broth into the rice cooker and switch the rice cooker on. Don't worry if you don't have enough broth for the rice. Just add in normal water (as long as there is more broth than water, the taste should be fine!) Wait until the broth comes to a boil then add in the rice and the meat you separated before. Add in the kulit kayu manis, biji pelaga & bunga lawang too.

And leave to cook!

Easy kan?? It went perfect with the my santan-less curry chicken (recipe coming soon!), Ayam Golek Kerinchi and Azie's Kerabu Apple (I think she posted the recipe on her blog before..else I'll ask her for the recipe..)

*OPTIONAL!

You can even have the broth on its own..add in some carrots, celery, potatoes, broccoli (up to your imagination) and serve with plain rice or bread..

Review kene tarukkk!!

"Sha! Kalau tak sedap aku tak tambah nasi ni 2 kali!!" - Sapet

Heheheh! Mungkin open hse raya this year I'll make this again..and suami will make his roast chicken (suami masak sedap!!) and I'll add in acar telur instead of the kerabu apple (or maybe both!) Apa tu acar telur??hahaha!! Will have to wait for when I post the recipe lah!

Selamat mencuba!

*azie pun tambah 2 kali!hehehe! Ynag lain-lain? Saya tak kira!*

Tanda-tanda Stress

2010-08-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

Invited the Jabatan Kesihatan Selangor docs to come and give a talk on Stress Management to my staffs last Tuesday. And this is what I got..

Tanda-Tanda Stres:
1. Ketawa berlebih-lebihan/pura-pura
2. Keras Kepala
3. Mudah marah bila dikritik
4. Daya kreativiti & inovasi berkurang
5. Mengigau
6. Paranoid

So..adakah anda stres??

*banyak lagi tanda2 stres yang dia kasi..but these are the ones I found funny and oh-so-true!*

CKD and music

2010-08-26T14:43:00.000+08:00

This morning I made a discovery with little CKD..she loves music! (maybe all babies does..but I dunno..:P)

She woke up earlier than usual today because her ayah called her up when she was drowsily trying to get back to sleep..Once that sepet eyes of hers are opened..they stay opened!!

Our morning routine would normally start at 4:30am when she wakes up for her feed. Then she stays 'latched' on to me until about 6am (kadang2 sampai masuk mimpi perasaan dia suckling tau!!) By that time, I would put her back into her cot and have a few short minutes before suami wakes up to go to work. Then I would golek-golek while she sleeps before I start getting ready for work at 7:45am..

But I didn't get to golek-golek this morning because she didn't go back to sleep. So I just put her next to me on the bed while I try to get some shut eye (waking up at 4am every morning since she was born..don't judge me if I'm lazy in the morning ok!) But CKD wouldn't sleep..or keep quiet..."Emmphh..emmph..hek..hek.." while kicking and punching..sigh..

So I took my phone and played my playlist..and what do you know!! She kept quiet and still!! She still wouldn't go back to sleep..so my mom came into my room at about 7.30am so I could get ready for work and mom turned on the Opus channel on Astro...and yes..it had the same effect on CKD! Good girl!!!

I remember reading about it..never tried it..but now it's tried and tested with wonderful results! (dunno about her development..but to be able to keep her occupied is wonderful results for me!)

Now I'm sleepy..but at least I learnt a new trick! *grin*

Uh-Oh..my current fav song..I dunno why but this song makes me feel soo sayu and in love..boleh tak??haha! But it's a beautiful song and as I've mentioned..the tesla coils scene was my fave..enjoy!

Counting the Blessings

2010-08-22T00:02:00.001+08:00

I am back in my hometown. It was an emergency situation that had resulted in me and my mom to pack our bags in the middle of the night to come back. I have been back for 2 days now and will be going back tomorrow.

My dear cousin is sick..so sick to the point that I guess it has broken her strong spirit. I'm scared to see her..not because of getting infected,but because of the memory that it might leave me. She is closest to my sister..in fact we are all close to her to the extend that she calls my parents mama & babah and we call hers mak & abah. My mother rushed back home because in her delirium, she thought that my mother had passed on. Even when my mom visited her, she insisted that my mom had come back from the dead to see her..

I can't deal with that...I can't bear to see her like that..

And it made me think..if I was in her shoes..I'd prolly be the same..but difference would be I still have my family to support me and give me the strength I need..if they are still around.

Sadly for my cousin, that is not the case..

On that note..I'm greatful for all the blessings I have..my parents, suami, CKD, my siblings..even my late son..

I wish for my dear cousin to at least find peace should her time to go arrives sooner than later..I love you..

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August

2010-08-19T14:10:00.001+08:00

Fakta sampah bulan ini:
Org tak kawin lagi memang gelojoh!

Hahahaha!

Haip!! Jangan pikir bukan-bukan! Bulan puasa ni!

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Last on for the Decade!

2010-08-19T13:50:00.001+08:00

I turned 29 last Tuesday.

Sorry I didn't update my blog about it. Was busy..playing with my new gadget..

Thank you Suami!! I <3 my Curve White!

The phone vendor siap kasi housing color pink for free since we were such a regular customer!!haha!!

Hehe! Guess the verdict's in for BB vs. iPhone..

So all you BB users you..your pin code for bbm please! (if I haven't added you already..)

As for my birthday celebration? Nothing much..I guess as I get older, it's doesn't really matter. As long as suami, CKD and all the important people in my life are around, well & happy..I'm happy. Serious!

But my FB wall has never been soo flooded with birthday wishes..*blush* I'm deeply flattered..Thank u all!

It's GREAT being 29..bring on the 30's!!!

Before I leave, just to share my birthday sms I got from my nephew last year..I think it's hilarious!

Woman at 20..mengancam
At 30..bermacam macam
At 40..terancam
At 50..diancam
At 60..tak boleh nak cam!

Hahah! I am still MENGANCAM!! Tahun depan mungkin bermacam-macam..I dunno..have to wait and see!:P

7 Hari Mencari Cinta

2010-08-19T11:59:00.000+08:00

This is for you Amad!hahaha! I think it's sweet eventho it has all the aspects of a 'drama swasta'!

So this is what it's all about. My friend here, is looking for this girl he accidentally took a picture of while hanging out with the normal crew at Subang Jaya.

It has become a nationwide search..Friends all joined in the bandwagon through Facebook and blogs. He even set up a blog 7 Hari Mencari Cinta with the hopes of finding her within 7 days. It's been a month now. He had a lead for a while, but it wasn't the one he was looking for. The search apparently is still going on since even strangers are spreading it out. So anyone who knows this girl..let us know!

The guy looking for this girl is a nice guy..I've personally known him long enough to at least say that about him. If she is single, he would like to get to know her better. Kalau jodoh, baguslah. If she is not, its no harm in being just friends! :)

Good luck Amad! May you find the one made for you!! :)

It's Already Bad Fengshui

2010-08-19T10:46:00.001+08:00

I bought this buluh cina plant last year coz I wanted something green on my desk at the office. The chinese believed that if the plant prospers, that means you will have good luck or good fengshui.

So it prospered....

For a year!!! Now the plant is starting to turn yellow and dying! And NO! It's not because I didn't water it!

This is another sign I tell ya! I think I know why my fengshui/luck is turning bad..
1. They moved my table to a different location when the office did some rearranging
2. It's just time..my luck has run out here...

So..how? Anyone want to take me in?

*finish the report laaa!! And I hope I get to state my case to my next potential 'place' before they decide on me..*

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My Ramadhan This Year..

2010-08-12T14:46:00.000+08:00

I don't have any excuses this year to skip fasting..hehe..well..like I'd do it intentionally. What do you think I am? 5yrs old?

So anyway..since the last 2 Ramadhans I was preggers..this year I hope to get all 30 days complete. I truly welcome Ramadhan this year coz it's the first since I was married that I'm not feeling nauseous or gassy!

Day 1 - Nightmare at Pasar Ramadhan

Told my mom no need to cook tonight. My poor dear mother forgot to wake up for sahur so all the more reason I didn't want her to cook for break-fast. When I got home from work, suami was already there. His working hours are from 7.30am-4.00pm, but no change for my work time *frown* So when I got home, changed and went off with suami on his bike to KJ. We want Nasi Kerabu.

I HATE PASAR RAMADHAN!

Too many people! Too many RUDE people! I mean..come on..we're all fasting too ok. You don't have to push and shove..nor should you cut my line when I'm ordering! I was waiting for my turn to order my Nasi Kerabu for more than 20minutes (the pakcik was so sloww too so that added to the stress) and when the pakcik finally took my order, he went and did the person next to me punya order because he thought his wife was doing mine..when in fact, the wife was attending to another person who had the same order as mine!

I had half a mind to curse..my jantung dah berdebar-debar cam nak pecah tahan marah sebab dia layan org yang datang later than me..But..wooosaahhhh...dia pun puasa. I could see he was tired. So I said calmly.."Pakcik..makcik buat order orang lain..yang tu saya punya.."

But I'm sooo sorry la..my face memang tak kaver line langsung..Kelam kabut dia siapkan my order. And nasib baik he gave it to me..coz after that..they ran out of nasi kerabu!

I got discount RM1.50...

See..these are moments when I truly don't like people thinking that I'm chinese! What??You think I don't deserve to be served first just because you thought I was chinese?? Hello! Aku melayu laaaa! Aku puasa jugak tau!

So today..I don't want to go Pasar Ramadhan. Suami can go on his own if he wants to. I'd rather cook than kurangkan my pahala puasa cursing people...

Day 2 - Sleepy nyaaa!!!

Sleepy kan? Is it because I actually woke up for sahur?

My little CKD pun sebok nak sahur! At 5am when the alarm went off, I could hear her restlessness in the cot..sign.."Mama..I want my susu!" So I b/feed her for a bit then went and had my sahur. Suami don't get up for sahur but just has a glass of water.

So dah settle suami & anak..pegila makan. This morning I made sure my mom woke up. But kesian..she tak sempat eat her rice coz it was still cooking when the azan subuh came on..But at least we managed to eat the leftover chicken we had for break-fast the night before. And also had some oats. So okay la...but tomorrow morning we're waking up at 4.30am.

So when I went back to bed, thinking of b/fing CKD again since I'm sure the first feed wasn't enough..hampeh..si kecik tu tido cam kayu! Like father, like daughter! :P But I woke her at 7am and b/f her so that I won't suffer at work with an engorged breasts!

Kat office dah mcm zombie....and it's only 2.30pm right now........tick tock tick tock....

Nak masak apa malam ni? Mmg tak pegi laa pasar ramadhan...

sigh..time to LLB with hopes that the time would fly by..

*eventho I don't like to go to Pasar Ramadhan..the nasi kerabu was worth the wait. Plus..the ayam percik sold next to the stall (who's selling pulut udang too) is sedap. But you might need to microwave the chicken for about a minute or so when you get home..Plus, suami says the Itik Panggang he got was good too..I wouldn't know..I don't eat duck, like I don't eat rabbit meat or veal..*

What Makes You Stay?

2010-08-11T13:57:00.003+08:00

Salam Ramadhan everyone!

On the way to work, was listening in to fly.fm (I have abandoned red.fm..tah..sakit hati with the money they're giving away..I'm always driving when they're doing it so I can't call in!) Jules and Prem came across this article this morning hence the topic was 'if you were leaving your company, how would you do it in style?'

It's was like a sign or something I tell ya!

So yes..that's the big secret..that's the thing that I've been feeling so stressed out lately.

But really..what makes you want to stay at your workplace? I mean..so many people are so unhappy at their workplace..but what do you really want? What will make you happy?? Most people would leave after a couple of years (some can't even last a month) but there are some who stays for decades or til they retire..But before I go any further..whatever I say here are merely ideas in my head ok? It's not associated with anyone living or dead!

So ok..my 2 cents worth. I think, with the experiences that I've had..top of the list..

1. Your boss
To me, working for someone who looks out for you, guides you but at the same time gives you the freedom to do your thing is definitely a plus point. Rewarding you when you get it right (in kinds or words) and guides you when you get it wrong (but not condemning). Fair but firm, recognizes your potential and acknowledges it. Wahh..sound like working for god!! But yeah..I'd give this person my fullest effort.

2. Your collegues
I've had the best collegues in the world, worked alone and had an impossible group to work with..Collegues play a role to help your worklife be more pleasant. I mean, work is still work..but working with people who are on the same wave lenght as you definitely makes it better. More ideas comes in, and its makes you more bersemangat to do your job. When you work with people of totally different level..so susah want to get things across and sooo susah want to plan & execute! I mean, we can never get away with working with people of different level (mentality especially)..but at least if your team all satu kepala..got chemistry..wouldn't work be bliss?

3. Your opportunity for growth and actually growing there!
Now this is probably what would make you stay longer. And this can happen from two sources..the organization of the company, and the person who determines your growth (your boss la!) If you work for a company which has an amazing organizational path but a boss who'll only supress your potential..so lah tak jadi! But if you have a boss who lets you grow as much as you can but company no organization also cannot jadi you know! But janji janji want to let you grow but never give also tak jadi!

4. Your benefits
Ya laa..gaji must kira also! But what I mean by benefits..your working hours, your leave, *public holidays*, insurance coverage and so on and so forth. This is typical laaa. I'm sure we all want similar benefits aye?

5. Company Organization
No organization, the company would probably run like a mad house! I don't want to work in a mad house..mad people I can tolerate..mad house..sigh..

6. Your Job Scope
I am all for being jack of all trade..But sometimes when jack has too many trades..jack can die ok? I think if jack can be a master of one but once in a while testing water in other trades, jack can be very happy and more productive & effective..

That's all I can think of.. I don't want to get myself into trouble for saying more. So..what makes YOU stay?

Can't plan leaving with style if plan to leave also cannot!! How then??

* i think i stayed in Uni very long because i wanted to avoid all this....*
*don't want to but have to but one day will do!*

Dating Lagi..Review: The Last Airbender & The Sorcerer's Apprentice

2010-08-10T15:51:00.000+08:00

So okay..the past few weeks..both suami and I have been feeling really stressed out. And being new parents, it's harder for us to have some quality time together. So he decided last Saturday to take me out for a movie marathon and leave lil CKD at his parents house. The arrangement was perfect (then) since my in-laws haven't seen CKD for a while.

Suami bought the tickets in advance on Thursday and was so excited..The Last Airbender (3D) and The Sorcerer's Apprentice (although he was so sure he bought Salt instead of Sorcerer's Apprentice). I was okay with anything since it has been a while since we went to the movies together..

So Friday night, we went over his parents place for a sleepover cause suami said it's going to be too much of a hassle dropping off CKD Saturday morning then rushing off to the movies since the first movie was at 11.45am.

Come Saturday morning, got CKD ready, played a bit with her and briefed MIL's help on CKDs habits and antics. Then we were off to the movies. We arrived at The Gardens at about 11am so had some time to get some food. Suami ordered some thai kuey teow at the Food Garden which was actually quite yummy.

So okay...First movie was

The Last Airbender

Both suami and I love the animated version of the story. When I first heard that M.Night Shyamalan was directing the movie, I was quite skeptic and almost convinced that he was not going to do justice to the movie following his last movie that we saw - The Happenning - which was more like The Pening. But we saw the making of The Last Airbender on channel E and thought..it looked pretty interesting.

And yes it was..Although I think it was a waste to watch it in 3D, the movie was nice. It followed as close as it could to the animated version and am happy that the casts did the steps nicely. To me the fighting scenes were not epic enough, but since this is just the beginning (Book 1: Water) of the saga, I should expect the following 2 movies (Book 2: Earth & Book 3: Fire) to get better. They've got the characters, concept and special FX right..they're on the right track.

I recommend it..I give it 3.5/5

Next was The Sorcerer's Apprentice

Very the Harry Potter - young adults version. Typical, predictable but still fun. It didn't wowed me, neither did it make me fall asleep. But what I did like was when he played the One Republic song Secrets with his Tesla Coils..Now the song is stuck in my head. But it's a nice song..so I don't mind.

Really, I don't have much to say about this movie, but if you're looking for something to just de-stress..this is a decent choice.

I give it 3/5

By the time the second movie ended, suami was eager to get home..Mcm dia pulak yang nak kene feed CKD!hahah! But yeah..we appreciate the few hours off for ourselves, but we still missed our baby girl tremendously.

So when we got home, my SIL was telling us how CKD caused havoc in the house! *grin* She has a temper now. My mother is already an expert of her moods, so she doesn't really panic when CKD screams her lungs out..she knows that CKD is either hungry, sleepy or needs to be changed.

But my in-laws are not privileged enough to have CKD around them to know her moods..so when CKD started screaming..my MIL panicked, my FIL went to his room and slept, my SIL panicked too...*LOL* my MIL's help found it funny because when she was trying to soothe CKD, my MIL was so stressed and kept on asking "Keisha ok kaa?Cucu mak tok ni ok kaa?" over and over again to CKD..hehe..

All CKD wanted was just sleep..no doubt she would've preferred for me to B/feed her to sleep, but just lull her to sleep and dodoi her sambil menari would've done the trick..hehe..So when I got home, CKD was so happy to see me, the rest of the household said "Laaaaa! dengan mak dia ok je mcm takde pape jadi.."

Mestilah..dah mak dia..*wink*

Clever girl...

:P..So it was a win situation for me and suami, but I'm not so sure if my in-laws thought it a win or lose situation for having to babysit CKD..*grin*

*peah..berani tak nak babysit keisha?????*

God said "NO"

2010-07-27T10:41:00.000+08:00

Something I took from my cousin's notes to share with all of you

***

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away
but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings;
Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from
worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things
that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life,
so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh,
finally you have the idea.

And from my stepmum+friends:-

God doesn't give you the people you want; He gives you the people you NEED... to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.

Bila Jiwa Kacau dan Dipukul Keliling..

2010-07-15T13:59:00.000+08:00

I am going through one of my most trying moments in my life right now. I'm tired and feeling a little hopeless. It's like being kicked when I'm already down..but I know I will get through this..and when I do..I know I will become stronger than I was and hopefully become the better and bigger person..

I'm sad..I'm stressed..I feel like I'm stuck in here with nowhere else to go. But I know what I must do..at least I must try it. I will smile and brave it all..either on my own or with a hand to hold..But please give me time..to gather all my courage and strength because now..I'm tired of trying to be strong..I'm tired of making them understand that I'm hurt..I'm tired of trying to make them understand me..

Maybe they will never understand..maybe nothing will ever change..I can't change anyone. The change must come from me..

I will change. Please know that if one day you realize that I am different from the person you knew before..I am different because of you..You changed me..you make me become this 'new' person. Good or bad? I don't know and I don't want your judgement..I have done what I have to do.

But I know I don't want to become like you..I will never stoop as low as that. I still have my principles. and I have always..ALWAYS believed in karma. I don't wish for bad things for you..but rather..I wish for good things for myself.

Good things comes to those who wait. So I will wait..in my pain and sadness..I will wait.

Copied from Jerung who copied from http://arieantara.posterous.com/disaat

•Ingatlah pada pepatah,

"Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

•Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif

•Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun, begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas

•Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..

Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi

Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki

Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan

Apalagi yang mau disombongkan

•Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani

•Jangan terlalu perhitungan

•Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri

•Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita

•Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih

•Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah

•Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa

•Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan

•Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan

•Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.

*God, please give me the ability to love, forgive and understand..amin..*

My little girl..the sleepy diva

2010-07-08T17:08:00.001+08:00

Sleeping in a stranger's arm during Mya's aqiqah..Bak kata aunty Sophie.."Primadonna"

Pics courtesy of Aunty Sophie yang nak bagi Keisha hanger!hahah!

SATC 2 with the Gurls..

2010-07-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

It was sooooo over the top! The clothes..the shoes..the places (NYC and Abu Dhabi doo!)..the guys (Lawrence of my Labia!!hahahahah!!) and even the butlers(Paula Abdul?! LOL)! Perfect movie for me and my TKC gurls..

Thanks to Sausan's status on FB for an open invitation to watch SATC 2 and my bold action to actually comment saying that I'm in..a few days later last night..SATC2 it was! (oh my..have I come to this?commenting on someone's FB status considered bold???sigh..) Together with Nenn, Syimi and Pie..we went to create mayhem at GSC One Utama! (so drama..expect nothing less from watching SATC ok..)

I promised myself I wouldn't get sucked into the SATC frenzy..but being with the girls..it felt like our film show nights back in high school which we used to have. We literally made the cinema hall like it was our school hall! The laughing, the "OH MY GOD!!"..so nice...

So ok..now back to the story..

It's your typical every girls' fantasy story..the clothes, the shoes, the glamor and most of all the girlfriends! But the storyline was pretty cool and kinda strike home for me. The dilemma that Charlotte was going through (minus the nanny) is exactly what I'm feeling right now and the solution she found with the girls made me felt ok to have some 'me time' and not feel guilty that someone else is handling my baby girl.

It's funny, it's sad..take out the glamor of the characters..it felt like it was telling the story of my life right now. If only I had the same clothes and shoes that Carrie has!

How many times have I repeated them?? Clothes and Shoes?????? All I can say..it's the PERFECT movie to watch with your girlfriends...the guys won't understand..Plus they had the Australian Rugby team taking a dip in the pool!!hohohoho..cameraman focus BAEKKK punya!hhahahaha!

I had fun..now I'm feeling a bit more like myself again....Thank you babes!!I know your next movie is the Twilight Saga: Eclipse..I'd have to pass on that one (refer previous entry)..but the next chick flick that strikes me..I'm in!

*If only suami would take me to Usher's concert tonight..sigh..he's no Mr. Big..but he's still my suami*

Jangan Marah aaa!

2010-07-01T16:35:00.001+08:00

Although I must admit that both Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson are truly hot..I have to say that the Twilight Saga is a sorry excuse of a vampire movie..the hype is over-rated..much like the fans of Siti Nurhaliza or Manchester United. I mean..Dato' Siti Nurhaliza is indeed talented and Manchester United was probably a great football team (kot..not a footie fan..) but the fans are sooo obsessed with them causing some to feel annoyed and somewhat disgusted (very strong choice of word here..) and sometimes unnecessary hate towards them.

Pic taken from Yahoo!Buzz Log

Sorry aa..Jangan marah...

I mean, I am quite a fan of vampire movies and there has been some truly great movies about vampires like the classic Interview with the Vampire, The Underworld saga, heck even Blade is good. But Twilight??? Alahai..I didn't see what the fuss was all about in the first Twilight saga movie so I just gave up wanting to watch the second one. The third one? Entahla...kalau TERtengok..aku tengok je la.

But one thing I strongly feel..Kristen Stewart is just plain annoying both on AND off the silver screen. Apa dia ingat dia hebat sangat ke? What's with the defensive mode attitude? Bajet cam gothic habis la?? Sorry to say babe..but compared to you, I think Kelly Osbourne is wayy cooler..:P

*angan2 fantasy tak masuk akal..lagi bagus si Robert Pattinson jadik bf aku dr si Kristen tu!hahahahah!*

June

2010-06-25T13:42:00.001+08:00

Sempena nak launch label terbaru dalam belog aku..

Fakta takde arah tujuan:
Bulan June secara purata adalah bulan yang aku mula meriah taruk entry..

Sekian untuk perasmian label 'Sampah'

*inspired by rawkstar's 'Garbage' entry..*

Nyonya Jual Kangkung

2010-06-25T11:37:00.000+08:00

I just couldn't resist..This is Aliesa my niece..macam nyonya jual kangkung!!!

That's what they used to call me in primary school..

*I wonder if Keisha will be nyonya jugak ke tak...*

Nyonya pun nyonya laa Icha kan? Janji chomel tetap maintain!!

Meh Ashu cium sikit! *mwwaaahhhsss*

*ini adalah entry mengundang untuk diri dikutuk..belasah!*

Kami Berdating

2010-06-25T10:55:00.000+08:00

Semalam kan birthday suami..maka suami ajak pegi dating tengok wayang. Initially we wanted to go eat someplace nice and bring Keisha along. But the night before, suami 'tapau' some Fatty Crab for dinner and somehow that didn't agree with both our stomach. So suami feels it's not worth to go eat some place nice on a lousy tummy..

So we went out for a movie date, just the two of us.

Suami booked the 9:30pm Knight & Day movie at GSC Tropicana Mall so we had enough time to go home and play with Keisha for a bit before the movie. Left home at about 8pm since we still needed to pick up the tickets and have dinner. By that time Keisha was already satisfied and contently sleeping (dah dapat habuan dari mama dia...mane tak nye!)

We managed to make quite good time to Tropicana Mall so we browsed around for a bit. While waiting for suami to get the tickets, I was looking at the gps navigation gadgets aimlessly. But I guess it was a good day for the salesperson. I ended up buying the Papago Wayway Q4331i GPS Navigation set for suami. It was what he wanted for his birthday anyway..So..happy birthday sayang!!

Tolong jangan mohon review sbb aku tak pernah pakai lagi bende ni. But it looks more user friendly than Garmin and has better graphics - it has 3D imaging and siap ada option untuk route yang tak lalu tol! (peah, pasni mesti Papago ni boleh guide aku terus ke ikan bakar Jalan Bellamy tanpa buat aku sesat tau! It shows the exact junction to take. Lenkali tayah amik aku kat Tupai Tupai dah..:P)Semalam tak sempat nak test coz we didn't get it fixed to the sattelite feed. But the thing I like most about the navigator is the name..Papago Way Way!! sounds like a kid talking..:P

So aaaanyway..we didn't really have enough time after that to see what we wanted to have for dinner (plus i have always thought that Tropicana Mall's choice for eating is quite disappointing..lainla Empire Subang..) So we just bought some 1901 hot dogs and pop corn and makan near the bonsai trees exhibition (oh yeah..there was a Bonsai tree exhibition/competition thingy going on that time..bonsai trees are amazing i tell ya..it just takes my imagination to another level!:P)

While waiting for the cinema hall to open, suami started to comment of the fashion sense of some people around us..My suami comments/gossip about people worse than I do I tell you!! I think working in the fashion industry for his sister a few years back prolly left some scar on him..sigh..

Then it was movie time!! If you haven't watched Knight & Day, please go..It's funny although I think Tom Cruise prolly shouldn't do anymore movies that reveals his bod..I mean, he does look great as compared to other men his age, but..age is catching up with him..But the dialogues are funny..

Oh..komen luar topik..IP Man 3 dah keluar..boleh takkk??? Bukan baru je ke IP Man 2 keluar?

Although it was a nice welcome to go out for a date with suami, we both missed Keisha tremendously. So suami said, next time bring Keisha along..Keisha mana boleh tengok wayang lagi sayang........tengok mobile in her cot pun baru je lepas..Don't let her grow up so fast..I'm not done 'gomol'ing her yet.

*Nak tgk SATC2 tapi perasaan mcm tak berbaloi tgk di wayang...tgk kat rumah pun layan kot..*

31

2010-06-24T14:01:00.002+08:00

How convenient that I'm feeling so down on his birthday..

Happy Birthday my baby daddy...I love you

Post-partum

2010-06-24T13:20:00.001+08:00

Ok..it's lunchtime. I'm back at work now and like Peah says..I have to hit the ground running! After over 2 months of maternity leave, the amount of work waiting is mountaineous (is there such a word?)!!

Anyway..am not here to talk about work...That little voice in my head is nagging again! (am I going nuts??)

Whoever said that motherhood is bliss must be either filthy rich (to be able to afford all the help she needs) or is superwoman (to be able to have all that energy to do it by herself)!! Call it post-partum depression or just plain exhaustion..but I sure don't see the bliss in any of it!

From the day that I went into labor up until today, I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep..In between the feeding that the baby needs and the breast engorgement that just keeps you awake until you express the milk, I'm surprised I can still go to work or even function. I am not being ungrateful or anything..if anything I am considered the lucky few for being blessed with such a good baby. Keisha sleeps through the night most of the time and my mom is the world most amazing mother EVER for helping me raise Keisha! But I'm just saying..I can't do this motherhood thing alone..

It's not that I've never had any respect for mothers out there, but to actually be wearing the shoes of a mother right now...I have a new found respect for those who has more than one child and working at the same time..How do you do it? Where do you get all the strength to do it all?? The sleepless nights..the aching body..the workload..the cleaning and cooking..Masya Allah!!

I cried through most of the days when I was in confinement..It began when I was learning to breastfeed Keisha. A painful and VERY trying experience..Then when she had jaundice..the crying got worse..on top of the pain I was going through (post labor pain, sore breasts & nipples, lack of sleep) seeing Keisha under the UV light was not helping either..my heart just ached seeing her like that. I was also having a hard time feeding her because if she is not fully satiated, she won't settle under the UV light and if she doesn't get 'UVed' her jaundice won't reduce. There was a time that it took me 2 hours to feed her and yet she was STILL not satisfied! I had to call the nurse for help and I was crying my eyes out from the pain and exhaustion..

Keisha under the UV light.

She might look like she's in a cute position, but it was heartbreaking seeing her that way.

Keisha was hospitalized for jaundice for 5 days......it was also 5 days of tears for me...

Then when she finally got discharged, we couldn't go home. The house was still under renovations (which took 2 months to complete instead of 1 month as promised by the contractor) so we had to stay at my in laws for a bit..That led to more 'trying' moments for me..I didn't feel settled being in someone else's home and all. So my mom and I decided to bring Keisha and I back to Kuantan.

Kuantan was a welcoming comfort to me because I felt like I was home..but it also meant that I had to be away from suami..We stayed in Kuantan for 2 weeks that decided to just brave the house with constructions and all...By then the contractors only needed to fix in the kitchen cabinets and change the doors in the house. It was still dusty and noisy, but I didn't care. I've had enough of staying at someone else's house. That too took 2 more weeks to complete..

Blissful motherhood for me eh?

But it is getting easier..Now that the house is up and running, being home, getting much more comfortable and better in b/feeding Keisha..It's not so bad..

But I am still tired. So tired that I start to have all these stupid and ridiculous thoughts in my head. Now that my maternity leave is over, sleep or no sleep..I still have get to work in the morning. One comfort knowing that Keisha is in safe hands with my mother at home, but am also concerned that my mom is all alone at home. She's not as young as she used to be..

So do I like being a mother or not?

It has its perks..Keisha can see now so she responses to our calls, her gibberish words and smile, even her cries is really heartwarming..it almost wipes out all the pain and ache I'm going through by just looking at her.

But reality is still there..my daughter has TOTALLY changed my life in EVERY aspect. Everything that I used to do, or the life that I used to have is now obsolete. She has taken over everything...and taken me back to square one..Building a new life is not easy.

Therefore I don't have an answer to my question..for now.

But that's what my life is all about for now. Everyone says it gets easier..I'm sure it does..but for now, I kinda feel like I'm at the bottom of the wheel...

When They Just Won't Shut Up..

2010-06-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

1:15am, 23^rd June 2010

It’s so late already and I should be in bed because I am working in the morning. But Keisha just had her first colic tantrum a while ago and ever since I’ve been able to soothe her (more effort from my mom actually) and finally put her to bed..I can’t sleep. I suddenly have all these words and things in my head that I just HAVE to write down.

You see, I personally think that I kinda suck at blogging. I mean, if I try to be informative, I tend to lack information and research (sbb malas nak research la kan obviously!)..If I feel like sharing something and promising I would update about it in my future post, I don’t..and my visual help tends to be slacking too coz I feel that it takes up too much effort to take pictures of things/people/places/activities that I want to blog about let alone uploading it (BAPAKla pemalas nya aku ni!) And on top of that, I have limited access to the internet since we cancelled out our streamyx account last year (because we weren’t fully utilizing it and more of misusing it. Suami and I got too addicted to FB games that we were actually talking to each other through IM at home..when we’re both sitting right in front of each other!!! We overcame that problem by going to Starbucks or Coffee Bean and started IMing each other there instead! Like that made any difference! LOL! Funny story, really. Will blog about it later – just don’t hold your breath about it!:P) I guess that’s why I only seem to have 16 followers on my blog!!haha! But I’m not aiming in becoming blogger of the year either.

I began to blog as just a way to vent out my feelings and fill in time as I used to do in my old blog. I used to keep a personal journal (yes..like a diary! Handwritten and all!!) I had stuffs written in there that I swear I feel embarrassed now for feeling so strongly about whatever I thought was such a crisis that it felt like the end of the world or of exes I could swear I would love forever (which forever obviously turned out to be quite short). But that was a way for me to think from outside of the box other than to vent and rant devil words that I don’t feel suitable to share with anyone at the exact time I was feeling it. I poured in a lot of effort too coz I had all these artwork I took from magazines and sometimes my not-so-artsy work makes a debut in it too. I felt (emphasize on I) that it was quite interesting with all those pictures and scribbles and crap I put in it. But that too became too much effort and time consuming.

So later, I was introduced to the blogosphere by Friendster (how long haven’t we heard that network engine!) and started blogging which was done at almost similar time (feeling strong emotions about anything which turned out to be nothing) and also when I was in between classes. But when on the blog, I have to restrict some opinions/emotions/information at the risk of some people I don’t want to know those specific stuffs reading it. Yes you can control the privacy of the blog, I was (and maybe still am) an attention whore (sikit2..:P) and wanted my feelings to be known at a more wider circle. If I were to keep the blog private, I could miss out on certain people I secretly wish would read my blog :P. I tried keeping it private a while back actually, but that got hack into by the EXACT person I DIDN’T want to read the blog, so I don’t see the point of privatising my blog. It is now open for all to read.

But I feel flattered and pleasantly surprised when I find out that some of the people who are the silent readers on my blog. They never comment on my posts nor do they openly follow me on my blog but these are my friends who I don’t have the luxury of seeing them all the time like I used to (the ones I always see now pun I don’t see them as often as I would like) and when we do talk, they mention that they keep tab of what is happening to me through my blog. So I guess I must be doing SOMETHING right here since it seems to fit SOME purpose..(quick shoutout to you silent readers whom I personally know! Hope you guys are doing fine and I sincerely and truly wish we could catch up on more personal level than this! Take care ok!)

And I also know that there are also some silent readers, whom I personally know too but are not on such friendly terms with me (anymore..) just hoping and wishing that I’m having a crappy life and are happy about it (or as the latest bahan gossip). You know what, I don’t care that you like it when my life sucks or that I go through shit (sometimes)..I also don’t care that you have nothing better to do than to read up on me just so you could satisfy your sick emotion towards me. Honestly, I should actually feel flattered that you actually put in an effort to even come here in the first place! Thank you for increasing the traffic in my blog..might as well make yourself useful and click on the nuffnang add while you’re at it!

So okay..I have typed in 40min of pointless rambling when I should be sleeping..Now I hope my inner voice is satisfied (yes.I have a VERY LOUD inner voice that contributes to most of the crap that I write here) and finally let me have some sleep.

Good night people..(tho I might be posting this in the morning when I get to the office since I did this draft as a Word document coz I don’t have any internet connection at home..mcm loser sgt kan??) So the right thing to say now is Good Morning people! Have a nice day!

*it is now 1.57am, 23^rd June 2010 as I end this entry*

Majlis Aqiqah and Cukur Jambul

2010-06-22T14:43:00.002+08:00

So as promised...

We had Keisha's Majlis Aqiqah and Cukur Jambul on the 6th June 2010. It was a big affair..we had A LOT of guests if counting the grandparents' guests and also ours. Thank you to those who made it (although I think it was more of them thanking us for the food!hahah!) but thank you nonetheless for making the occasion a great one (and for giving me the chance to talk to other ppl other than the ones I'm living with!)

Our family.

Keisha pre-shaved head

I think we had over 200people that came. We started at 11am where the ahli-ahli masjid came and began the Marhaban. We were only expecting 12 people to do the marhaban..but the living room held more than that. Apparently all of my FIL's friends from the mosque and the neighbourhood wanted to join in the occasion. So alhamdulillah..the more the merrier right? Besides, it was an occasion to praise the prophet and to wish for good things for the celebrated child..It was indeed a merry occasion..

We had friends, family, neighbours who all came and wished our daughter well as they were cutting strands of Keisha's hair (cukur jambul). Suami and I decided to shave off all of Keisha's hair that day as as believed in Islam, it is best to shave it all off because it is hair that grew during the gestation period and considered dirty. So shave it all off so that new and clean hair can grow.

Plus it is also a good practice to weight the shaved hair and donate to the poor the value of gold with the same weight of the shaved hair. Meaning, say the hair weighs about 100g and it costs about RM100 for a 100g of gold..so we donate RM100 to the poor. But there is also another practice that the father buys the same weight of gold and gift it to the mother as a gesture of thanks for giving birth to the child. Whichever you choose to practice, it doesn't really matter as this is not a must, merely sunat or an optional practice. Which one did we choose??hehehehe..what do you think?? We didn't really weigh Keisha's hair because as we were shaving it, it went all over the house...so suami is just going to estimate the weigh..doubt it even weighs 100g..:P

Another thing that we did for this majlis was slaughtered a goat as an offering to others. It is a practice of the Prophet Muhammad S.A.W as if to give thanks to Allah and to ask for good wishes for the child. Also to announce to everyone the arrival of the new member of our family. This is what is meant by Aqiqah. If you have a baby girl, slaughter ONE goat but if it's a boy, slaughter TWO goats. It is best if the goat is slaughtered by the father so suami actually slaughtered the goat himself. He said as he was slaughtering the goat, he recited a little doa for our daughter wishing that she will grow up to be anak yang solehah. It was done the day before the majlis and suami said the knife used to slaughter the goat was so sharp, he felt as if he was cutting through air when he was slaughtering it. Only downside of aqiqah is that, the meat of the slaughtered animal can only be eaten or donated to muslims. Non-muslim are not allowed to eat them..why you may ask? I shall have to refer to someone more knowledgeable to explain.

So we had one slaughtered goat to feast and sedekah to our saudara islam. But since my FIL invited so many people, he also bought another goat for the caterer to serve our guests that day...

Keisha post-shaved head with future gossip buddy Baby Mya and mama's gossip buddy Mummy Nariko of I Dreamt of a White Wedding ! Baby Mya is one week older than Keisha but will only be having her Aqiqah and cukur jambul on the 3rd of July. Mummy Nariko will have far better tips for organizing Majlis Aqiqah than I do..:P

Sorry if my post is a bit mundane and not very informative.. I am on MC today after one day back to work (I started my first day of work yesterday). Something bit my hand and caused an allergic reaction til both the palm of my hands are swollen. A trip to the doctors and an injection to the backside, I am feeling a bit better. But am also down with a swollen tonsil..I think it's the weather. Everyone seems to be falling sick lately. Thank god Keisha is well and happy...even with a shaved head!!:D

*wink*

Everyone..Please Meet Che Keisha Damia

2010-06-02T12:22:00.000+08:00

Hi! My name is Che Keisha Damia...

Yes..finally I can go online but only for a little while. I am at Pantai Hospital right now..just went for my post-natal check up and it's about the only time I get to get away for a while. But I have to rush back home now because my mom is home alone with Keisha and the contractors are coming in for the final touch-ups in the house! (yes!!the renovations are still not complete!!!!!)

I have updated my blog twice via my phone..and TWICE it didn't get uploaded!! Frustrating I tell ya..But suami promised to re-install the internet connection sooon so insya allah I will be able to be a more committed blogger after this!

She is growing like a beautiful flower..And YES..I am obsessed with my daughter! Last night was the first time I let her sleep with my mom coz I needed the sleep to wake up early today..and what do you know...I couldn't sleep coz I missed her!!

Will be having her aqiqah and cukur jambul this weekend..Promise I will AT LEAST blog about that (with pictures..) I have taken my daughter to Kuantan, KL and all around..but I have never taken her out and about.. Don't understand what I mean??heheh..you will..

As expected for every new parents..they are obsessed about their child and talks of nothing else. But I do have something else to talk about. Again..I will only be able to do so in due time (hopefully BEFORE I lose the feel of the subject!!)

Keisha is definitely my daughter..why?? Well a picture tells a thousand words (did I get that right??)

Little Superstar??

Til next time guys!

The Tigress Has Arrived

2010-05-05T20:47:00.002+08:00

She has taken over my life..mainly my sleep!

It has been a little over 2 weeks since i was blessed with my pride and joy..Che Keisha Damia..sorry i can't attach her picture here coz am blogging using my phone and i don't know how to attach pix using this..

She was born at 3.12kg at 4.10pm, 19th April 2010..as you know from my previous entry, how i went into labor. Well, the continuation from that incident i shall now share with you.

I spent the entire night with just minor contractions with not much pain the night before. The only thing causing the experience a tad bit uncomfortable was i was strapped to the CTG machine the whole time. therefore i couldn't get up to walk off the contractions.

I made 1cm progress when the doctor checked on me at 9am in the morning..4cm dilated..so he broke my waterbag and put me on the drip to help hasten my dilation..

And the pain began....

I didn't take any pain killers and it took almost forever for me to progress from 4cm to 5cm..at 2pm i was only 5cm dilated..but the pain was sooo intensive i submitted to 'the gas mask'. They offered to give me more painkillers or an epidural..but i don't know why i refused the offer..

At 3pm i made good progress..7cm dilated. Doctor said.."insya allah lepas asar boleh la bersalin" and went out for a while..but in less than 15mins i was already feelong like i wanted to pass motion and begged suami to call the nurse. By this time the pain was so intensed and the nurse checked i was already 8cm dilated and started all the prep work for labor.

Suami whispered to me while holding my hands.."i promise lepas ni kita rest a few years before we try for another baby k? I tak sanggup tgk you sakit macam ni.."

At the same moment the nurse kept checking on me and coached me to breathe in the gas everytime the contractions came coz if i fought the pain, it would delay the contractions. Within a few minutes i was 9cm dilated and the nurse told me to hold it in. "Don't push until the doctor get here!"

Thank god the doctor finally got in within a few minutes..heard later on that he rushed to the labor room coz i was in labor earlier than he anticipated! :p

Once he arrived, i had 3 nurses assisting the doc and suami by my side. By this time i was in excruciating pain, i can't tell who was saying what but only them telling me.."kalau rasa nak berak..TERANN!!"

And TERAN I did!!!

suami said it took me 8pushes and the baby was out..and everytime i pushed the nurses and the doctor said "sikit lagi!!sikit lagi!!" Yeah right!!!hahaha..

Che Keisha Damia is beautiful! (i will post up pictures of her once i can use the laptop..for now her pics are on FB..yes..suami took a pic of me and keisha moments after she was born and you can see my legs still strapped on to the bed! :p)

Immediately after Keisha was born i held her in my arms and she had her eyes wide open and just gave me one small cry before they took her outside for a while to cut her umbilical cord and cleaned her up.

But when they took her outside, she screamed SO loud..she's definitely my little girl! :p

Suami iqamat into her ears immediately after they cleaned her and then returned her to me. And all the while, the doctor was stitching me up!! Honestly..the contractions were WAYYYY more painful then the stitching up..and i was not on ANY FORM of anaesthetics! :p

So that's birth labor for you! Insya allah the next time i update i'll be able to post up her pics and update on the first 2 weeks of Che Keisha Damia's life....

On that note..motherhood is both depriving and rewarding all at the same time ppl!! The term 'Syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu' is something we should ALL remember...

Til later..i need to catch some sleep now before she wakes!

I Am In LABOR!

2010-04-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

Seriously..I AM...

It is now 11.35pm on a sunday night. I am currently blogging using my much reliable phone on my labor bed. I am strapped to the CTG machine, to monitor my contractions and baby's heartbeat. The doctor just left a few minutes ago saying that I am now 3cm dilated. He's saying lets wait for things to take it normal course through the night. But if my contractions still doesn't get any stronger, he might induce me in the morning to make things go a bit faster..

Which means..insya allah by tomorrow i will be a mommy!

You must be wondering how in the world can i even THINK of updating my blog when I am in labor!! It is because, alhamdulillah, for now my contractions are not painful..YET! And i am bored..the nurse told me to try get some sleep coz who knows..the contractions might get more intense in a couple of hours that will prolly rob me of my comfort. But i can't sleep..hearing my baby's heartbeat on the CTG machine is making me too excited to sleep. So i blog...

Suami is in the waiting room..watching tv i guess coz it's not really comfortable for him to sit here in the labor room with me. He's too excited to stay put too so i sent him off to let off some steam..it might an eventful night for us tonight.

My contractions started this morning. I woke up having this really intense back ache together with a contraction. Then it was just the contractions throughout the morning without any pain. My FIL prolly has really strong instinct..he knows that i was having contractions every half an hour (give or take laa) and told suami to take me to the hospital there n then..but neither suami nor i wanted to go yet coz contractions was too far apart. Plus suami wanted to finish polishing the car..(boleh tak??)

So after suami was done polishing..we took a nap..at about 3pm i tried to monitor the contractions and it was about 25mins apart..give or take..monitored for about 2 hrs then felt a bit funny coz the baby was moving too much than normal. I remembered the doctor advising us if the baby moves too much or too little, get to the hospital..

By this time, suami was upstairs on the computer. I quickly showered and pestered suami to get ready. Tried to do things under the radar coz i didnt want my MIL to worry or panic. she doesn't take emergency situations too well..

So we got to the hospital at about 5.30pm. Thank god it was a sunday so there was not much if traffic..can you imagine if it was a working day??? Getting from gombak to bangsar would've been hell at that time of day! could tell that suami panicked a bit throughout the journey..honestly..i was on the verge of tears already coz the baby's movement wasn't 'normal' at home..

But just as we reached the hospital, baby gave me a kick and it's normal movements..i relaxed a bit.. Suami checked me in and the nurse strapped me on the CTG machine.. Alhamdulillah baby's heart was beating just fine.. And i was already 2cm dilated..

Guess FIL and my mom's instincts was really strong (my mom tried to call me at 3pm coz she 'tak sedap hati')..-moral of the story..trust your parents' instincts!!!!

So here i am a 5 hours since i checked inand has made 1cm progress..insya allah it will go quite fast (i hope!!) since this will be my second delivery.. i hope everything will go well for both baby and i..amin..

So that's it from the labor room! Insya allah next entry will be when the baby arrives!

Will keep you guys posted! Wish me and the baby well everyone!!!

Say A Little Prayer

2010-04-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

I came across this doa from Nuurill's blog a while back and feel that its a complete wish to ask from Allah the Almighty.

Arwah would've been 1 year old a few days back..and here I am anxiously waiting for my little miracle to be delivered anytime now..(I am 38 weeks today) I just feel like sharing it with everyone and it's a little prayer I have for myself..

Bismillahirahmanirahim..
Ya Allah! Sekiranya memang inilah yang telah ditentukan padaku, maka dekatkanlah ia dengan hatiku. Permudahkanlah segalanya..
Tapi sekiranya tidak, jauhkanlah ia. Berikanlah petunjuk agar ku dapat mencari sesuatu yang lebih baik. Yang telah Engkau tentukan..
Amin..

I am anxiously waiting for my labor signs.. I think I might've experienced a few contractions since morning but it's too far apart to do anything. I am just monitoring the baby's movement for now and alhamdulillah so far everything is ok.

I have another check up with the good doctor this coming wednesday..maybe I'll see him sooner than that..I don't know. But I hope everything will go well from now onwards..

I already had a false alarm a few weeks back (was the same night I was supposed to meet up with the girls!!) but it was what it was..a false alarm..admitted for a night for observation tho due to my previous history..

*little baby..hope you'll give your mama MAJOR signs that you're coming ok? Your mama might be a bit paranoid on the little signs..*

And am honestly bored outta my head now....:P

New Member has Arrived!!!

2010-04-05T16:05:00.001+08:00

No!! I haven't given birth yet..and i know I said that I'd prolly blog after I have given birth..but this is a news I just can't resist to share..

My cousin Jaja gave birth to a baby girl yesterday at 12.48pm (i think?).. So i just wanted to share the news with everyone! I haven't visited her yet coz i have a few stuffs to do at home before i ship myself to my in-laws tomorrow (home renovations will begin tomorrow..) But will definitely go and visit her tomorrow onwards..

We're about 2 weeks apart (her EDD is supposed to be on the 17th April) so MAYBE this means another 2 weeks for me??? I will be 37 weeks next week so it should be ok...Will find out this friday on what the doctor decides..

I am SOOO excited for my dear cuzzie and myself too....mintak doa semuanya lancar dan selamat for all of us new mommies and mommies-to-be (yes..that means you guys too Azie and Mariko!)

So okay..that's all for now. Will do my best to keep you all posted on my progress..

*Sorry aa cik rawkstar..entry berbau keibuan..x dapek den nak menolong! Aku takmo jadi follower no 109 kau...tunggu nombor cantek lagi...*

This and That

2010-04-04T17:20:00.000+08:00

Dah seminggu cuti. I am bored outta my head! I had my mom over for a few days so it was a lot of good food and help around the house. She's gone back to Kuantan..needed to settle some stuffs before she goes off to India next week..holiday..hehe..I think she of all people deserves a holiday. For all that she has done and been through..I just wished I could've contributed a bit more for her trip. But with a baby just a few weeks left..my mom's timing is not quite right.

Oh before i forget..Happy Birthday SOPHIE!!! 18 with 10 years of experience huh!heheh! We'll get that dinner for you done soon ok? Elsa's is also just around the corner..on the 10th and Erni's on the 22nd..looks like I have a thing for April babies..even my bab(ies) are April babies....mean anything? It just means that April is a month for celebration!

*Gurls (you know who you are)..if you are reading this..I am still able to go out for dinner birthday celebrations with you guys before I pop within this coming week....pastu I can't promise if I can be a safe companion for you guys unless you are willing to get me to the hospital IN CASE anything were to happen! (now that would be worth blogging about!! Going into labour while having dinner with the gurls..DEFINITELY history in the making!!heheh!) but just to be safe..I'll bring my hospital card when I go out with you and let's choose a place that is close to the hospital I plan to deliver in k? Call me..I am a lady of leisure now....not need to LLB (Look Like Busy) on my chat status anymore!*

My dear cuzzie is I guess waiting impatiently at her place now. She's been 1.5cm dilated since thursday and her doctor is warded for fever!!hahaha! You poor dear Jaja..just hang in there and monitor the baby closely ok babe! Wishing you all the best and I hope the labor signs come soon for you!! You must be so anxious...coz I'm very anxious too..dah bosan dah menunggu!

My other momma-to-be Azie tatau apa cerita. Babe..I tried to call you the other day to check on how you're doing but couldn't get through..Hope everything is ok with you! It should be anytime now for you too right?

Well..as much as suami likes to plan things..his timing to renovate the house couldn't come in a more 'appropriate' time. Renovations for our kitchen and house is planned to begin tomorrow so I am shipped off to my in-laws til all the works are done..Well at least I will be able to get a decent internet connection there. Prolly start working on that certification report that is long overdue!!:P I need to get it done by the time I finish my maternity leave!!! Don't want to leave any loose ends when I venture into new pastures..*hehehe..nothing confirmed yet so am not saying anything..*

Wonder how my other chat partners are doing....since I've been on leave have not been able to go online much. Ketinggalan gosip...ada gosip ke wahai cik rawkstar, en. buih dan ustad hajime?????? Maybe I should get myself that blackberry phone....been eyeing on that White Blackberry Curve actually.....................

Wants and Needs...sigh..tak boleh. Budget lari..baby on the way. Cannot be selfish anymore! :P

So I guess that's it for today. A BIG possibility the next time I'll update my blog I'd be a mommy..Insya Allah...wish me luck people...Having mixed emotions now but fingers crossed...everything should be fine...

*Saw KUWTK a few days back..the episode where Kourtney Kardashian gave birth..I salute her!!!She was so calm and collected during the entire labour and even pulled out the baby herself!!!!!!!! Doubt I can do that but you have my utmost respect Kourtney! My inspiration when I go into labor nanti..will try to remain calm and strong!*

I'm Not Fat Enough

2010-03-26T16:07:00.001+08:00

I went for my check up today..according to my schedule, I am 34 weeks this week. Normal routine during checkups is my weight, urine and blood pressure. Everything is normal except I've only gained 200grams for the past 2 weeks and baby's head measurement is not according to my due date altho it's femur measured to 34weeks length.

Doctor addressed his concern that both baby and I are not gaining enough weight (I should be gaining about 1kg in 2 weeks) bacause all these while both baby and I were gaining at a consistent rate. If this is to continue, chances are i might have to deliver 3 weeks earlier than my due date (that is in 3 weeks time!!!) in concern that the baby's placenta might not be giving the baby nutrients effectively. On top of that, i have to reduce my movement (walking, working etc ect) so that more blood would flow to the baby instead of my body.

And because of that..I have decided to take my leave earlier than I initially planned to. My paranoia is getting the best of me but I am trying to be optimistic..

So..it's time to get FAT! We'll see how I progress in 2 weeks time. I hope everything will be back on track..else..insya allah i'll be seeing my little one earlier..

It doesn't matter..most importantly is that the baby and i will be strong and well..

Wish me luck everyone..hope both baby and i will get fatter!

*ikan bakar bellamy hari2?? Kalau ada org nak tolong buat home delivery aku go aje!!! Apparently 'debbie' is not debbie enough..:P*

The Month of March

2010-03-22T13:02:00.000+08:00

Is it just me or does this month feels like forever?? Today is only the 22nd when it already feels like its April. Dah puas dah aku pangkah hari-hari kat kalendar aku..macam tak habis2 lagi hari dalam bulan Mac ni.

Atau mungkin aku merasakan Monday Blues yang teramat sangat pada hari ni..Mogok takmo makan...

*ni gara-gara mengira hari nak dapat gaji sbb duit nak nipis dalam wallet..:P*

Cita-cita..

2010-03-19T16:41:00.000+08:00

Ni semua gara-gara baca artikel kat Kosmo online mengenai ulasan konsert Paramore di Singapura. Dan tak ketinggalan jugak hasil kena 'bakar' oleh cik rawkstar kita...Topik untuk hari ini adalah 'Cita-cita'. Bagaimana dari sebuah artikel di Kosmo menjadi inspirasi kepada cita-cita baru kami? Panjang ceritanya..maka tak perlu di ulas.

*sedang berusaha sedaya upaya untuk menulis blog dalam bahasa malaysia yang sempurna..*

Hasilnya, Cik Rawkstar bercita-cita menjadi Samantha Brown, manakala En. Buih ingin menjadi Horatio Caine...

Saya?

Dia ni..ataupun..

Dia ni la..

Jika anda tidak mengenali mereka berdua ni..oh! Anda tinggal di zaman batu! atau anda adalah seekor katak yang duduk di bawah tempurung!

Kenapa saya mahu menjadi mereka???

Yang berambut perang itu merupakan pewaris hotel terkemuka dunia dan yang berambut coklat itu pula merupakan seorang anak kepada peguam terkemuka di Amerika Syarikat (peguam OJ Simpson). Mereka adalah lebih dikenali sebagai 'Socialite' kerana mereka terkemuka bagaikan seorang artis, tetapi tidak mempunyai bakat dalam bidang lakonan, nyanyian mahupun sebagai pengacara atau ahli sukan.

Hahaha! Cita-cita aku yang SANGAT BIMBO! Tapi tentu seronok menjadi seperti mereka..kedua-duanya mempunyai rancangan realiti tersendiri, menjadi duta untuk pelbagai barangan atau produk (maka mempunyai banyak penaja untuk menaja cara hidup mereka walaupun duit bapa mereka dah cukup nak kasi makan semua orang yang sedang kelaparan di Afrika!) dan sentiasa dijemput untuk menghadiri pelbagai majlis-majlis sosial di seluruh DUNIA!

Jika saya adalah mereka, hari-hari saya hanya perlu bersolek (itupun saya akan mempunyai ahli solek persendirian untuk menyolek diri saya!), pergi membeli belah (kemungkinan besar mendapat pakaian secara percuma kerana saya adalah seorang iklan yang bergerak..) dan bersuka-ria sepanjang masa....

Jika saya ingin melancong, Samantha Brown sudah menawarkan diri untuk menjadi rakan baik..Sekiranya saya menghadapi masalah papparazzi..Horatio Caine kan kenal saya..tiada masalah!!

Oh bahagianya hidup ini!!

*nah anies!!entry aku yang tak berbau keibuan atau mengenai anak aku!!hahahaha!agak2 boleh dapat A tak untuk BM kalau buat exam??*

*ni la akibatnya banyak sangat bersembang ngan org bosan bekerja pada hari Jumaat! Esok sabtu!!yeayyy!!!*

When the Fatties Comes Marching In

2010-03-08T15:53:00.001+08:00

I had the fatbois over at my place last saturday..Habis peti ais aku kosong!hahahahah!

It was actually supposed to be just Mr. Buih and Amad coz Mr. Buih wanted to take photos of me preggers (part of his [365] project and partly I wanted some nice pics of my preggers days too) and Amad to discuss about some insurance stuffs for my baby.

"Gemuk gile kau sha! Tak nampak Nizar belakang kau!" - fatbois

But since I've never had the bois over to my place and suami needed to get to know them (cerita je banyak..jumpe jarang), we invited the regulars..Tokya, Shahir, Zano, Keptz, Sophie and Acad. Nothing special prepared..just some carbonara and lasagne (which wasn't enough..not surprised!!) and like I said..they totally cleared out my fridge!hahahah!! Even attempted to eat the glass grapes!!!!hahahahahah!!

It was nice having them over..to those that wasn't invited, sorry! This wasn't really a gathering per say..more of an impromptu thing. I promise I'll organize something with at least enough food to feed you all when I'm more 'larat' ok?

So after some food, headed downstairs for the photoshoot..It was a REALLY HOT night!! and Peah's flash 'takmo kawan'...But he did manage to get a few decent shots of me (I'm not Heidi Klum..yet!) and suami.

Me at 32 weeks...
Will upload the rest of the pics on my FB when I get them from Peah

Since it was a Saturday night, and suami has been itching to go for karaoke...we all decided to go for karaoke at Klang Parade (after mistakenly thought that NewsKTV was at Jusco Bukit Raja)..sejam pun sejam laa..But it was so much fun, laughed till my mouth hurt!! And yes..they sang songs that could put me through labor!!!! (and we discovered our very own Rani Mukherjee..and here I thought we only had 'Kurt' from Glee)

"Geram, jangan engkau geram..Geram! Geram!" - Geram, Black Dog Bone

Tokya's request to imitate the DiGi ad..

I had a really good evening with the fatbois that night..and so did suami. It's gonna be a LOOOOONGGG time til we will be able to do this kinda thing once the baby arrives..Sorry the food wasn't enough guys but thank you anyway for coming and filling up my long since eventless Saturday night..

If you're interested to get preggers pictures of yourself, Peah is more than happy to do so. You can contact him through his blog or flickr. You can see his work here. Thank you peah! Am loving the pics..including the DiGi ad!!:)

*it felt like old times...kau pun kawan aku dari zaman batu peah!*

The Theorist: The Seal Theory

2010-03-01T16:03:00.000+08:00

I have always admired Heidi Klum..she's one HOT momma ok! For a woman with FOUR kids and still looking as hot as she does...she's my idol.

So during one of my 'session' with the theorist today, when we were planning about taking my pregnancy photos..he came up with another theory..

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The Seal Theory

Mak Buyung: i camera shy

The Theorist: poyo ah ko

Mak Buyung: hahah

aku serious dowh

lainla kalo aku heidi klum

hahahahhahaha

The Theorist: ko tak tau

ko lagi nasib baik dari heidi klum

coz suami is like 1000x more good looking than seal

Mak Buyung: but seal 1000x richer than suami

hahahahahahah

tu pasal dapat heidi klum ok

and suami is stuck with me

The Theorist: betul gak

tu sebab aku nak jadi kaya...

Mak Buyung: nak dpt bini cam heidi klum?

The Theorist: tak

Mak Buyung: beh tu?

The Theorist: sebab lepas tu aku boleh jadi buruk macam seal

Mak Buyung: hahahahahahahahahahah

The Theorist: aku takyah mandi

aku pakai selipar jepun je

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Yes Mr. Theorist..you can pakai selipar jepun and not shower if you are as rich as Seal. But Heidi Klum is still hot even when she is pregnant..If I looked like her..you'd be paying me to take my picture...hehehehe!

The Theorist: The Gmail Theory

2010-02-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

One of my many (bad) habits at work is keeping in touch with friends via IM. I have a few who are my regular causes of senyum-sorang2-kat-opis and one of them just dubbed himself as the Theorist. Somehow I am always the victim to listen to his theories..mainly about how to get girls..So today (and maybe many more entries after this..) I have started a new tag JUST FOR HIS THEORIES and labelled it as 'the theorist.'

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The Gmail Theory

Mak Buyung: Aku terharu kau dl Gtalk semata nak chat ngan aku
The Theorist: Manede..aku kene ikut perkembangan semasa..
                     Budak2 zaman sekarang mana main MSN atau YM dah
                     Cube kau bayangkan, bile aku jumpe 'kari' muda
   Pastu aku tanya "What's your msn/ym id?"
                     Mesti dia respon "Oh..you're so yesterday..we use gtalk now!"
   Cuba kalau aku tanya "What's your gtalk id?"
                     Mesti dia jawab "Wow! You're so cool!"

*nasib baik ko tak mintak mIRC punya nickname dude!!and btw..aku rasa kau akan lagi advance kalau kau mintak BB id!hahahah!*

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Please note that the conversation has been edited sbb dah lama gile kitorg cakap pasal bende ni. I don't remember it word for word..but that's the essence of it!

definition 'kari' = awek

Next theory..Berpura-pura Pondan...wait for it ok?

Blessings from Suami

2010-02-22T15:19:00.000+08:00

Throughout my pregnancy experience, I have heard a lot of old wives tales about pregnancy..from how to tell if you're having a boy or a girl, to what to eat/not to eat, to what to see/not to see incase your baby will look like those things you see (not very convinced about this, but no intention of not following it either..)

But the most interesting and I find quite logical (and sometimes proven true through my personal observations laa) is the one that my mom told me recently..

"Blessings from your husband, will help you go through labor much easier.."

Hohohoho! Suami was sooo happy when I told him about this "Best la..Mama dah kasi I lesen besar! Sekarang you tak boleh Derhaka dengan I!!Hahahahaha!" Suami ketawa besar...because all these while, everyone has told him that because I am pregnant, he must fulfill whatever I want/need..but this 'thing' my mom said..means other wise :P

Point of the story is..you see..as a muslim, we have always known that once a girl marries, she is no longer the responsibility of her parents. All her sins and doings (good and bad) will be borne by the husband. Even is she has served the husband well, without the blessing of her husband, she will not be able to go to heaven (but there are fine prints to this believe too ok..it only applies if the husband has treated her well and fair will he have the authority to determine whether she can go to heaven or not).

I think there is some truth to this tale my mom told me. Because a good husband goes through the hardship and tests of a pregnancy as well (there are some husbands who has morning sickness too okay!) He may not go through the exact thing that us women go through, but he is tested nonetheless. Although when we go into labor, it's almost as if we're battling life and death..and there is no way that he will ever be able to feel the pain that we go through..but no good husband could bear seeing his wife in such pain without feeling it in his own way..

When we are pregnant, we get special treatment from almost everyone (I got free drink while waiting for my tapau lunch just now..)..but husbands with expecting wives gets pressured with the thought of the responsibilities that he is about to bear, the things he has to do to provide for the new member of the family and ensure that the wife is as comfortable as she can get..his blessings to make labor for the wife easier is I guess just god's way of giving him some credit so that the wife doesn't take advantage or misuse on all the special treatments that she is getting...agree?

Well..in suami's case..I hope he doesn't feel as if I have 'derhaka' to him or anything. As far as I know..I don't think that I have done anything wrong to him..but it's always safe to ask for his forgiveness before I go into the labor room (another 'petua orang2 tua' before we go into labor too!)

I love you sayang..and I'm sorry if I have done anything wrong to you or hurt you in any way ok? Konpem nak mintak berkat suami ok!!!!

My fav picture from our solemnization that was just recently uploaded by Zarith a few weeks back!

Ni baru laa moment amik berkat kann??heheheh!

*in case you didn't know..I am 30 weeks now..my expected due date is 1st May (penat dah jawab soklan org tanya bile aku nak beranak...) harap maklum!*

My Year of the Tiger

2010-02-14T15:40:00.001+08:00

I truly love CNY!!!

Why you might ask? There is absolutely NO TRAFFIC! Apart from the fact that my CNY weekend is shorter than anyone else's due to my company's public holiday policy..i have enjoyed the last 2 days with suami going around town without the stress of traffic jam! Even suami was willing to take me out shopping for my maternity clothes (which is long overdue since i've gain more weight during this pregnancy!)

Well..hope the weekend has been kind to all of you too! Enjoy it while it lasts!

Gong xi fa chai everyone!!

What to Pack in your Maternity Bag, Asian version..

2010-02-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

In response to Azie's comment, I have come out with the list of things to be included into our maternity bag when we go for labor. My list might not be complete but I have researched online about the list of stuffs to bring online, none seem to suit our asian ways. So based on my past experience, these are a few things I think are essential to bring. Please note that the amount of the stuffs to bring are approximate coz it depends on how long you will be in the hospital. Some might need less..some might need more..up to you.

For mommy-to-be

Kain batik - at least 3pcs (more if you like..depends on how long your stay in the hospital)
Buttoned down shirts - at least 2pcs (for easy breast feeding when baby arrives)
T-shirts - (to wear before going into labor la)
Cardigan or buttoned sweatshirt - it can get cold in the hospital kan?
Socks - at least 2 pairs
Slip-on shoes or slippers - you'll be wearing socks after bersalin.
Maternity pads - 1 pack, make sure you have the strings for them too. Some hospitals will provide, but best to have your own set.
Towel
Toiletteries - toothbrush, toothpaste, shower cream/gel, body lotion, facial wash, hairbrush, scrunchie, make up(if you wear them laa).
Maternity bra
Change of underwears
Barut + hot oil - for after delivery or when going home

If you get admitted earlier or decide to check yourself in earlier than you due date, get clothes that you are comfortable to wear. For me, it's always kain batik and suami's t-shirt :)

For baby

Receiving blanket
Cloth diaper
A complete set of baby's clothes - including barut baby, mittens, booties, cap (if you like)
Baby Diapers
* bundle these stuffs up in the receiving blanket or the cloth diaper so it will be easy for the nurses to find them when they are done cleaning the baby and want to clothe them before sending them to you.

Maybe another set of clothes for the baby too for when you want to take the baby home.
Baby wipes.

Am a bit inexperience for the baby stuffs. So I am not sure if we should bring the baby's essential toiletteries like minyak telon or Yu Yi oil. But I think the hospital will clean and wash the baby for us before we take them home. Am not sure, so maybe we should ask those who's been through this before. But to get your bases covered, just use shower gel for babies for yourself so that in case we need to bathe the baby ourselves, we have it already kan?

The Extras

Air selusuh (if you have any la)
Dried fruits or granola bars or buah kurma - some snacks to keep the energy going before going for labor. Trust me..you'll need all the energy you can get.
Namelist + phone numbers of people you'd like to notify when the bundle of joy arrives. Suami might not know ALL your friends or family members. This list is more for the husbands to use.

So these are the stuffs that you can pack into your bag and leave the bag in the car maybe when you're in your 30th week onwards..no need to kelam kabut when you do go into labor nanti! :)

And make sure you keep your hospital card and health insurance card, IC and other important documents in your handbag. And I'd advice for you not to change your handbags anytime soon for now. Just incase it gets a bit chaotic when you're going to the hospital, at least the husband knows which one is your handbag. Wouldn't want to go to the hospital and not have your ID with you right?

So these are just a few suggestions from me. Maybe I have left out a few items so let's exchange notes.

*in my 28th week now..time seem to fly by so fast..:)*

Count the Blessings

2010-02-07T17:03:00.000+08:00

With everything that has happened in my life lately..many has asked me how am I able to keep such a strong front.

Honestly..I don't know how...

Met up with an old friend a few days back. oh by the way Kak Hanis..."happy belated birthday laaa!" It was the day after her birthday when we met. But because it took HER THIS LONG to finally meet up with me, terlupa nak wish...we talked so much because there was soo many things to catch up. But I did wish you the day before kannn....

And as usual...when with her..the stories are NEVER ENDING..with the backlashes at each other (mostly coming from me)..funny stories, old stories, new stories..GOSSIP..hahahaha! I had fun spending the whole afternoon with her.

I also noticed a pleasant change in her. She just turned another decade (I make you sound so ancient kann?) but never have I met someone with her status who is so confident and carefree about being so. Although she did rant for a while that it was surreal she's turned into a whole new number..With having her whole weekends full up til April with god knows what she has planned out..going to BOTH babyface's concert in Singapore AND KL..her running tourneys and holidays..and classes in between..she sounds like she's having the time of her life..

I like seeing my friends happy..I didn't see her when she wasn't..But I'm happy she came through and I hope she has found herself...

I guess that is how I have always survived any tests or ordeals that god has given me..by counting the blessings..not only mine, but also those around me..and be happy for them. It does gives me a sense of comfort and contentness when good things happens to my loved ones...few comes my way..but I cherish them all.

But when tested..I try my very best not to dwell on it too long. One advice my mom gave me when I was really young and kept to heart.."Sleep on it..things always seems better in the morning" and yes..it always does. Time heals all...but you have to let it heal by letting go.

I will always think of my late son...there are still days when I cry for him, missing him and thinking what it would be like to have him around..But I have another miracle on the way. I hope against all hopes that she will be born safe and healthy...And I will do my very best to love and care for her..like I would have done for my son..

I count my blessings..maybe you should too and perhaps life would be a happier journey for you..

"When a door closes, a window opens..."

My First..

2010-01-29T22:10:00.001+08:00

I know it's not such a big deal..but in a way it is. Although it took me this long for it to happen..but I'm proud that it did. Because it is my very first...

My very first CAR!

Proton Saga SE

Woot!woot!..I know it's no BMW or Mercedes..but hey...it's my very first car! Bought (and will continue to pay for the next 9 years) by my own self!!

Suami finds it so amusing that I had this weird expression of disbelief when we went to pick it up yesterday..I'm like that. Things like this..good things..don't happen often in my life and I'm always puzzled by how I should react everytime it does happen. We even managed to get our 3 digits registration number. Alhamdulillah....

Review for the car? Alaaaaa..you're asking the wrong person. All I can say, it's a pleasant car to drive and suami didn't burp all the way to work this morning when he was driving (he burps when he drives indicating that he is bored)..Now I just need to scout for the car MP3 player we bought a few months back that suami kept god knows where...

But I hope this will not be the only good news for the year...the biggest good news I'm really looking forward to will be coming end of April....amin....

And peah..I DON'T WANT YOUR JON!!! Plus ai kenot laa take the picture like you suggested.....not right now at least..heheh!

Fara Alia Strikes Again..

2010-01-23T18:57:00.000+08:00

Aku ingat dia dah reti dah bahasa last week bila aku cakap wrong number dan terus tak layan..Sangkaan ku meleset. Dia call lagi aku..2 kali..Pastu kami bersms

Fara Alia: We, ko kt ner? (exact sms spelling ok)

Mak Buyung: Sape ni?

Fara Alia: Ko ni sape?hzwn an?nier aq lh, fara alia..we nk pnjm mto
*aku tak paham ko nak saving word sms sampai perkataan aku=aq..tapi bile eja ni=nier..ape konsep saving weyh???*

Mak Buyung: Bukan hazwan la.salah no.

Pastu dia call. Aku fedap maka aku jawab. Tapi aku beringat untuk tidak jawab dgn kurang ajar sbb last time org gile meroyan cemni salah nombor ngan aku..free aku kene maki.

Dengar suara budak pompuan cakap hello..dan tanpa membuang masa, aku terus cakap "Ni bukan Hazwan (obviously suara aku pompuan kannn??). Salah nombor" Dia cakap "ok" pastu terus letak phone.

Ingatkan dah settle dah. Dia dah puas hati dah bile dengar suara aku...oh tidak...Dia sms lagi..

Fara Alia: Ko knal x azmi.

Mak Buyung: Tak.

Fara Alia: Ko form bape?skewl kt ner?

Shit! Suara aku cam suara budak skolah ke???????????????????Seperti biasa, ikutkan hati aku rasa nak maki hamun sebakul budak kecik ni. Tapi..tak guna aku turun sama level ngan minah rempit tak cukup umur ni kan. Maka aku pun balas..

Mak Buyung: Aku dah kawin.umur aku 29 so confirm aku x kenal sesape pun yg kau kenal.sori..

Dan telefon aku sepi selepas itu.

Aku kasi can kat budak kecik ni. Sbb baru 2 kali dia insist jugak nak cari Hazwan pakai nombor aku. Kali ke-3..CONFIRM aku maki...kalau dia sengal dan desperate sgt..cubalah kalau nak merasa mulut puaka mak buyung....

Aku ni macam nak kene start "Siri Wrong Number" je..

*Is it just me or are the kids nowadays REALLY annoying????*

Blackberry vs. iPhone

2010-01-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

Am thinking of changing my phone. No doubt I truly love my sony ericsson phone..but with the current trend and technology..My beloved sony ericsson seems to be so pre-historical. So right now..I have 2 phones that I'm contemplating on getting..

Blackberry or iPhone 3Gs?

So okay..let's lay out the arguments. We'll start with Blackberry..

Pros.
1. Free BB chat with other BB users. So far a few friends I know who uses this are rawkstar, sapik and suami.
2. Sudoku! :P
3. I like the QWERTY keypad.
4. If the battery dies off..I can change it..just the battery I mean..not the whole phone.

Cons.
1. The package for BB is way beyond the amount of phone bill I consume monthly. I think Celcom BB package is RM98 (unlimited data)..exclusive of your voice calls and smses (pls correct me if I'm wrong..). My TOTAL current phone bill is only RM98 unlimited data+my monthly voice calls & smses. Sometimes much lesser.
2. If I take the package that comes together with the BB, I think I'll have to pay about RM130 + RM118 for the Celcom Executive package (or do I just have to pay RM130? Again..please correct me if I'm wrong), contract for 2 years.
3. I don't really need to use the email function. Well..not with my current job at least. So that's the feature that BBs are well known for.
4. Can I store music and pictures? As much as I have in my Sony Ericsson?
5. No video call..

So okay..now my argument for iPhone..

Pros.
1. Definitely a lifestyle smartphone..pictures, music plus I think I can blog from the phone too.
2. No iPhone commitment package. I can maintain my current phone package.
3. Way more choices for games etc..(suami's favorite is the tong sampah game!)
4. With my unlimited data plan, I can still get push mail and chat using ebuddy (gtalk, ym, msn...)
5. Boleh video call ke?
6. Suami might be getting me my very first Macbook...so laa compatible to have an iPhone kan?

Cons.
1. No BB chat obviously..
2. If the battery kaput...the whole phone has to go.
3. Touch screen keypad..for smses etc..not really my thing.
4. No package to get iPhone for a cheaper price or free. I'm a hardcore Celcom supporter and I don't really like any other networks. This decision is final..no matter how many times I will be mistaken as Sabri or Hazwan or Rumah Mayat Subang Jaya...The number and network stays. I'm naively loyal like that.

So there you have it. Don't ask me to argue about the technical part of the phones. I don't know. Have never been a gadget freak and I doubt it I will ever be one. So my arguments are OBVIOUSLY very superficial..:P

So how? Feel free to throw in more arguments. If not I will just stick to my Sony Ericsson or take suami's Nokia E71 (because of the keypad obviously..:P) until I really ABSOLUTELY need to use either one of these phones.

Should I start a poll?

Wrong Number!

2010-01-21T09:33:00.000+08:00

Aku tak tau laa sebab aku dah pakai nombor aku lama sangat ke...ataupun nombor aku ni senang untuk ditekan. Tapi aku selalu menjadi mangsa wrong number. Kalau dulu ada pompuan simpanan middle-age mana tah yang meroyan mencari boyfriend dia bernama En. Sabri...kali ni nombor aku mewakili lelaki muda bernama Hazwan...

Hari Ahad aritu, aku teringgal phone kat rumah masa teman suami pegi diving kat Pusat Akuatik Shah Alam (sian suami..gian nak diving..swimming pool pun layan..) Dan seperti biasala..bila tertinggal phone..time tu la ramai manusia nak call. Bila aku bawak..haram tak berbunyi. So bila aku balik rumah, aku check phone..tgk miss call dari Bonda tercinta 2 kali dan nombor aku tatau 6 kali, plus 3 sms - 2 sms iklan bodoh annoying dan 1 sms dari nombor yang tak diketahui tu..

Ayat sms nombor tak tau tu..

"Mekom"

Baca je sms..aku dah tau dah..ni mesti org yang tak rapat ngan aku atau orang yang aku tak kenal. Sms sangatlah not my style! Selalunya aku tak layan tapi sebab aku terpikir..mungkin ni bebudak sekolah rendah aku dulu kot sbb aku baru-baru ni aku ada create group sekolah rendah aku kat Facebook. Mungkin nak contact pasal reunion ke hape ke...so aku balas laa..

"W'salam. Sape ni?"

Dia balas.."Ni farah alia"

Gile babi dah pecah kepala aku pikir sape budak nama farah alia yang aku kenal...Takde...So CONFIRM ni salah nombor. Makanya aku malas nak layan.

TAPI....budak ni start miss call aku....4 kali!!!! Kali ke-5 aku sempat angkat tapi dia terus letak. Memang CONFIRM la salah nombor..sebab setahu aku..org2 dah berumur cam aku ni dah tak main dah miss call-miss call...zaman2 belajar kat uni dulu ade la. Japgi dia sms aku lagi..

"Mekom...Hazwan ada?"

Pulak dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Dalam hati aku ..kesian budak ni. Mesti stok jumpe 'Hazwan' ni kat club/mamak/tpt lepak budak muda sekarang tah mana-mana semalam..dapat nombor tapi dia tak di layan. Kata the night before was a Saturday. Sigh...so..sebab kesian..aku balas..

"Sorry..salah nombor"

Tapi dia balas pulak.."Ni sapa?"

Nak je aku malas..ni nombor telepon mak buyung yang dah naik angin sebab kau dok miss call aku, BODOH!

Tapi aku tak sampai hati..plus aku rasa mesti banyak soklan dia lagi pastu. Membazir duit aku je..maka aku biarkan saja Farah Alia keciwa dengan Hazwan sebab bagi dia nombor salah...

Sekian..

*adakah ini petunjuk untuk aku tukar nombor aku..sekaligus tukar telepon menjadi blackberry???hahahah!*

membership..

2010-01-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

Tokya and Peah is having a ball calling me fatty or fat lady or mok....

I submit to the nicknames...

Today I went for my checkup and I gained 3kgs in 3 weeks!hahaha! It is the first time that Dr. Idris ever mentioned anything about it.

"Banyak ni...you should actually only be gaining 1/2kg a week..let's check if its the baby.."

"Baby is normal size...the weight gain is all you.."

hahahahha..I know..I admit. And my recent chocolate cravings are not helping either.

Fine..funny fat lady in the house!!!!!